HungerFF Presents: Brolapse

Episode 101 (Radio Edit — Full Ep on Spotify): Rob Montana — The Angry Inch, Fisting, and Finding the Performer He Actually Is

This is the FREE Radio Edit of my conversation with Rob Montana, available everywhere podcasts are found. It's an abbreviated version featuring the first stretch of our talk. The complete, uncensored interview is available exclusively to Spotify subscribers and to members of my official website (HungerFF.com) and my JustFor.Fans page. In this edit, Rob takes us back to the beginning: a worn-out VHS tape from an arcade booth in his early twenties, the FFA fisting houses of DC that first opened this world up to him, and the "expert" who told him he didn't have the anatomy to ever bottom for a fist. We get into the duality that hooked him, the masculinity of surrender, how the kink scene has changed from Tom of Finland leather to everything under the sun, and how a Montana kid ended up here at all. And that's just where it starts. The full conversation goes somewhere much deeper: the cosmetic surgery that nearly cost him everything, a relapse and recovery, and the hard-won line he lands on at the end. You'll have to subscribe to hear it. Spotify subscribers unlock the complete Brolapse experience for $2.99/month: - Full uncensored audio of every episode - Full-length video episodes - Weekly chapters of Deeper: The Audiobook, read by me, every Wednesday at 8PM Follow Rob everywhere at @RobMontanaXX (two X's). New episodes drop every Friday at 8PM. If you're enjoying the show, please follow, rate, review, and subscribe. It genuinely helps more than you know. 🌹🐷👊🏻

Episode 101 (Raw & Uncensored): Rob Montana — The Angry Inch, Fisting, and Finding the Performer He Actually Is

This is the complete, Raw & Uncensored conversation with Rob Montana, available exclusively to Spotify subscribers and to members of my official website (HungerFF.com) and my JustFor.Fans page. While a shortened Radio Edit is available everywhere podcasts are found, this is the full uncut interview, start to finish. Rob tells the whole story this time. We open where it began for him: the arcade-booth VHS tape, the FFA fisting houses of DC, and the guy who swore he'd never have the anatomy to take a fist. Then Rob walks through the Penuma implant he got to compete as a top in porn, the five good months, and the slow-motion disaster that followed. Seromas, an erosion, a hole in his penis, surgical material left inside, eight surgeries, Xiaflex injections, and a device that was never built for how he uses his body. He's candid about the cost: a relapse in Barcelona after four years sober, a lost year, rehab, and the shame that nearly did more damage than the surgery. This one hit close to home for me, and we get into it. Two people whose whole careers run through one body part, both of us nearly losing it, comparing notes from opposite ends. We also cover OnlyFans deplatforming, the pressure gay men put on each other to be bigger, why sex work is part of his recovery instead of a threat to it, and how he came full circle back to fisting as a bottom. It ends on the line he earned the hard way: "I lost the dick I thought I needed and found the performer I actually am." Your $2.99/month Spotify subscription includes: - Full uncensored audio of every Brolapse episode - Full-length video episodes - Weekly chapters of Deeper: The Audiobook, read by me, every Wednesday at 8PM - The complete subscriber archive Follow Rob everywhere at @RobMontanaXX (two X's). Subscribe now to unlock the complete interview and the entire premium archive. New episodes every Friday at 8PM. Follow, rate, review, and subscribe. 🌹🐷👊🏻

