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Different, Not Broken

Lauren "L2" Howard

You’ve spent your whole life feeling like something’s wrong with you. Here’s a radical thought: what if you’re not broken - just different?

Welcome to Different, Not Broken, the no-filter, emotionally intelligent, occasionally sweary podcast that challenges the idea that we all have to fit inside neat little boxes to be acceptable. Hosted by L2 (aka Lauren Howard), this show dives into the real, raw and ridiculous sides of being neurodivergent, introverted, chronically underestimated - and still completely worthy.

Expect deeply honest conversations about identity, neurodivergence, gender, work, grief, anxiety and everything in between.

There’ll be tears, dead dad jokes, side quests, and a whole lot of swearing.

If you are tired of pretending to be someone you’re not, this space is for you.

Come for the chaos.
Stay for the catharsis.
Linger for the dead Dad jokes.

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  • Wednesday · 21 min

    They Called My Mom Fat. It Absolutely Wasn't That.

    My mother has had a serious health issue for six months. Nobody treated it. It was in her chart. Six studies confirmed it. Ten doctors saw her this year, and every one of them told her to lose weight. Here’s the thing. She wasn’t eating. Not “eating less” — not eating, for days at a time, and still gaining weight in places she had never gained weight before. Sleeping all day. Couldn’t walk the way she used to. Couldn’t breathe. And every appointment ended the same way. Lose weight. Exercise more. You’re getting older. She could have died. And it would not have been her body’s fault. It would have been someone’s. I work in healthcare. I know what to look for, I speak the jargon, I know which doors to knock on and whose favour to call in. It still took six months and a twenty-dollar device from Walmart. So what happens to the woman who doesn’t know any of that? This one is angry. I’m not going to pretend otherwise. And then Alison brings a Small Talk from Brianna, who wants to know whether her big, loud, takes-up-the-whole-room ADHD joy was ever actually the problem — or whether the problem was just people who couldn’t hold it. That one I had an answer for immediately. 🎧 Different, Not Broken — honest, funny, occasionally furious conversations about neurodivergence, mental health, healthcare and being a person - https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/ 📞 Leave me a voicemail (small talk, brags, fights): https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemail 💬 Come hang out with the rest of us in the Quirky community (it’s free): https://alwaysquirky.com Mentioned in this episode: Become a podcast sponsor

  • July 29 · 23 min

    Bet On Yourself (Even When Nobody Else Will)

    The CEO said something shitty to me at 8:00 in the morning and I resigned by 8:30. There was no plan. There was no thought process. There was just a body that physically could not do it for one more day. So I called a family member. Someone who owns a business, has owned one for years, who understands small business, who had let me call and cry through every terrible month of that job. In my mind I was talking to exactly the right person. I told them I didn't think I could go back to work. That I thought I had to find a way to work for myself. That I didn't know what that looked like, but I thought I could do it. And they said: no. That's a terrible idea. Every ounce of cobbled-together confidence I'd scraped up in the days since — gone. All the air went out of the universe. What I heard was I don't think you should bet on yourself. I don't think that's what they meant. But that's what I heard. This episode is what came after. The consulting company that started completely by accident. The job I took because someone who loved me told me it was what I was supposed to do. The boss who told me "it's not if you get it, it's when" during early COVID, while I was the primary caretaker for my mom, who had just had an organ transplant. The fact that I have spent years remembering that I quit that job when actually — I've just realised — they fired me. Which is fine, by the way. Getting fired gets a bad rap. Let someone pay you to go away. There is no greater joy in life. Six years on, I make significantly more than the person who told me not to start my own business. I don't say that to brag. I say it because somebody else's faith in you should not be the thing that decides whether you bet on yourself. Even people who love you will give you bad advice. Even people who know their own business very well might not know yours. Take in opinions. Let them influence your perception. Don't let them make the decision. Then Alison brings a Small Talk from Tamara in Louisiana, whose son was diagnosed autistic at five. Her mother-in-law said she was letting doctors label him. Her father said she was looking for excuses. Her husband believed it immediately and has been his biggest champion ever since. She asked: how do you love someone who won't do the work of understanding the person you love most? Don't sit at the table with them. I have an infinite amount of love and a finite amount of space. The love is awarded whether you want it or not — once I give it to you, I don't take it back. The space is awarded on a merit system, and you have to earn it. You are worth betting on. I would bet on you. So you should bet on you too. 🎧 Different, Not Broken — honest, funny conversations about neurodivergence, mental health, burnout, and being a person. 📞 Leave me a voicemail — Small Talk, brags, fights: https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemail 💬 Come argue with us in the Quirky community (it's free): https://alwaysquirky.com Learn more: https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com Contains strong language.

