Growing Up In Polygamy

Sam sharing what it was like growing up in the polygamous FLDS group, his experiences leaving the group when he was 18 and his journey to where he is now. His wife Melissa is his co-host, asking the questions that everyone from the outside is thinking.

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Saturday · 26 min
When a Cult Leader Will Do ANYTHING to Be Right | How to Become a Cult Leader Ep. 5 Reaction
In Episode 5 of How to Become a Cult Leader, we dive into Aum Shinrikyo and the terrifying lengths its leader was willing to go to protect his authority and prove his prophecies right. We compare the group's tactics to patterns we've seen in the FLDS and fundamentalist Mormonism—from claims of prophetic authority and apocalyptic teachings to seeking political power and creating an intense "us vs. the world" mentality. But Aum Shinrikyo ultimately took those ideas to a horrifying extreme: when reality didn't match the prophecy, the answer was to try to make the prophecy come true. Once again, join us for what we have renamed the series How to AVOID a Cult Leader. #HowToBecomeACultLeader #AumShinrikyo #FLDS #WarrenJeffs #GrowingUpInPolygamy #ExPolygamist #CultAwareness #HighControlGroups #DocumentaryReaction If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
August 22 · 33 min
Heaven's Gate & FLDS: More Similar Than We Expected | How to Become a Cult Leader Ep. 4 Reaction
The more we learn about different high-control groups, the more we realize just how similar the playbook can be. In Episode 4 of How to Become a Cult Leader, we react to the story of Heaven's Gate and compare the methods used to control its members with Sam's experience growing up in the FLDS under Warren Jeffs. From isolation and unquestioning obedience to believing your leader has access to truth that the outside world simply can't understand, we were surprised by how many parallels we found. Different groups. Different leaders. Same tactics. Maybe this series really should be called How to AVOID a Cult Leader. #HowToBecomeACultLeader #HeavensGate #FLDS #WarrenJeffs #GrowingUpInPolygamy #ExPolygamist #CultAwareness #HighControlGroups If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
August 15 · 24 min
The Endless Goalposts That Keep Followers Trapped | How to Become a Cult Leader Ep. 3 Reaction
Download the FREE Upside App here https://yt.link/TJbkwvE and use code growingup to get an extra 25 cents back per gallon on your first tank of gas! Thank you Upside for sponsoring this video! In Episode 3 of How to Become a Cult Leader, we explore the Buddhafield community and its leader, Jaime Gomez, examining the subtle but powerful tactics used to keep followers deeply invested. From endless service and constantly moving spiritual goalposts to the promise of exclusive experiences that only a select few can attain, many of these methods felt strikingly familiar to us. As former members of the FLDS and mainstream Mormonism, we discuss how similar patterns appear across many high-control groups. While the beliefs may differ, the systems of control often look remarkably alike. Followers are encouraged to give more, serve more, sacrifice more, and always believe that the next level of acceptance, enlightenment, or approval is just around the corner. In this reaction, we compare the Buddhafield community with the FLDS and other groups we've studied over the years, asking an important question: Why do so many high-control groups rely on the same psychological tactics? Our goal isn't to criticize faith or spirituality. It's to better understand how manipulation works so people can recognize these patterns before they become trapped by them. Have you ever noticed these same tactics in other groups or organizations? We'd love to hear your thoughts in the comments. If you enjoy thoughtful conversations about documentaries, high-demand religions, survivor stories, and the psychology of influence and control, be sure to subscribe and join us each week. #HowToBecomeACultLeader #Buddhafield #JaimeGomez #GrowingUpInPolygamy #CultAwareness #HighControlGroups #ReligiousTrauma #DocumentaryReaction #FLDS #ExMormon #Psychology #TrueCrime #CultRecovery If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
August 8 · 25 min
The Fake Healings That Built a Cult | How to Become a Cult Leader Ep. 2 Reaction
What made thousands of people believe Jim Jones? In Episode 2 of How to Become a Cult Leader, we dive into one of the most powerful tools Jim Jones used to grow his following: fake healings and claims of divine power. By convincing people that miracles were happening before their eyes, he built trust, loyalty, and ultimately, complete control. As former members of high-demand religious communities, these tactics felt surprisingly familiar. Growing up in Mormon fundamentalism—and later mainstream Mormonism—we were taught from a young age that prophets could receive direct revelation from God. Because of that, the idea of someone claiming to "speak for God" didn't initially sound extraordinary to us. It was simply part of the worldview we had inherited. In this reaction, we compare Jim Jones' methods with those of Warren Jeffs and discuss why claims of divine authority can be so persuasive, especially for people raised to believe that God speaks through a single chosen leader. Our goal isn't to criticize faith—it's to explore how trust can be manipulated when leaders place themselves above accountability. What do you think? Why do you think claims of miracles or divine authority are so convincing? We'd love to hear your thoughts in the comments. If you enjoy thoughtful discussions about documentaries, high-demand religions, survivor stories, and the psychology behind manipulation, be sure to subscribe and join the conversation. #HowToBecomeACultLeader #JimJones #WarrenJeffs #GrowingUpInPolygamy #CultAwareness #HighControlGroups #ReligiousTrauma #DocumentaryReaction #ExMormon #FLDS #Psychology #TrueCrime If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