BROLAPSE LIVE! | Episode 100 with Ricky Cage & Fit Naughty Couple

For the first time in 100 episodes, Brolapse leaves the studio and goes LIVE. 🎙️🔥 Ryan James (HungerFF) and Alotta McGriddles take the stage at the JustForFans Conference in Palm Springs to celebrate Episode 100 in front of a live audience—with special guests Ricky Cage and Tina & Brandon of Fit Naughty Couple. Ricky kicks things off with a hilarious and surprisingly thoughtful conversation about building a career around niche fetish content, chastity, fantasy, content censorship, running a one-man production operation, and the wonderfully weird creativity behind his work. Then we put him through the inaugural Brolapse: Myth or Fact, testing what he actually knows about the culture he's made a career exploring. Then Tina and Brandon take the stage for a conversation that becomes about much more than sex. The married duo talks candidly about discovering kink together, overcoming jealousy and insecurity, building trust, communicating fantasies that couples are often afraid to say out loud, and how embracing each other's sexuality ultimately brought them closer together. They also discuss sexual-health conversations, testing, stigma, and why they believe curiosity shouldn't automatically come with a label. And because this is Brolapse, we finish by throwing Tina and Brandon into Hot Takes, where the audience gets involved and pretty much all remaining structure disappears. 😂 Beneath the jokes and chaos, Episode 100 gets back to the reason Brolapse exists in the first place: to document this community, celebrate the people in it, talk openly about the things we're usually told not to talk about, and make sure these stories don't disappear. Thank you to JustForFans for giving us a stage, to Ricky Cage and Fit Naughty Couple for jumping into the madness, to Alotta McGriddles for helping me bring Brolapse LIVE to life—and especially to everyone who has listened, watched, shared, subscribed, or appeared on this show during its first 100 episodes. This special Episode 100 release is FREE for everyone in both AUDIO and VIDEO. 100 episodes down. We're just getting started. 💗 🎙️ BROLAPSE LIVE — EPISODE 100 Featuring Ricky Cage + Fit Naughty Couple Hosted by Ryan James / HungerFF Co-hosted by Alotta McGriddles Recorded LIVE at the JustForFans Conference — Palm Springs, California

BROLAPSE LIVE! | Episode 100 with Ricky Cage & Fit Naughty Couple

For the first time in 100 episodes, Brolapse leaves the studio and goes LIVE. 🎙️🔥 Ryan James (HungerFF) and Alotta McGriddles take the stage at the JustForFans Conference in Palm Springs to celebrate Episode 100 in front of a live audience—with special guests Ricky Cage and Tina & Brandon of Fit Naughty Couple. Ricky kicks things off with a hilarious and surprisingly thoughtful conversation about building a career around niche fetish content, chastity, fantasy, content censorship, running a one-man production operation, and the wonderfully weird creativity behind his work. Then we put him through the inaugural Brolapse: Myth or Fact, testing what he actually knows about the culture he's made a career exploring. Then Tina and Brandon take the stage for a conversation that becomes about much more than sex. The married duo talks candidly about discovering kink together, overcoming jealousy and insecurity, building trust, communicating fantasies that couples are often afraid to say out loud, and how embracing each other's sexuality ultimately brought them closer together. They also discuss sexual-health conversations, testing, stigma, and why they believe curiosity shouldn't automatically come with a label. And because this is Brolapse, we finish by throwing Tina and Brandon into Hot Takes, where the audience gets involved and pretty much all remaining structure disappears. 😂 Beneath the jokes and chaos, Episode 100 gets back to the reason Brolapse exists in the first place: to document this community, celebrate the people in it, talk openly about the things we're usually told not to talk about, and make sure these stories don't disappear. Thank you to JustForFans for giving us a stage, to Ricky Cage and Fit Naughty Couple for jumping into the madness, to Alotta McGriddles for helping me bring Brolapse LIVE to life—and especially to everyone who has listened, watched, shared, subscribed, or appeared on this show during its first 100 episodes. This special Episode 100 release is FREE for everyone in both AUDIO and VIDEO. 100 episodes down. We're just getting started. 💗 🎙️ BROLAPSE LIVE — EPISODE 100 Featuring Ricky Cage + Fit Naughty Couple Hosted by Ryan James / HungerFF Co-hosted by Alotta McGriddles Recorded LIVE at the JustForFans Conference — Palm Springs, California

Episode 99 (Radio Edit — Full Ep on Spotify): Edge — Thirty Years in Leather, from a New Orleans Bar to Wilton Manors

This is the free Radio Edit, the abbreviated version of the episode available on every podcast platform. Edge, the voice behind The Full Cow podcast, has spent three decades in the leather community, and this one starts exactly where a good leather story should: a terrible date in the French Quarter, getting deliberately left behind at the bar, and getting adopted on the spot by a leather couple who changed his life. We get into the gear obsession (a whole cabinet just for boots), the one pair he'd never sell, the slow road from boy to Sir, and why he thinks extreme content has quietly become one of the only real entry points left into leather culture. Plus the origin of that famous ASMR podcast voice. The full, uncut, uncensored conversation is available only to: Spotify Subscribers Members of my official website My JustFor.Fans page Spotify Subscribers also get, every week: Deeper: The Audiobook, a new chapter every Wednesday at 8 PM Full video episodes Complete uncensored audio, no ads Subscribe for $2.99/mo: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/brolapse/subscribe Follow, rate, review, and subscribe. It genuinely moves the needle, and it's free. Listen everywhere: Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX Amazon Music & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273 Go find Edge: The Full Cow Podcast, IG @LTHREDGE, and his new Substack for the longer, more philosophical stuff. SUfboEmV3YhHecQ2i5Q2