  • July 22 · 19 min

    Is Mitch McConnell Alive? I Have Questions. And 40 Tabs On Fire.

    I woke up in the middle of the night, checked my phone, and read that Lindsey Graham died. My brain, naturally, read it as Mitch McConnell — because who among us can tell them apart — and from there the whole weekend was just political whiplash. This one is a tour of the chaos of this timeline. A senator had been missing for almost a month. They said he was "working remotely," and I said, yeah, me too, the only difference is I'm just dead inside. His wife left the country. Contractors were redoing his floors. And I had a lot of questions that nobody was interested in answering, so I did what I do: I made it funny. Somewhere in there I decided "The Dead Senators" would make an excellent throwback band name (the genre, obviously, is French Regency punk with banjos — a punk rock minuet), I invited everyone to come fight me in our Quirky community, where the Daily Fights have already established that the only acceptable pen is a Pilot V10 in purple and the jury is still out on whether a hot dog is a taco. And then the part that matters most. A Small Talk from Kristen in North Carolina: "I'm a 38-year-old woman with ADHD, and I look fine. From the inside, I'm running 40 browser tabs, three of which are on fire, and I haven't replied to a text from my sister in 11 days. I want someone to say out loud that looking fine and being fine are not the same thing." So here it is, out loud: they are not the same thing, and you are allowed to be a put-together human on the outside and a hot mess on the inside. Nobody has it together. Nobody knows what they're doing. We are all raw-dogging life with no guidebook — least of all a guidebook for this exact timeline — and the sooner we stop pretending otherwise, the better. 🎧 Different, Not Broken — honest, funny conversations about neurodivergence, mental health, burnout, and being human. 📞 Leave me a voicemail (small talk, brags, fights): https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemail Learn more: https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com Contains strong language and political commentary. Mentioned in this episode: Wanna learn to write like me? Here's how you can! Writing Course Become a podcast sponsor

  • July 15 · 25 min

    Taylor Swift Wedding Drama, President Trump's Billions, And Service Staff Love

    I keep getting thanked by restaurant staff. Not for tipping well. For not screaming at them. Hi, I'm Lauren Howard (you can call me L2) and this is my podcast Different, Not Broken - which is about exactly that. This one covers a lot of ground: why service staff now brace for impact over an overcooked salmon, why I tipped extra for honesty, and — since the outrage economy makes no sense to me — why Taylor Swift's wedding has the internet in a chokehold while Donald Trump has made $2 billion he can hold in his disgusting sweaty fat hands and nobody seems to care. What starts with an inedible salmon at Chili's, and a misplaced pizza descends into the Taylor Swift wedding outrage — the double standard around wealthy women being self-indulgent, and where I think our collective anger would be far better spent. Plus, in Small Talk: Priya from Oregon has been the planner friend her whole life. 📞 Leave me a voicemail: https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemail Learn more: https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com Mentioned in this episode: Sponsor the show https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsors Sponsor Different Not Broken Join Quirky

  • July 8 · 19 min

    No Brain Space Because Kidney Poitier Is Stealing It All

    This is what happens when your brain runs out of RAM. Hi, I'm Lauren Howard (you can call me L2) and this is my podcast Different, Not Broken - which is about exactly that. My mom is in the hospital. Again. My kids are at camp for the first time ever. My co-worker Vanessa's grandmother fell. Kyle's eye is still a thing. And I have exactly zero bandwidth left for anything — including, apparently, remembering that not everyone knows my mom's transplanted kidney's nickname. The nephrologist found out the hard way. He's fine. Kidney Poitier is fine. I am questionable. In this episode, I tell you about the nurse who pretended she needed help from my mom — a former phlebotomist — just to get her brain working and make her feel useful in that hospital bed. I ugly-cried a little on the inside. Then I talk about the moment my filter completely abandoned me mid-conversation with a medical professional. And then Alison brings us a Small Talk question from Opal in Georgia, who's been close with her best friend for 26 years and is starting to feel like she gives more than she gets. Brain full. Filter gone. Heart kind of full, too. Let's get into it. New episodes every Wednesday. Find them all at differentnobrokenpodcast.com.