August 1 · 22 min
How to Become a Cult Leader Reaction | Ep 1 | Charles Manson vs. Warren Jeffs
In the first episode of How to Become a Cult Leader, we take a closer look at the rise of Charles Manson and the tactics he used to gain influence over his followers. But as we watched, we decided that the series should really be called "How to Avoid a Cult Leader." As former members of high-demand religious communities, we recognize many of these warning signs. Throughout this reaction, we compare Manson's methods with those of Warren Jeffs and other authoritarian leaders, exploring the striking similarities that appear again and again across groups that demand unquestioning loyalty. From isolation and manipulation to creating an "us vs. them" mentality, these patterns aren't unique to one person or one community. Whether the leader is religious, political, or charismatic in another way, the playbook is often remarkably similar. Our goal isn't just to react to a documentary—it's to help people recognize the red flags before they become trapped by them. What similarities stood out to you? Are there warning signs you think more people should know about? Let us know in the comments below. If you enjoy thoughtful discussions about high-demand groups, religious trauma, documentaries, and survivor stories, we'd love to have you subscribe and join the conversation. #HowToBecomeACultLeader #CharlesManson #WarrenJeffs #GrowingUpInPolygamy #CultAwareness #HighControlGroups #Netflix #TrueCrime #ReligiousTrauma #ExMormon #FLDS #DocumentaryReaction If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
July 18 · 31 min
From Odd Jobs to College Dreams | Charles F. Zitting Journal Ep. 4
What does it take to chase a dream when you have almost nothing? In Episode 4 of The Journal of Charles F. Zitting, we continue reading from Sam's grandfather's personal journal as he reflects on his teenage years. Charles shares memories of the many jobs he worked to help support himself, the determination that carried him through high school, and his unwavering desire to attend the University of Utah—even though he had no money and no clear path to get there. His story is one of perseverance, hard work, and the belief that education could open doors to a better future. As we read his words, we also discuss what these experiences reveal about his character and how they would shape the life he eventually built. Whether you're interested in family history, early Utah life, or stories of resilience, we hope you'll join us as we continue exploring the remarkable life of Charles F. Zitting. 📖 This series follows the autobiography of Sam's grandfather, Charles F. Zitting, with our commentary and reflections along the way. If you enjoy preserving family history and hearing firsthand accounts from the past, don't forget to like, subscribe, and share this series with someone who loves stories of determination and perseverance. #CharlesFZitting #FamilyHistory #Autobiography #UniversityOfUtah #GrowingUpInPolygamy #JournalSeries #UtahHistory #PersonalHistory #Perseverance #Education If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
July 4 · 45 min
What It ACTUALLY Takes to Take Down a Cult Leader w/Mike King from @ProfilingEvil
After watching Trust Me: A False Prophet, one question kept coming up: Why did it take so long to stop Samuel Bateman? If law enforcement knew about allegations of abuse, why wasn't he arrested sooner? What kind of evidence does it actually take to investigate and convict a cult leader? In this episode, we sit down with retired law enforcement officer and author Mike King to explore what happens behind the scenes during investigations into abusive religious leaders. We discuss the legal standards prosecutors must meet, why investigations involving coercive control and closed religious communities often take years, and the challenges of building a case that can result in a conviction. Using the Samuel Bateman case featured in Trust Me: A False Prophet as a real-world example, we examine what the justice system did well, where it fell short, and why investigators sometimes have to wait until they have enough evidence to ensure a dangerous leader is held accountable. Whether you're interested in the FLDS, high-demand religions, true crime, religious abuse, or the legal process behind major criminal investigations, this conversation provides valuable insight into why justice can take longer than many people expect. If you've watched