HungerFF Presents: Brolapse

Episode 92 (Radio Edit — Full Ep on Spotify): Dominic Pacifico — From Twink to Daddy, Porn’s Evolution & Finding a Second Act

This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with longtime performer, producer, DJ, and fetish icon Dominic Pacifico for a candid conversation spanning nearly three decades in the adult industry. In this special radio edit, Dominic reflects on breaking into porn at just 18 years old, navigating the studio era of the late 1990s and early 2000s, and the mentorship he received from industry legends like Michael Brandon during his early years at Raging Stallion. The conversation explores how attitudes toward fetish content have changed over time, the rise of creator platforms, and why longevity in adult entertainment has become more challenging—and more rewarding—than ever before. Dominic also shares how the pandemic unexpectedly launched an entirely new chapter of his career, transforming him from a performer known for versatility into one of the most recognizable names in modern fetish content. Along the way, Ryan and Dominic swap stories from the industry’s golden era, discuss the difference between “porn stars” and “content creators,” and reflect on what it takes to build a lasting career in an industry that never stops evolving. For the complete uncensored interview, extended audio, and video version of this episode, subscribe on Spotify for just $2.99/month. 🎧 New episodes every Friday at 8PM. 📖 Deeper: Anti Memoir https://www.hungerff.com/deeper 📚 Signed Editions https://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editions 🎵 HungerFF Sound Initiative https://www.hungerff.com/spotify

Episode 91 (Radio Edit — Full Ep on Spotify): Ray Diesel — How One Hookup Changed Everything

This week on Brolapse, Ryan sits down with longtime friend and performer Ray Diesel for a conversation that spans more than a decade in the adult industry. The two reconnect after running into each other at the JustForFans Conference and dive into Ray’s unforgettable introduction to a side of gay culture he didn’t even realize existed at the time. What starts as a hilarious story about a hot military daddy quickly becomes a fascinating look at how much queer sexual culture has changed over the years. Ryan and Ray also reflect on filming together for the first time, how the industry evolved from long studio shoots to creator-driven content, why Fort Lauderdale became an unexpected hub for adult production, and the realities of navigating content creation in cities like Los Angeles, Miami, and Atlanta. Along the way, Ray shares stories about working with creators including Axel Abysse, why he has become more selective about the projects he takes on, and how his approach to content has shifted from chasing quantity to focusing on genuine chemistry, authentic moments, and collaborations that actually excite him. The conversation also explores the behind-the-scenes reality of creator events and conferences, the pressure many performers put on themselves to maximize every opportunity, and why sometimes the best content comes from slowing down, being present, and enjoying the experience rather than treating every encounter like a production schedule. If you’re enjoying this radio edit, there’s a lot more waiting for you. For just $2.99 per month, Spotify subscribers get access to the complete uncensored version of this episode, full-length video episodes, the entire Brolapse video archive, extended audio content, and weekly chapters of Deeper: The Audiobook every Wednesday. If you’ve ever wanted these conversations exactly as they happened—longer, uncut, and completely unfiltered—this is where you’ll find them. Funny, insightful, nostalgic, and surprisingly thoughtful, Episode 91 offers a rare look at the changing landscape of queer adult entertainment through the eyes of two creators who have witnessed the industry’s transformation firsthand. 🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse 🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX 🎧 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse ❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273 🎙️ Subscribe on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse 📖 Deeper: Anti Memoir https://www.hungerff.com/deeper 📚 Signed Editions https://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editions 🎵 New music drops every Friday through the HungerFF Sound Initiative: https://www.hungerff.com/spotify

Episode 90: Alex Tikas Returns — Parasocial Hell, Fame Without Money, & Being the Villains

Alex Tikas returns to Brolapse nearly 90 episodes after becoming the very first guest on the show, and this time the conversation goes way deeper than Mexico stories. Ryan James and Alex unpack what it’s really like to live as two of the most polarizing figures in adult entertainment — from parasocial relationships and online pile-ons to public misconceptions, fisting stigma, fame without fortune, and the emotional toll of constantly being perceived through fantasy instead of reality. The episode dives into fan entitlement, internet outrage, hookup culture, and the strange disconnect between the personas performers create and who they actually are behind closed doors. Along the way, they revisit the shared betrayal that once made them enemies before eventually bringing them together as friends. Funny, brutally honest, self-aware, and surprisingly emotional, this episode becomes less about porn and more about identity, projection, loneliness, ego, survival, and trying to hold onto yourself while thousands of strangers think they already know who you are.