  • July 1 · 35 min

    My Kid’s Being Rude and Office Furniture Fu*kery

    My oldest turns 10 this week, which is rude and kind of bullshit, and I will accept no part of it. She did not ask my permission. Hi, I'm Lauren Howard. Some people call me L2. You can too if you want. This is my podcast "Different, Not Broken" which is about exactly that. In this episode, I take you back to exactly 10 years ago — the Thursday night when a weird feeling turned into a labor story I was absolutely not ready for, including the shower incident. (You’ll know when you get there.) Then we get into what I’m calling Furniture Fuckery: the story of why my home office carpet smelled like funky ass dog for a decade, how it took me 10 years to buy a desk I first saw when we bought this house, and how Manny — a furniture store salesperson on his very first day — accidentally became the emotional highlight of my weekend. Alison joins for this week’s Small Talk to answer Kevin from Rhode Island, who is already spiraling about his upcoming high school reunion. We talk comparison culture, social media highlight reels, and why nobody — and I mean nobody — has their shit together. Not even the people who look like they do. I have lots of excellent things available for you to buy in my Stan Store so you should probably go do that at https://stan.store/elletwo Want to sponsor the podcast and speak directly to thousands of neurodivergent small business owners? You can do that here, and it's probably less cost than you think - https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsors Want to leave a voicemail with a Small Talk question or even just to let us know you're enjoying a Fountain coke? Do that here - https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemail Mentioned in this episode: Sponsor the show https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsors Sponsor Different Not Broken Wanna learn to write like me? Here's how you can! Writing Course

  • June 25 · 20 min

    My Thunderous Moments During the NY Knicks and Stephen Colbert Finale

    I am not generally a catastrophizer.I can see worst-case scenarios in almost any situation — and I'm usually right. But I'm always happy to be wrong. I just... don't get the opportunity that often. This week's episode is exactly the kind of chaos that makes me me. It starts with the NY Knicks winning the NBA Championship (for which I personally deserve significant credit, having been invested in their success for approximately 46 milliseconds). Five minutes later, something happened to my house that I was absolutely certain was the beginning of global nuclear war. Then I tell you about Stephen Colbert's series finale, Paul McCartney walking out onto the Ed Sullivan stage, and the exact moment I became a puddle of tears on the floor — because some feelings are genetic, and the Beatles are one of mine. And in Small Talk, Alison answers a question from Brianna in Tennessee, who's spent years being told she's "too much." Too direct. Too blunt. Too honest.

  • June 17 · 22 min

    I Did So Much Peopling My Brain is Still Wet (Or Maybe That's Just My Shower Soaked Jeans)

    Life right now feels like putting on a pair of jeans immediately out of the shower. We’re gonna get through it. But it’s gonna feel sticky. Hi friends. I'm Lauren Howard, and this is my podcast Different, Not Broken. I did so much peopling in one single Sunday that I genuinely lost track of what week it was. A makeup class. Brunch at a place that charges $30 for an omelette and somehow recommends the cheeseburger. My mom’s birthday dinner at the Melting Pot. The balloon bouquet she hates. Venmoing at the table because I’m very Gen Z apparently. All of it, start to finish, until I got home at 6:30pm and was absolutely cooked. If that sounds familiar—if you also left a room full of strangers and had to run a silent internal audit of whether you were being annoying—this episode is for you. Also, Alison shares a question from Alejandro in New Mexico, who graduated with his bachelor’s at 37 and can’t stop doing the math on the years he considers “lost.”

  • June 10 · 41 min

    Finding Your Voice and Power: Cindy Gallop on Authenticity and Resilience

    Welcome to another episode of Different, Not Broken, the podcast that dives deep into the beauty of being different and the myth of brokenness. I’m Lauren Howard, and today I’m joined by the inimitable Cindy Gallop—renowned brand builder, outspoken public speaker, and founder of Make Love Not Porn. In this candid conversation, we talk about the challenges and triumphs of showing up authentically in a world that’s constantly trying to put us and our voices into boxes. You’ll hear us discuss what it means to speak your truth—and why the world desperately needs authentic voices now more than ever. From navigating criticism and resiliency to the unique struggles faced by women labeled as “difficult,” this episode is filled with practical wisdom and unfiltered encouragement. Plus, we tackle questions about emotional labor and the importance of asking for help, reminding all of us that being the “strong one” doesn’t mean carrying it all alone. Buckle up for some honest advice, permission to take a break, and a much-needed pep talk for anyone doubting the value of their voice. And in this week's Small Talk, Alison shares a question from Jenna in New York.