Trust Me: A False Prophet, we'd love to hear your thoughts in the comments: What surprised you most about the investigation into Samuel Bateman? If you enjoy our conversations about the FLDS, the Kingston Group ("The Order"), the AUB, and other high-demand religious communities, don't forget to like this video, subscribe, and share it with someone who might find it helpful. Thank you for supporting our mission to create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized, and abused by their leaders while giving survivors a platform to share their stories. #TrustMe #SamuelBateman #MikeKing #FLDS #Polygamy #ReligiousAbuse #CultLeader #TrueCrime #HighDemandReligion #growingupinpolygamy Follow Mike King: @ProfilingEvil profilingevil.com Listen to Gardens of Evil here: https://go.gamutpodcasts.com/americannightmareseries If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
July 3 · 1 hr 7 min
Holding Out HELP 12 Days of Freedom Q&A
Life Beyond Polygamy: The Power of CommunityWhat role does community play in helping individuals and families rebuild their lives? Join us for a special live discussion about the impact of community, the importance of support systems, and how community partners help create pathways to healing, stability, and independence.This conversation features members of the Holding Out HELP team alongside special guests and collaborators who bring unique perspectives on the challenges many individuals face and the power of having people and organizations willing to walk alongside them.Featured Guests• Christine Brown Woolley• Amanda Rae• Melanie & Cory Koerner (@NotesToSelf444)• Tonia Tewell, Executive Director of Holding Out HELPTogether, we'll discuss:• The importance of community after isolation• How community partners help fill critical gaps in services• Education, scholarships, counseling, and other resources available through partnerships• Why no one should have to navigate life's challenges alone• How supporters like you help make these resources possibleSupport the Ignite the Light: 12 Days of Freedom CampaignEvery dollar helps someone take a step toward safety, healing, and independence.🔥 Donate today:https://holdingouthelp.networkforgood.com/projects/301518-ignite-the-light-12-days-of-freedomYour support helps provide housing assistance, counseling, case management, education support, emergency assistance, legal advocacy, transportation, and community programming for individuals and families from polygamous and other insular communities.About Holding Out HELPHolding Out HELP is a nonprofit organization dedicated to providing compassionate, comprehensive support services to individuals and families from polygamous and other insular communities. Through housing assistance, counseling, case management, education support, financial literacy, legal advocacy, and community-building opportunities, we help individuals create safe, stable, and independent futures.Learn more: http://holdingouthelp.org#IgniteTheLight #HoldingOutHELP #LifeBeyondPolygamy #CommunityMatters #StrongerTogether #IndependenceDay #Nonprofit #ReligiousTraumaRecoveryAt Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world."Please feel free to reach out to us!growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com
June 27 · 44 min
I Was Kicked Out of "The Order" for Being Gay | Val's Story Part 2
In Part 2 of Val Snow's story, we continue our conversation about growing up inside the Kingston Clan, also known as "The Order."After spending years trying to reconcile who he was with what he had been taught, Val opens up about coming to terms with his sexuality in a community that believed being gay was a choice. He shares the pressure to conform, the fear of being discovered, and the impossible expectations placed on LGBTQ individuals within the group.Val recounts what happened when his father found out he was dating men, the reaction from his family and community, and the events that ultimately led to him being cast out of the only world he had ever known.Leaving a high-control religious community often means losing more than your beliefs. For many, it can mean losing family, friendships, support systems, and a sense of belonging. Val's story highlights both the pain of rejection and the courage it takes to live authentically.If you haven't seen Part 1, be sure to check it out first, where Val shares what it was like growing up with a father who had 14 wives and more than 160 children, the abuse he experienced, and the challenges of life inside the Kingston Clan.Thank you to Val for trusting us with his story.❤️ If Val's story resonates with you, please consider sharing this video. Stories like his help create understanding, compassion, and hope for others who may be facing similar struggles.#GrowingUpInPolygamy #KingstonClan #TheOrder #LGBTQStories #Polygamy #ReligiousTrauma #CultRecovery #ExMormon #ValSnow #HighControlReligionIf you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.orgAt Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world."If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamyInsta: @growingupinpolygamywww.growingupinpolygamy.comTheme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us!growingupinpolygamy@gmail.comCreate Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