Episode 98 (Radio Edit — Full Ep on Spotify): James OTownKinkster — Rubber, Bondage, and Beating HungerFF for a Title

This is the free Radio Edit, the trimmed version you can grab on every platform. It's the first slice of the conversation. The full uncut episode lives behind the Spotify subscription, on HungerFF.com, and on JustFor.Fans. Episode 98 brings on James OTownKinkster, the man who beat me for Mr. Florida Rubber back in 2019 and has been living rent free in my bitterness ever since. James is a rubberman, a contest producer, a former club president, and a proud non-practitioner of the thing I'm best known for, which makes him the perfect person to talk to. We get into how he found the scene through bondage at eighteen, the day he pulled his first rubber tank top on over dry body hair with no lube (rookie mistake, iconic outcome), and how a fabric that terrified him turned into the reason he finally felt good in his own body. Spotify subscribers get, for $2.99 a month: Full uncensored audio Full video episodes A new chapter of Deeper: The Audiobook every Wednesday at 8 PM Listen and subscribe: Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse Subscribe ($2.99/mo): https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/brolapse/subscribe Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX Amazon Music & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273 Deeper: https://www.hungerff.com/deeper If you like what you hear, follow the show, drop a rating, leave a review, and subscribe. It genuinely moves the needle for an independent operation like this one.

Episode 97 (Radio Edit — Full Ep on Spotify): Axel Abysse — Ten Years of Beautifully Bizarre Porn

This is the free Radio Edit of Episode 97, featuring the opening portion of HungerFF’s conversation with independent performer, director and producer Axel Abysse. Axel recently crossed the ten-year mark with his own platform—but the milestone arrived more quietly than he expected. He reflects on how quickly the decade passed, how the pandemic distorted his sense of time and why he never imagined porn would become his career. What began with a few videos and an unexpected opportunity to launch a website became ten years of making exactly the work Axel wanted to see. Rather than imitating traditional studios, he built his identity around a polished but deliberately bizarre aesthetic: beautiful, freaky and unmistakably his own. This abbreviated edition contains the opening question from the interview. To watch or listen to the complete Raw & Uncensored conversation, subscribe on Spotify for only $2.99 per month. Spotify subscribers receive: • The complete, uncensored Axel Abysse interview • Full video episodes of Brolapse • Every extended, uncensored interview • Weekly chapters of Deeper: The Audiobook every Wednesday • The complete subscriber archive • Exclusive and early-access releases 🔥 SUBSCRIBE ON SPOTIFY https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/brolapse/subscribe 🎧 LISTEN TO BROLAPSE Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/4yK7qehRRvkGXKxOp0meYs Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX Amazon Music & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273 📖 DEEPER https://www.hungerff.com/deeper 📚 SIGNED HARDCOVER EDITIONS https://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editions 🎵 HUNGERFF SOUND INITIATIVE https://www.hungerff.com/spotify

Episode 96 (Radio Edit — Full Ep on Spotify): Cubby Peach — How a Curiosity Became a Passion

This week's Brolapse Radio Edit features the opening chapter of my conversation with Cubby Peach. In this abbreviated episode, Cubby shares how a lifelong curiosity evolved into a passion, the experiences that shaped his journey, and the moment he realized he wanted to dive deeper into the world of fisting. It's an honest, funny introduction to one of my favorite conversations we've had on the podcast. Want the full interview? The complete Raw & Uncensored version is available exclusively to Spotify Subscribers, where Cubby and I continue the conversation with over an hour of additional stories and topics, including: • Living with IBS and filming content • Anxiety, confidence, and performance on camera • Relationships and sexual compatibility • The JustFor.Fans Conference and filming together • Finding community within kink • Behind-the-scenes creator stories, aftercare, and much more Spotify Subscribers also receive: • Every Raw & Uncensored episode of Brolapse • Full-length video episodes • Weekly chapters of the Deeper audiobook as they're released If you enjoy this preview, subscribe on Spotify to unlock the complete interview and the entire premium archive. 🎙️

Episode 95 (Raw & Uncensored): HungerFF Sound Initiative Vol. 3 — Life Update, Surgery Setbacks & New Music