  • June 3 · 45 min

    Food Aversions, Founder Friendship and Women’s Wellbeing with Dr. Sipra Laddha

    Potatoes, cat tongues, and sandpaper skin—let’s talk food aversions, texture nightmares, and why maybe it’s totally fine to be a grown adult who can’t stand an apple. This week on Different, Not Broken, I go fully public with a truth: I am not a picky eater. I am… let’s say, texture specific. I will sample almost anything—once. What happens afterward is between me, my gag reflex, and whatever unholy thing just brushed across my taste buds. Mashed potatoes? Yes. Potatoes in soup? Get them away from me. Tomato sauce? Great! Raw tomato? Why do you hate me? Apple slices? Hard pass. Apple juice? Sign me up. Oranges are a war zone, but orange juice is fine—just keep the strings (and the heartburn) far, far away. Are these food preferences weird? Yes. Am I objectively a successful adult nonetheless? Also yes. Even if I can’t finish a plate of beans without gagging while my kids, in a spectacular twist of parental fate, will eat literally anything with stoic enthusiasm. It’s not just about food, though. We blend the personal with the professional this episode. Our guest is the incomparable Dr. Sipra Laddha, CEO of Luna Joy, mental health advocate, and my literal first phone call when I decided to build my practice. We tackle the idea of “competition” in women’s mental health spaces (spoiler: the real competition is the broken system, not each other) and how collaboration—not cutthroat tactics—moves everyone forward. Thinking of launching your own thing but stuck on knowing whether venture capital and bootstrapping are just buzzwords for other people? We’ve lived both sides. Sipra and I compare paths: raising millions in venture funding (which is about as glamorous as microwaving leftovers, more or less) versus scraping resources together and building from the ground up. Both are exhausting. Both are possible. Both come with landmines only those who have actually been in the room can describe. Maybe you’ve never considered what it’s like to be the only woman—sometimes the only woman of color—pitching life-or-death solutions to a room full of people who need to check with their wives to know what postpartum depression is. Spoiler: you end up not only knowing you belong in those rooms, but also knowing you’ve got something the rest of the room literally cannot bring. Still deciding if Different, Not Broken is your kind of podcast? If you’ve ever: Wondered why your sandwich can’t just be a sandwich—without some slimy tomato sabotaging it Needed to know how real women founders support each other through texts, resources, and mutual survival tactics instead of passive-aggressive LinkedIn shade Wanted to hear a vulnerable, unfiltered story about living through postpartum depression from someone who was clinically trained to help others (and still couldn’t get help herself) Needed a reason to feel absolutely valid in your own “weirdness,” whether that’s food, mood, or business battles Are looking for a show where softness is strength, and being different is a whole functional life, not a defect Then hit play. If nothing else, you’ll leave feeling a little less alone in your quirks, and maybe with exactly the push you need to find your own sandbox—and fill it with the right people. Plus, in Small Talk: a former Marine writes in about random, emotional tears in middle age. Why does softness sneak up on us, and what does it mean to finally drop the armor and just feel? Spoiler: it isn’t weakness. Listen in. We save room for you—no tomatoes required. Find out more about Sipra here: https://sipraladdhamd.com/

  • May 27 · 14 min

    I run successful companies but cleaning up their mess is still sometimes my main job

    My kids were supposed to be gone for three days. Three days turned into eleven. I had the house to myself, figured out who I am without background chaos, and managed to function like an actual adult person. Then they came home. And then everyone got norovirus. This week I'm walking through the Mother's Day that was the Mother's Dayest Mother's Day of any Mother's Day ever recorded — and one that was so chaotic, I've only just recovered from it enough to talk about it! Then Alison joins for Small Talk with a question from Tammy in Montana — a florist who built a real, thriving business from scratch, but whose mom still calls it "a phase."

  • May 20 · 13 min

    You feel better? That's not the point. Keep the appointment!