June 24 · 54 min
My Father Had 14 Wives and 160+ Children | Growing Up in "The Order"
In this episode, we sit down with Val Snow to hear his incredible story of growing up inside the Kingston Clan, also known as "The Order," one of the most secretive polygamous groups in the United States. Val was raised in a family unlike most people can imagine. His father had 14 wives and more than 150 children. He shares what life was really like growing up in such a massive family, the financial struggles they faced, the abuse he witnessed and experienced, and the challenges of finding his own identity in a community where obedience was expected and questions were discouraged. Val also opens up about what it was like realizing he was gay in a culture that taught homosexuality wasn't real and that attraction to women would come through marriage and faithfulness. Long before he was ready to tell anyone, he was already wrestling with feelings that put him at odds with everything he had been taught. This is Part 1 of Val's story. In Part 2, Val shares what happened when his family discovered he was dating men, the consequences he faced, and the events that ultimately led to him being cast out of the community. If you enjoy conversations that help us better understand high-control religious groups and the experiences of those who leave them, be sure to subscribe and join us for Part 2. #KingstonClan #TheOrder #Polygamy #CultSurvivor #ExMormon #LGBTQStories #GrowingUpInPolygamy #ValSnow If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
June 20 · 34 min
Gloriavale Says It's Changed... But Has It Really? | Devotion Finale Reaction
In the final episode of "Devotion: Obedience or Betrayal?", Gloriavale faces growing legal pressure while leaders work to convince the public, and the government, that the abuses of the past are behind them.But have things really changed?As former members continue to speak out and ongoing court cases raise difficult questions, we examine Gloriavale's efforts to reform its image and protect its future. Are meaningful changes being made to create a safer community, or is the leadership simply saying the right things to avoid outside intervention?One of the biggest questions raised in this episode is whether true free will can exist in an isolated community where members are born, raised, educated, and socialized entirely within its walls. When Gloriavale is the only life you've ever known, what does choosing to stay—or leave—actually mean?Join us as we react to the final episode of Devotion: Obedience or Betrayal?, share our perspectives from our own experiences in high-control religious communities, and discuss the complex relationship between faith, obedience, community, and choice.Have you watched the series? We'd love to hear your thoughts in the comments below.#Gloriavale #Devotion #CultDocumentary #ExMormon #FLDS #GrowingUpInPolygamy #ReligiousTrauma #HighControlReligion #DocumentaryReactionIf you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.orgAt Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world."If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamyInsta: @growingupinpolygamywww.growingupinpolygamy.comTheme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us!growingupinpolygamy@gmail.comCreate Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
June 17 · 32 min
Can You Separate the Leader from the Crimes? | Devotion: Obedience or Betrayal Ep. 2
In Episode 2 of Devotion: Obedience or Betrayal, we dive into one of the most difficult questions any faith community can face: Can you separate a religious leader's contributions from their crimes? As former members of high-demand religious communities, we discuss the complicated legacy of leaders whose teachings helped shape entire generations, even after serious wrongdoing comes to light. We compare the conviction of Hopeful Christian to our experiences with Warren Jeffs and explore why different communities respond so differently when their leaders are sent to prison. We also talk about the challenge many religious groups face when trying to distinguish themselves from other controversial movements. Why do some communities feel misunderstood by the media? When does criticism become unfair, and when is it necessary accountability? And how do members reconcile the good they experienced with the harm that was done? Join us as we react to Episode 2 and share our perspective on faith, loyalty, accountability, and the lasting impact of religious leadership. What are your thoughts? Can a community honor a leader's contributions while condemning their actions? Let us know in the comments below. 👍 Like this video if you enjoy these discussions 🔔 Subscribe for more reactions, interviews, and conversations about religious movements, cults, polygamy, and faith transitions #Devotion #ObedienceOrBetrayal #CultDocumentary #ExPolygamistReacts #GrowingUpInPolygamy #WarrenJeffs #ReligiousTrauma #FaithDeconstruction #HopefulChristian #DocumentaryReaction #CultSurvivor #Polygamy #ReligiousLeadership #TrueStory #CultsAndExtremism If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
June 13 · 33 min
Devotion: Obedience or Betrayal? The FLDS Parallels Are Impossible to Ignore | Episode 1 Reaction