Life has had other plans lately. In this special solo episode of Brolapse, Ryan James (HungerFF) opens up about the unexpected series of events that have delayed his long-awaited colostomy reversal surgery yet again. After fracturing his ankle during a rainy walk with Eightball, he thought the worst was behind him—until a slip at home resulted in a dislocated kneecap and another trip to the emergency room. With this week’s scheduled guest postponed, Ryan decided to turn the episode into a special edition of the HungerFF Sound Initiative, sharing an honest life update before giving listeners an exclusive preview of several upcoming tracks. Hear the stories behind: • Pass Around Party Bottom — the surprise breakout hit that has become the most-streamed HungerFF Sound Initiative song to date. • Take a Hit (unreleased) — an energetic club anthem inspired by the idea of a tongue-in-cheek “poppers training video.” • FFinal Boss (coming soon) — a video game-inspired track where, for once, the boss wins. • I’m Just a Hole, Sir (coming soon) — a playful anthem built around one of the community’s most recognizable phrases. Ryan also reflects on the incredible response to the HungerFF Sound Initiative after surpassing 100,000 streams worldwide, discusses creating music with AI as a creative tool, and previews what’s coming next for both the podcast and the music project. This episode is available exclusively as the complete Raw & Uncensored edition. Spotify subscribers receive: • Full uncensored Brolapse episodes • Complete video episodes • Weekly Deeper: The Audiobook chapters every Wednesday • Access to the growing archive of exclusive subscriber content Subscribe for just $2.99/month: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/brolapse/subscribe Listen to the HungerFF Sound Initiative: https://www.hungerff.com/spotify Read Deeper: A Memoir: https://www.hungerff.com/deeper Order signed hardcover editions: https://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editions If you’re enjoying Brolapse, please follow the show, leave a rating and review, and subscribe. Your support helps independent queer creators continue telling authentic stories.

Episode 94 (Radio Edit — Full Ep on Spotify): Patrick Davis — Fearless Publishing, Memoirs & Telling the Truth

This is the FREE Radio Edit of my conversation with Patrick Davis, Editor-in-Chief of Unbound Edition Press. Patrick returns for Part 2 to talk about the realities of independent publishing, editing deeply personal memoirs, censorship, queer literature, and why authenticity matters more now than ever. We also revisit the journey behind Deeper, what it takes to tell difficult stories honestly, and why some books stay with readers long after they've finished the last page. Want the entire conversation? The Raw & Uncensored version is available exclusively to Spotify Subscribers and members of my official website and JustFor.Fans page. For just $2.99/month, Spotify subscribers receive: • Every full uncensored Brolapse interview • Full video episodes • Weekly chapters of Deeper: The Audiobook every Wednesday • Complete subscriber archive Patrick also offers Brolapse listeners 20% OFF through Unbound Edition Press using code HUNGER20. If you enjoy the show, please follow the podcast, leave a rating and review, and share it with someone who loves great conversations. Every share helps more than you know.

Episode 93: (Radio Edit — Full Ep on Spotify) Patrick Davis — Fearless Publishing, Finding Brotherhood & The Stories That Matter

This is the FREE radio edit of this week's episode. You're listening to an abbreviated version featuring highlights from my conversation with Patrick Davis, Editor-in-Chief of Unbound Edition Press. The full-length, uncensored interview—including over an hour of additional discussion—is available exclusively to Spotify subscribers and on HungerFF.com. This week, Patrick and I dive into fearless publishing, queer storytelling, memoir writing, and the responsibility of preserving stories that challenge convention. We discuss discovering fisting culture, the importance of authenticity over marketability, and why the books that matter most are often the ones mainstream publishers are afraid to touch. Patrick also shares the philosophy behind Unbound Edition Press, how authors like Alexander Cheves and Stephan Ferris helped shape its identity, and why vulnerability is the foundation of great writing. Along the way, we explore the fine line between being fearless and being reckless—both on the page and in life. 🎉 Special offer for Brolapse listeners: Visit https://www.unboundedition.com and use promo code HUNGER20 to receive 20% OFF plus FREE SHIPPING on any Unbound Edition Press title. Enjoying the show? Follow Brolapse, leave a rating or review, and if you want the complete experience—including extended uncensored audio, full video episodes, and weekly chapters of the Deeper: Audiobook—subscribe on Spotify for just $2.99/month.