    Keep the appointment. I know. You feel better. You made the appointment when you were really struggling, and now things aren't so bad and it feels unnecessary. You're fine. Probably. Maybe. Here's the thing about neurodivergent brains: they're really good at reaching for help in a crisis, and really good at talking themselves out of it the second the crisis passes. A 24-hour improvement is not a support system. It's just the top of the roller coaster. In this episode, I talk about why you need to keep the appointment even when you feel fine — especially when you feel fine. PLUS: I tell you about the book my dad never finished that I'm going to finish for him someday. It's about Betsy Ross, who apparently owned a brothel, not a sewing circle. History is a lot. AND in Small Talk: Alison shares a question from to Marcus in Chicago, who canceled plans, had a perfect solo day (soup, documentary about bridges, no pants), and then felt guilty about every second of it. TIMESTAMPS 00:00:57 — Dad's Unfinished Book: Betsy Ross's Drawing Room 00:03:07 — The Instruction: Keep the Appointment 00:04:19 — Why We Cancel (When We Finally Start to Feel Better) 00:07:33 — The Roller Coaster: High Points Don't Last 00:08:06 — Build the Support System Before You Need It 00:09:28 — Small Talk: Marcus from Chicago on Canceled Plans and Guilt

  • May 13 · 28 min

    I'm Not Yelling at Him, I'm Yelling In His Direction. If I'm Quiet, You're in Trouble

    Here's the thing about asking for help: the ask itself is the labor. And I learned that the hard way during the two worst weeks of my life. My youngest came eight weeks early. I'd just had a C-section. We were running back and forth to the NICU, trying to care for a two-year-old at home, healing from surgery, and keeping an entire life running on fumes. People kept asking, "What can we do?" And we kept saying, "We're fine." Not because we were fine. Because figuring out what to ask for was just as much work as doing it ourselves. And then a woman showed up at my door without warning, without asking, and handed me a gift I'll never forget. And it was the most incredibly simple but caring one imaginable. This episode is also about what happens when I stop talking — which, if you know me, is significantly more terrifying than anything that comes out of my mouth. I talk about productive yelling, why silence in our house is a five-alarm situation, and the very Italian way my in-laws communicate. And in this week's Small Talk, Alison shares a question from Darnell in Atlanta. Mentioned in this episode: Join Quirky

  • May 6 · 35 min

    The IVF clinic scandal nobody prepared me for

    "I sold my company. I guess technically we're still in the process, but it's done. The thing I built from scratch. The dream I lay in bed and imagined. Done." That alone would be a whole episode. But there's more. In this episode, I'm talking about the 120 days that changed me on a molecular level — because that's not an exaggeration. My mom got sick. The burnout was real. The lights were staying on, but barely. And then a news story hit my phone that I was not prepared for. It involves an IVF clinic we used eight years ago for our youngest daughter. I'm not ready to share everything, and there are things I legally can't say. But I want you to know where I've been, mentally, with this whole *gestures arms wildly at everything*. And I want you to know that sometimes the thing that brings you to your knees has absolutely nothing to do with your business, your calendar, or your capacity — and everything to do with something you didn't see coming.

  • April 29 · 19 min

    Not All Men! But Definitely 62 Million Hits From Some of the Men...

    Maybe not all men. But what do we do when a site has 62 million hits originating from lots of them? Hi, I'm Lauren Howard. I go by "L2" and this week I'm going full Winter Soldier mode. You know that scene in Captain America where they say the trigger phrase and Bucky Barnes just... activates? Yeah, that's me. Every. Single. Time. someone types "not all men" in my comments. We're talking about the 62 million hits logged on a website that existed to teach people how to s*xually assault women. For context: Sony's entire website gets 24 million hits a month. So let's not pretend the numbers are somehow ambiguous here. We also get into the prototype employee — the 45-year-old white man that every workplace policy, dress code, and promotion pipeline has been quietly built around — and what that means for literally everyone else. Timestamped summary 00:57 — The "not all men" trigger phrase 02:17 — The 45-year-old white man prototype 03:57 — Why workplaces weren't built for your brain 05:42 — 62 million hits. Let that land. 07:04 — Why women choose the bear 10:22 — The responsibility of the good men 12:23 — ADHD brain & too many tabs open 14:01 — My children are weaponizing their butts 14:34 — Small Talk with Alison: self-improvement culture 15:57 — The iPhone 1 analogy 17:32 — There is no finish line