Episode 89: FFalconPunch Part 2 — Community, Connection & Protecting What Matters

In Part 2 of my conversation with FFalconPunch, we dive into some of the most meaningful topics we’ve ever discussed on Brolapse. We talk about mentorship, community building, and why belonging shouldn’t be determined by follower counts, party invitations, or perceived status. FFalconPunch shares his philosophy that “if you’re interested, you already belong,” and explains why connection, curiosity, and shared experience are far more important than competition or comparison. The conversation also explores friendship, loyalty, and standing up for the people you care about. FFalconPunch opens up about being bullied growing up, how those experiences shaped his protective instincts, and why he believes community members have a responsibility to look out for one another—especially when safety, consent, and trust are at stake. We also tackle one of the most serious discussions ever featured on Brolapse: substance use, harm reduction, and the dangers of Maximum Impact. Drawing from personal experience and heartbreaking loss, FFalconPunch shares why education and honest conversations can save lives, and why silence around these issues helps no one. Finally, we reflect on our decades-long friendship, the evolution of queer spaces, the changing nature of online content creation, and the importance of protecting intimacy in a world that increasingly encourages us to monetize everything. Thoughtful, funny, emotional, and surprisingly vulnerable, this episode is a reminder that the strongest communities aren’t built on status—they’re built on people showing up for one another. 🎙️ Guest: FFalconPunch🖤 Part 2 of a two-part conversation.

Episode 88: BeatRush94XXX — Seahorse Toys, Alpha Bottoms & the Evolution of Modern Fisting

This week on Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with @Beatrush94XXX for a hilarious, surprisingly thoughtful, and extremely relatable conversation about toys, self-play, fisting culture, and the strange journey from curiosity to obsession. The two dive into giant “door stopper” plugs, Seahorse toy addiction, solo play routines, Denver’s growing fisting scene, “alpha bottom” energy, and why the modern fisting community feels more relaxed, playful, and social than ever before. Along the way, they talk about the balance between pleasure and performance, why humor belongs in the bedroom, and how COVID accidentally created an entire new generation of fisters. What starts as a conversation about giant toys quickly turns into one of the most natural and chemistry-filled Brolapse episodes yet — complete with war-zone bedrooms, Netflix-and-toys sessions, Telegram fisting clubs, and enough oversized silicone to qualify as furniture. Expect laughs, chaos, surprisingly wholesome moments, and a very serious discussion about why every experienced bottom eventually develops strong opinions about the Seahorse. 🐴👊 Follow BeatRush94XXX: X / BlueSky / JustForFans: @BeatRush94XXX

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Episode 87: Fist Pit — Pool Parties, Roleplay & Finding Community in Salt Lake City

This week on HungerFF Presents: Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with @FistPit for a funny, thoughtful, and surprisingly heartfelt conversation about curiosity, connection, fantasy, and the path from private exploration to becoming one of X’s most recognizable fisting creators. What begins with “the toys just kept getting bigger” turns into a wild origin story involving a suburban pool party, a spontaneous tutorial from trusted friends, and the moment Stephen realized an entirely new world had opened up to him. From there, the conversation dives into the evolution of his online presence — starting as a private “digital memoir” of personal milestones before eventually embracing visibility and community online. The two also explore the psychology behind roleplay, gear, and fantasy-building, including cowboy scenarios, football-themed sessions, chastity, and how creating immersive atmospheres can completely transform the experience. Stephen opens up about the hidden but thriving Salt Lake City fetish scene, monthly Red Hankey socials, neighborhood play parties, and the hilariously supportive suburban neighbors who know exactly what’s happening down the street. Elsewhere, the episode gets reflective as they discuss vulnerability, chemistry, trust, and the emotional intimacy that makes fisting different from almost any other sexual experience. From double-fisting stories in Palm Springs to competitive cheerleading backgrounds and unforgettable moments of connection, this episode balances humor, honesty, and genuine warmth. Raw, funny, weirdly wholesome, and full of memorable stories, Episode 87 is ultimately about finding your people, embracing what excites you, and discovering that community can exist in the most unexpected places — sometimes right across the street.