Episode 92 (Radio Edit — Full Ep on Spotify): Dominic Pacifico — From Twink to Daddy, Porn’s Evolution & Finding a Second Act

This week on Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with longtime performer, producer, DJ, and fetish icon Dominic Pacifico for a candid conversation spanning nearly three decades in the adult industry. In this special radio edit, Dominic reflects on breaking into porn at just 18 years old, navigating the studio era of the late 1990s and early 2000s, and the mentorship he received from industry legends like Michael Brandon during his early years at Raging Stallion. The conversation explores how attitudes toward fetish content have changed over time, the rise of creator platforms, and why longevity in adult entertainment has become more challenging—and more rewarding—than ever before. Dominic also shares how the pandemic unexpectedly launched an entirely new chapter of his career, transforming him from a performer known for versatility into one of the most recognizable names in modern fetish content. Along the way, Ryan and Dominic swap stories from the industry’s golden era, discuss the difference between “porn stars” and “content creators,” and reflect on what it takes to build a lasting career in an industry that never stops evolving. For the complete uncensored interview, extended audio, and video version of this episode, subscribe on Spotify for just $2.99/month. 🎧 New episodes every Friday at 8PM. 📖 Deeper: Anti Memoir https://www.hungerff.com/deeper 📚 Signed Editions https://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editions 🎵 HungerFF Sound Initiative https://www.hungerff.com/spotify

Episode 91 (Radio Edit — Full Ep on Spotify): Ray Diesel — How One Hookup Changed Everything

This week on Brolapse, Ryan sits down with longtime friend and performer Ray Diesel for a conversation that spans more than a decade in the adult industry. The two reconnect after running into each other at the JustForFans Conference and dive into Ray’s unforgettable introduction to a side of gay culture he didn’t even realize existed at the time. What starts as a hilarious story about a hot military daddy quickly becomes a fascinating look at how much queer sexual culture has changed over the years. Ryan and Ray also reflect on filming together for the first time, how the industry evolved from long studio shoots to creator-driven content, why Fort Lauderdale became an unexpected hub for adult production, and the realities of navigating content creation in cities like Los Angeles, Miami, and Atlanta. Along the way, Ray shares stories about working with creators including Axel Abysse, why he has become more selective about the projects he takes on, and how his approach to content has shifted from chasing quantity to focusing on genuine chemistry, authentic moments, and collaborations that actually excite him. The conversation also explores the behind-the-scenes reality of creator events and conferences, the pressure many performers put on themselves to maximize every opportunity, and why sometimes the best content comes from slowing down, being present, and enjoying the experience rather than treating every encounter like a production schedule. If you’re enjoying this radio edit, there’s a lot more waiting for you. For just $2.99 per month, Spotify subscribers get access to the complete uncensored version of this episode, full-length video episodes, the entire Brolapse video archive, extended audio content, and weekly chapters of Deeper: The Audiobook every Wednesday. If you’ve ever wanted these conversations exactly as they happened—longer, uncut, and completely unfiltered—this is where you’ll find them. Funny, insightful, nostalgic, and surprisingly thoughtful, Episode 91 offers a rare look at the changing landscape of queer adult entertainment through the eyes of two creators who have witnessed the industry’s transformation firsthand. 🎧 Listen on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse 🍏 Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX 🎧 Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse ❤️ iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273 🎙️ Subscribe on Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse 📖 Deeper: Anti Memoir https://www.hungerff.com/deeper 📚 Signed Editions https://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editions 🎵 New music drops every Friday through the HungerFF Sound Initiative: https://www.hungerff.com/spotify

Episode 90: Alex Tikas Returns — Parasocial Hell, Fame Without Money, & Being the Villains

Alex Tikas returns to Brolapse nearly 90 episodes after becoming the very first guest on the show, and this time the conversation goes way deeper than Mexico stories. Ryan James and Alex unpack what it’s really like to live as two of the most polarizing figures in adult entertainment — from parasocial relationships and online pile-ons to public misconceptions, fisting stigma, fame without fortune, and the emotional toll of constantly being perceived through fantasy instead of reality. The episode dives into fan entitlement, internet outrage, hookup culture, and the strange disconnect between the personas performers create and who they actually are behind closed doors. Along the way, they revisit the shared betrayal that once made them enemies before eventually bringing them together as friends. Funny, brutally honest, self-aware, and surprisingly emotional, this episode becomes less about porn and more about identity, projection, loneliness, ego, survival, and trying to hold onto yourself while thousands of strangers think they already know who you are.