  • April 22 · 23 min

    March Madness Sportsball: For When The Murder Shows Stop Working

    The news broke me. The murder shows stopped working. So I watched a month of college basketball I do not care about, and it was the only thing keeping my nervous system upright. In this episode I'm unpacking three things: → Why "distraction" is an actual mental health strategy, and why sportsball was the weirdly perfect antidote to doomscrolling. → A very clear message for anyone whose job is chewing them up: You are an asset, not a liability. Burnout culture is not only cruel, it's bad business. The math on replacing good employees is brutal, and your workplace being too short-sighted to see that has nothing to do with your value. → Small Talk Frank from Scranton wants to know why he can't relax into stability. If you needed to hear "this isn't you, it's them" today — hi, it's them. Chapters 00:00 Cold open: You are an asset, not a liability 00:38 Hi, I'm L2 — welcome back to Different, Not Broken 01:05 Why I always have something on in the background (blame childhood chaos) 02:04 When the murder shows stopped working 03:00 The news broke me 03:43 Basketball as my zero-stakes sanity reset 04:48 Accidentally Pavlov'd by March Madness 05:54 The women's games are better, argue with the wall 06:35 Gratitude for dumb distractions 08:12 Workplaces are getting worse (and it's bad business) 08:54 The actual math on turnover and institutional knowledge 09:37 Short-term thinking is stealing your future 10:13 "It's not personal, it's just business" is an excuse 11:16 You are an asset, not a liability 12:26 You are not the problem for having boundaries 13:32 AI outsourcing and the coming pay cut 14:10 You deserve safety, accommodations, and a workplace built for humans 14:59 Small Talk with Alison: a question from Frank in Scranton 15:13 Hypervigilance, trauma, or just being realistic? 16:09 Why I can't let myself get excited about good things 16:44 Chaotic families and why I hate my birthday 17:45 Two trophies and a dead dog (and then, open-heart surgery) 18:42 Some of us are just wired this way 19:31 When it might be time to talk to a professional 20:22 Olympics tangent: how does anyone end up doing the luge? Resources & Links Got a question for Small Talk? Send it in: https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemail Mentioned in this episode: Wanna learn to write like me? Here's how you can! Writing Course

  • April 15 · 19 min

    I Put on Makeup. That's The Big Win.

    We're back. I put on makeup today. Seriously, that's where we are right now. I took a break — a self-imposed silent hiatus you probably didn't know about, because I had a backlog and I'm nothing if not someone who runs her mouth into a microphone first and asks questions later. But the break is over, and I was not ready to come back today. I was very, very not ready. And yet here we are, because I can do things scared, and apparently that includes walking downstairs and getting in front of the microphone when all I wanted was my best friend. (My kids confirmed my best friend is my bed. They weren't wrong.) In this episode, I'm talking about: — Odin, my 175-pound Great Dane who has exactly one person in this house and it is not me. Until he got scared. Then it was very much me. — A listener question from Talia in Berkeley about how you grieve versions of yourself you never got to become — the careers, the relationships, the risks you didn't take. — My dad's passing in 2016 and what happened in the four months after: every service line that was paying our business's bills disappeared. Every. Single. One. The universe was done with that chapter before I was. This episode is 18 minutes. It's also a little unplanned, a little raw, and exactly what it needs to be. Come back with me. CHAPTERS: 00:00 — War Paint On: We're Back (Armed with Makeup) 01:30 — What Counts as a Break When Your Brain Never Stops 02:09 — Content Brain Doesn't Take Vacations 02:50 — I Was Not Ready (But Here Anyway) 05:44 — Odin the 175-Pound Great Dane Who Only Loves Me in Crisis 09:02 — I'm the Safe Parent, Apparently 09:55 — What It's Actually Like Having Giant Dogs 12:24 — Small Talk: Grieving the Life You Didn't Live Mentioned in this episode: Join Quirky