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Episode 86: Jeff Carter (Dyn0 of StudFist) — From Cam Rooms to Culture Shift

In Episode 86 of HungerFF Presents: Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with a true pioneer of modern fisting culture — Jeff Carter, also known as Dyn0, co-founder of StudFist.com. What starts as a long-overdue reunion quickly turns into something deeper: a candid conversation about growth, accountability, and the evolution of an entire subculture. Ryan opens with a heartfelt acknowledgment of their past, setting the tone for an episode rooted in honesty and mutual respect. Jeff takes listeners back to the early days of StudFist in San Francisco — from accidental cam room success to building one of the most influential platforms in the space. Together, they unpack how authenticity, “fly-on-the-wall” realism, and a refusal to follow industry norms helped reshape what fisting content could be. The conversation expands into the broader evolution of the scene — normalization, technology, generational shifts, and the rise of creator-driven platforms like StudFist.fans. Jeff offers rare insight into sustaining a niche brand for nearly two decades while staying true to its original spirit. They close on something real: aging in the industry, relationships within it, and the importance of having a plan beyond it. It’s raw, reflective, and unexpectedly heartfelt — a full-circle moment between two creators who helped define the culture from different angles.

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Episode 85: Chris Wydeman, Part 2 — Brotherhood, Boundaries, and the Evolution of the Scene

art two picks up right where we left off with Chris Wydeman — and this time, we go deeper, looser, and way more unfiltered. Ryan and Chris dive into how the scene has evolved from underground and niche to something far more visible and accessible, especially among younger generations. They reflect on the shift in culture, the changing dynamics at events like FistFest and IML, and what it feels like to now be the “veterans” that others look up to. The conversation gets personal as they unpack the realities of sex work — the toll it can take, the blurred lines between performance and authenticity, and what it means to reclaim intimacy outside of the camera. Chris opens up about stepping away from the industry, while Ryan reflects on the challenge of separating HungerFF from his real identity. They also confront heavier topics: addiction, trust, and how substance use can distort connection, both emotionally and physically. There’s honesty here about mistakes, broken trust, and what it takes to rebuild meaningful relationships — including a heartfelt moment of reconciliation between the two. And because it’s Brolapse, it wouldn’t be complete without some absolute chaos: wild party stories, unexpected moments, and the kind of absurdity that only exists in this world. At its core, this episode is about connection — the kind that goes beyond the surface. Brotherhood, boundaries, forgiveness, and finding balance in a life that’s anything but ordinary. 🎧 New episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM.🎥 Full video available on HungerFF.com🔥 Early video access for Spotify subscribers

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Episode 84: Chris Wydeman (Part 1) — From Self-Discovery to Spiritual Connection

Episode 84 of HungerFF Presents: Brolapse is here—and this one goes all the way back to the beginning. In Part 1 of this two-part conversation, Ryan James sits down with longtime friend and collaborator Chris Wydeman (@wydemanxxx) to unpack the origin story behind one of the most respected names in the scene. What starts as a conversation about curiosity and self-exploration quickly evolves into something deeper—touching on connection, discipline, and the mindset that separates experience from intention. Chris opens up about discovering everything on his own at 18, long before he even had a name for it, and how that journey led him into community, mentorship, and a more methodical, almost spiritual approach. Together, Ryan and Chris reflect on their early experiences, the evolution of the culture, and what’s been lost—and gained—as things have shifted toward a more content-driven world. They also get into: • The difference between exploration and performance • Why slowing down can take you further • The importance of intuition, trust, and safety • How practice, patience, and awareness shape real growth • The balance between physical and psychological connection This is a conversation built on years of shared history, mutual respect, and lived experience—and it sets the stage for an even deeper dive in Part 2. 🎧 Listen & Subscribe: Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273 🎥 Want more? Spotify subscribers get early video access + exclusive weekly drops of Deeper: The Audiobook Series every Wednesday. 📖 DEEPER: Anti Memoir Grab your copy: https://www.hungerff.com/deeper Signed & numbered editions: https://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editions 👕 Merch – FFamous & Rich Tee: https://hungerff.threadless.com/designs/ffamous-and-rich/ 🎶 HungerFF Sound Initiative (New music every Friday): https://www.hungerff.com/spotify This is just Part 1… and we’re only getting started. 👉 Like, follow, subscribe, and if you’ve been enjoying the show, leave a review—it goes a long way.

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Episode 83: FFalconPunch — Origins, Identity, and Finding Your Place (Part 1)

This week on Brolapse, I sit down with one of my longest-time friends, FFalconPunch, for a conversation that goes way beyond where it all started. We get into his origin story — from a spontaneous first experience that changed everything, to the unexpected moment he landed on the name “FFalconPunch” and how it stuck. What starts off funny and chaotic quickly turns into something deeper: a look at identity, growth, and how we find ourselves in spaces we never expected to belong to. We also talk about how the scene has evolved over time — moving away from ego and hierarchy toward something more inclusive, more connected, and more rooted in shared experience. It’s about community, learning from each other, and understanding that the people and moments you don’t expect can end up shaping you the most. This is Part 1 of a much bigger conversation — and trust me, we’re just getting started. 🎧 Listen now and follow Brolapse for Part 2.