Episode 89: FFalconPunch Part 2 — Community, Connection & Protecting What Matters

In Part 2 of my conversation with FFalconPunch, we dive into some of the most meaningful topics we’ve ever discussed on Brolapse. We talk about mentorship, community building, and why belonging shouldn’t be determined by follower counts, party invitations, or perceived status. FFalconPunch shares his philosophy that “if you’re interested, you already belong,” and explains why connection, curiosity, and shared experience are far more important than competition or comparison. The conversation also explores friendship, loyalty, and standing up for the people you care about. FFalconPunch opens up about being bullied growing up, how those experiences shaped his protective instincts, and why he believes community members have a responsibility to look out for one another—especially when safety, consent, and trust are at stake. We also tackle one of the most serious discussions ever featured on Brolapse: substance use, harm reduction, and the dangers of Maximum Impact. Drawing from personal experience and heartbreaking loss, FFalconPunch shares why education and honest conversations can save lives, and why silence around these issues helps no one. Finally, we reflect on our decades-long friendship, the evolution of queer spaces, the changing nature of online content creation, and the importance of protecting intimacy in a world that increasingly encourages us to monetize everything. Thoughtful, funny, emotional, and surprisingly vulnerable, this episode is a reminder that the strongest communities aren’t built on status—they’re built on people showing up for one another. 🎙️ Guest: FFalconPunch🖤 Part 2 of a two-part conversation.

Episode 88: BeatRush94XXX — Seahorse Toys, Alpha Bottoms & the Evolution of Modern Fisting

This week on Brolapse, HungerFF sits down with @Beatrush94XXX for a hilarious, surprisingly thoughtful, and extremely relatable conversation about toys, self-play, fisting culture, and the strange journey from curiosity to obsession. The two dive into giant “door stopper” plugs, Seahorse toy addiction, solo play routines, Denver’s growing fisting scene, “alpha bottom” energy, and why the modern fisting community feels more relaxed, playful, and social than ever before. Along the way, they talk about the balance between pleasure and performance, why humor belongs in the bedroom, and how COVID accidentally created an entire new generation of fisters. What starts as a conversation about giant toys quickly turns into one of the most natural and chemistry-filled Brolapse episodes yet — complete with war-zone bedrooms, Netflix-and-toys sessions, Telegram fisting clubs, and enough oversized silicone to qualify as furniture. Expect laughs, chaos, surprisingly wholesome moments, and a very serious discussion about why every experienced bottom eventually develops strong opinions about the Seahorse. 🐴👊 Follow BeatRush94XXX: X / BlueSky / JustForFans: @BeatRush94XXX

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Episode 87: Fist Pit — Pool Parties, Roleplay & Finding Community in Salt Lake City

This week on HungerFF Presents: Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with @FistPit for a funny, thoughtful, and surprisingly heartfelt conversation about curiosity, connection, fantasy, and the path from private exploration to becoming one of X’s most recognizable fisting creators. What begins with “the toys just kept getting bigger” turns into a wild origin story involving a suburban pool party, a spontaneous tutorial from trusted friends, and the moment Stephen realized an entirely new world had opened up to him. From there, the conversation dives into the evolution of his online presence — starting as a private “digital memoir” of personal milestones before eventually embracing visibility and community online. The two also explore the psychology behind roleplay, gear, and fantasy-building, including cowboy scenarios, football-themed sessions, chastity, and how creating immersive atmospheres can completely transform the experience. Stephen opens up about the hidden but thriving Salt Lake City fetish scene, monthly Red Hankey socials, neighborhood play parties, and the hilariously supportive suburban neighbors who know exactly what’s happening down the street. Elsewhere, the episode gets reflective as they discuss vulnerability, chemistry, trust, and the emotional intimacy that makes fisting different from almost any other sexual experience. From double-fisting stories in Palm Springs to competitive cheerleading backgrounds and unforgettable moments of connection, this episode balances humor, honesty, and genuine warmth. Raw, funny, weirdly wholesome, and full of memorable stories, Episode 87 is ultimately about finding your people, embracing what excites you, and discovering that community can exist in the most unexpected places — sometimes right across the street.