  • April 8 · 36 min

    Don't Send Me a Video: Lists, Learning Styles & the Women's Health Gap

    I'll just say it: don't send me a video. Not because I'm technologically challenged — I literally make video content for a living — but because if I need information fast, I need it in a format I can actually consume. Scrollable. Skimmable. Mine to move through in the order my brain needs. Send me a video and you have just given me homework, and I am not paying you to give me homework. That's the rant that opens this episode, and I stand by every word of it. But then we get into something that I think matters even more. I'm sitting down with Joanna Strober, the CEO of Midi Health — a women-focused healthcare company doing what the standard system has historically refused to do: actually start with women's biology instead of working around it. Joanna spent years watching herself and women like her get handed SSRIs and sleep studies when what they actually needed was someone to check their hormone levels. So she built the company that does that. Insurance covered. All 50 states. Actually available. We talk about perimenopause, the diagnostic desert most women wander through on their own, what it actually takes to build a healthcare company that investors have no existing pattern for, and why AI might finally be the thing that cuts through the prior authorization bureaucracy that is eating your doctor's time alive. Then Alison is back for Small Talk with a question from Omar in Dearborn, Michigan, about how to ask for help when even the ask feels overwhelming — and why needing help is never the failure it feels like. If this one lands for you, share it with someone who could use it. Leave a review. Different, Not Broken is hosted by Lauren Howard. New episodes drop weekly.

  • April 1 · 29 min

    Why We Do People-First Leadership (even though it has to suck first!)

    In this episode, I talk about what it actually looks like when you prioritize people-first leadership — not the inspirational poster version, but the version where you're paying someone's salary while they're out sick, covering their workload yourself, and looking at your bank account like it personally offended you. A friend called me — the kind who doesn't call unless there's a thing. He's running a business the right way, the people-first way, and he needed me to tell him he was doing it wrong so he could stop. I couldn't do that for him. Because he wasn't doing it wrong. He was just 'in the suck'. I share two real stories — one from a friend, one from inside my own company — about what happens when you commit to putting humans first, and applying compassionate leadership, even when the business case doesn't make immediate sense. What happens to the employee who needed care she could actually afford. What happens to the friend who finally called back to say... well, you'll have to listen to find out what he said. The suck is temporary. The loyalty isn't. This episode is for anyone building something — a business, a team, a life — who's in the middle of the hard part right now. Plus: Allison brings a question from Becca about replaying conversations at 2am and whether that's anxiety, rumination, or just your brain refusing to behave. ⏱ Timestamps 00:00 — Intro & the friend who never calls 02:31 — What people-first leadership actually costs 06:25 — This is temporary. I promise. 09:51 — The reward is real. I just can't tell you when. 11:03 — He called back. He saw it. 13:07 — The employee story. The health insurance bill. The reason. 19:52 — Oh. That's why. 20:33 — What you get on the other side of the suck 23:13 — Small Talk: replaying conversations at 2am Mentioned in this episode: Build Your Better course Build your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-better Join Quirky

  • March 25 · 16 min

    I Robbed My Mom and My 9-Year-Old (In That Order) and I Regret Nothing

    My mom was in the hospital. ICU-level hospital. I knew she was going to be fine — but I also hadn't slept, and I was running on that specific kind of fuel that is equal parts functional and completely frayed. I had a lot of feelings. I did not share most of them. Instead, I asked her the question that actually mattered: how charged is your phone? This episode is about what happens when the people who raised us start needing us to show up — and how that experience is mostly logistical problem-solving interrupted by moments of genuine, unhinged absurdity. My mom had three separate envelopes of cash stuffed into various corners of her purse. She also had a small pouch of Equal packets. She let me take all the cash. She did not let me take the Equal. Barely ambulatory. Still ready to fight about artificial sweetener. I also robbed my 9-year-old's piggy bank for a valet tip. Her grandmother paid her back. I stayed out of that transaction entirely. Alison brings a question from Josh and Casey Mo, who feel like they're either all in or completely checked out — no middle gear — and it's starting to affect their relationships. I have thoughts. Mostly: please go talk to a clinician. Also in this episode: my husband's vacuum cleaner obsession, the Oscars, Conan O'Brien with a leaf blower, and the universe conspiring to put that exact sound directly into my AirPods at the worst possible moment. "You can take my money. You cannot take my Equal." Timestamps: 00:22 — My husband and his four vacuum cleaners 01:51 — The Oscars / sensory nightmare of the week 02:55 — Where did your parents keep the used twist ties? 04:42 — My mom was hospitalized (ICU, kidney transplant, all of it) 07:50 — The only question that matters: how charged is your phone? 08:53 — Purse archaeology: hard candies, cash pouches, and the Equal situation 13:12 — Small Talk: all in or completely checked out, no middle gear Different, Not Broken is hosted by Lauren Howard. New episodes drop weekly. Mentioned in this episode: Inflow Join Quirky GetInflow Our episode sponsor is Inflow. Please support this show and check them out at http://getinflow.io/notbroken Inflow