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Episode 82: Max Muscles — From First Time to Full Send: Muscle, Mindset & Going Deeper

Max Muscles joins Brolapse for an honest, funny, and surprisingly thoughtful conversation about how curiosity turns into confidence—and how pushing limits isn’t always what you think it is. What starts as a simple story about a weekend hookup quickly becomes something more. Max walks through his first experience, how it shaped his perspective, and how that moment opened the door to a whole new side of himself. From there, we dive into his evolution—from shy and private to confidently creating and sharing content with a growing audience. We also explore the connection between bodybuilding and personal progression. The same mindset that drives growth in the gym shows up in other areas too—but as Max shares, it’s not always about going bigger or further. Sometimes the real lesson is learning to slow down, stay present, and actually enjoy the experience. Along the way, we get into everything from collaborations and creative setups to the realities behind preparation, discipline, and consistency. It’s a mix of humor, honesty, and real insight into what it takes to grow—not just physically, but mentally. If you’ve ever been curious about how people evolve, push boundaries, and find their lane while staying grounded, this episode delivers. 🎧 New episodes of Brolapse drop every Friday at 8 PM 🎥 Video episodes available on Spotify with early access for subscribers

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Episode 81: Chi Chi LaRue: 40 Years in Porn, Back on Set & Still Defining the Industry

This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with a true icon — Chi Chi LaRue — for a conversation that spans four decades of gay porn history, creative evolution, and what it really means to stay relevant in an industry that never stops changing. After stepping away from directing, Chi Chi returns behind the camera for the first time in years — and opens up about why the set has always been her “happy place.” From her early days in the 1980s working under pioneers like William Higgins to becoming one of the most influential directors in adult film, she reflects on the eras she helped shape — and the ones she helped redefine. The episode dives deep into the evolution of performer safety, from the height of the AIDS crisis to today’s testing culture, as well as the dramatic shift from structured studio systems to creator-driven platforms. Chi Chi shares her perspective on how the rise of OnlyFans-style content has disrupted the industry — and what’s been lost along the way. Ryan and Chi Chi also get into the art of directing itself — especially when it comes to capturing acts and fetishes outside your personal experience. For Chi Chi, it’s never been about personal preference — it’s about the visual, the chemistry, and knowing when to step back and let performers create something real. Along the way, the conversation blends humor, chaos, and honesty — from wild on-set stories and unforgettable shoots to sobriety, survival, and the reality of building (and rebuilding) a life in this industry. This isn’t just a conversation — it’s a rare look at the past, present, and future of porn, through the eyes of someone who helped define it. 🎧 Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse 🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX 📻 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse ❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273 🎬 Spotify subscribers get early video access + weekly bonus episodes of Deeper: The Audiobook (new chapters every Wednesday) 📖 Deeper: Anti Memoir: https://www.hungerff.com/deeper 📚 Signed & Numbered Editions: https://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editions 🎶 New music every Friday — HungerFF Sound Initiative: https://www.hungerff.com/spotify 🎧 LISTEN NOW:

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Episode 80:COVID to Confidence: PeteLDNFF on Growth, Grit & Letting Go

This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with UK creator PeteLDNFF for a conversation that goes way deeper than you’d expect. What starts as a story about discovering fisting turns into something much bigger—growth, resilience, and learning how to trust your body. Pete opens up about his early struggles, from painful setbacks and injuries to nearly giving up altogether, before finally finding his rhythm during lockdown. Like a lot of people, COVID became an unexpected turning point—but for him, it unlocked something real. The two dive into how access to better tools, patience, and consistency completely changed Pete’s experience, and why so many people get it wrong in the beginning. There’s a candid discussion about ego, pretending to be more experienced than you are, and why that mindset can backfire fast. They also get into the mental side of it all—body confidence, putting yourself out there, and how content creation became a way for Pete to take control of how he saw himself. Losing over 80 pounds wasn’t just physical—it was the start of a bigger transformation. Plus: chaotic toy sessions, the reality of editing burnout, wild event stories from Europe, and why chemistry and trust matter more than anything else. Whether you’re experienced or just curious, this episode is packed with real insight, humor, and a lot of “yeah… we’ve all been there” moments. New episodes of Brolapse drop every Friday at 8PM. Spotify subscribers get early video access.

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