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Episode 86: Jeff Carter (Dyn0 of StudFist) — From Cam Rooms to Culture Shift

In Episode 86 of HungerFF Presents: Brolapse, Ryan James sits down with a true pioneer of modern fisting culture — Jeff Carter, also known as Dyn0, co-founder of StudFist.com. What starts as a long-overdue reunion quickly turns into something deeper: a candid conversation about growth, accountability, and the evolution of an entire subculture. Ryan opens with a heartfelt acknowledgment of their past, setting the tone for an episode rooted in honesty and mutual respect. Jeff takes listeners back to the early days of StudFist in San Francisco — from accidental cam room success to building one of the most influential platforms in the space. Together, they unpack how authenticity, “fly-on-the-wall” realism, and a refusal to follow industry norms helped reshape what fisting content could be. The conversation expands into the broader evolution of the scene — normalization, technology, generational shifts, and the rise of creator-driven platforms like StudFist.fans. Jeff offers rare insight into sustaining a niche brand for nearly two decades while staying true to its original spirit. They close on something real: aging in the industry, relationships within it, and the importance of having a plan beyond it. It’s raw, reflective, and unexpectedly heartfelt — a full-circle moment between two creators who helped define the culture from different angles.

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Episode 85: Chris Wydeman, Part 2 — Brotherhood, Boundaries, and the Evolution of the Scene

art two picks up right where we left off with Chris Wydeman — and this time, we go deeper, looser, and way more unfiltered. Ryan and Chris dive into how the scene has evolved from underground and niche to something far more visible and accessible, especially among younger generations. They reflect on the shift in culture, the changing dynamics at events like FistFest and IML, and what it feels like to now be the “veterans” that others look up to. The conversation gets personal as they unpack the realities of sex work — the toll it can take, the blurred lines between performance and authenticity, and what it means to reclaim intimacy outside of the camera. Chris opens up about stepping away from the industry, while Ryan reflects on the challenge of separating HungerFF from his real identity. They also confront heavier topics: addiction, trust, and how substance use can distort connection, both emotionally and physically. There’s honesty here about mistakes, broken trust, and what it takes to rebuild meaningful relationships — including a heartfelt moment of reconciliation between the two. And because it’s Brolapse, it wouldn’t be complete without some absolute chaos: wild party stories, unexpected moments, and the kind of absurdity that only exists in this world. At its core, this episode is about connection — the kind that goes beyond the surface. Brotherhood, boundaries, forgiveness, and finding balance in a life that’s anything but ordinary. 🎧 New episodes drop every Friday at 8 PM.🎥 Full video available on HungerFF.com🔥 Early video access for Spotify subscribers

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Episode 84: Chris Wydeman (Part 1) — From Self-Discovery to Spiritual Connection

Episode 84 of HungerFF Presents: Brolapse is here—and this one goes all the way back to the beginning. In Part 1 of this two-part conversation, Ryan James sits down with longtime friend and collaborator Chris Wydeman (@wydemanxxx) to unpack the origin story behind one of the most respected names in the scene. What starts as a conversation about curiosity and self-exploration quickly evolves into something deeper—touching on connection, discipline, and the mindset that separates experience from intention. Chris opens up about discovering everything on his own at 18, long before he even had a name for it, and how that journey led him into community, mentorship, and a more methodical, almost spiritual approach. Together, Ryan and Chris reflect on their early experiences, the evolution of the culture, and what’s been lost—and gained—as things have shifted toward a more content-driven world. They also get into: • The difference between exploration and performance • Why slowing down can take you further • The importance of intuition, trust, and safety • How practice, patience, and awareness shape real growth • The balance between physical and psychological connection This is a conversation built on years of shared history, mutual respect, and lived experience—and it sets the stage for an even deeper dive in Part 2. 🎧 Listen & Subscribe: Spotify: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/show/Brolapse Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/408WLLX Amazon & Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/57bbf689-250a-4c96-8559-0a79805f18b6/hungerff-presents-brolapse iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-hungerff-presents-brolapse-290151273 🎥 Want more? Spotify subscribers get early video access + exclusive weekly drops of Deeper: The Audiobook Series every Wednesday. 📖 DEEPER: Anti Memoir Grab your copy: https://www.hungerff.com/deeper Signed & numbered editions: https://www.hungerff.com/shop/deeper-hardcover-editions 👕 Merch – FFamous & Rich Tee: https://hungerff.threadless.com/designs/ffamous-and-rich/ 🎶 HungerFF Sound Initiative (New music every Friday): https://www.hungerff.com/spotify This is just Part 1… and we’re only getting started. 👉 Like, follow, subscribe, and if you’ve been enjoying the show, leave a review—it goes a long way.

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