Devotion: Obedience or Betrayal? tells the story of Gloriavale, a closed religious community in New Zealand that was founded on promises of faith, unity, and a better way of life. As former members of Mormon communities, we couldn't help but notice some striking similarities to our own experiences growing up in the FLDS and mainstream Mormon culture. In this reaction and discussion, we explore the origins of Gloriavale, the appeal of religious utopias, and why so many isolated groups seem to develop similar rules, expectations, and power structures over time. We discuss the role of obedience, patriarchal leadership, separation from the outside world, and how sincere beliefs can sometimes create environments where abuse and control are able to flourish. While Gloriavale, the FLDS, and the LDS Church are very different in many ways, this documentary raises important questions about authority, devotion, loyalty, and what happens when questioning leadership is seen as betrayal. What did you think of Devotion: Obedience or Betrayal? Did you notice similarities to other religious communities or high-demand groups? Let us know in the comments. 👍 Like this video if you enjoyed the discussion 🔔 Subscribe for more reactions, interviews, and conversations about Mormonism, the FLDS, polygamy, and religious communities 💬 Share your thoughts and experiences in the comments #Gloriavale #Devotion #FLDS #Mormonism #ReligiousCommunities #ExFLDS #CultDocumentary #HighDemandReligion #Polygamy #ReactionVideo If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
June 6 · 31 min
Why Kingston Clan Leaders Go to Prison for Fraud—Not Abuse | With @TheAmandaRaeGrant
For years, the Kingston Clan, also known as The Order, has been accused of abuse, exploitation, forced marriages, and maintaining a system that prioritizes power and control over the well-being of its members. Yet when leaders do face legal consequences, it often seems to be for financial crimes rather than the harm inflicted on women and children. In this episode, we sit down with Amanda Rae, who was born and raised in the Kingston Clan, to discuss the current state of the group and where things stand today. We explore who has gone to prison, how leaders have historically avoided accountability, and why prosecuting abuse inside closed religious communities can be so difficult. We also discuss the future of The Order. Despite continuing to grow through high birth rates, the group faces challenges that many believe could impact its long-term survival, including increasing public awareness, more members speaking out, and the devastating effects of generations of closely related marriages. As former members of fundamentalist religious communities, we bring our own perspectives on the systems that allow groups like these to survive and why meaningful change is often so difficult to achieve. What do you think it would take for the Kingston Clan to truly decline? Let us know in the comments. #KingstonClan #TheOrder #AmandaRae #Polygamy #CultRecovery #ExMormon #Fundamentalism #ReligiousTrauma #TrueCrime #HiddenCommunities #PolygamistGroup #SurvivorStory #CultAwareness #SamAndMelissa #MormonFundamentalism 🔔 Subscribe for more conversations, interviews, and reactions exploring polygamy, Mormon fundamentalism, high-control religious groups, and life after leaving them. 📱 Follow us on social media for updates and behind-the-scenes content. ⚠️ This video discusses topics including abuse, coercion, and exploitation within high-control religious environments. Viewer discretion is advised. If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
May 30 · 39 min
The Warning Signs Were There All Along | Unchosen Finale Reaction
In the finale of Unchosen, the story takes a disturbing turn as manipulation, control, and blind trust collide in ways that felt all too familiar to us. As former members of high-control religious groups, we break down the warning signs that were present from the beginning, how charismatic individuals gain influence, and why closed communities can become vulnerable to manipulation. Throughout this reaction, we compare the events of Unchosen to our own experiences growing up in Mormonism and the FLDS, exploring the psychology behind obedience, authority, and belief. What starts as a search for belonging and purpose gradually reveals deeper questions about power, trust, and the dangers of unquestioned leadership. Did you see the warning signs before the ending? Let us know in the comments. 👍 Like this video if you've enjoyed our Unchosen reaction series 🔔 Subscribe for more reactions, interviews, and discussions about Mormonism, fundamentalism, polygamy, and high-control religious groups #Unchosen #Netflix #CultDocumentary #FLDS #MormonFundamentalism #ExFLDS #CultPsychology #ReligiousTrauma #SamuelBateman #WarrenJeffs #NetflixReaction #UnchosenNetflix #Polygamy #CultSurvivor #ExMormon If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
May 23 · 48 min
Given to Samuel Bateman | Nomz Reveals What Happened Next | Pt. 2
In Part 2 of our interview with Nomz from the documentary Trust Me: The False Prophet, we continue her powerful story as she opens up about being given to Samuel Bateman and what life was really like under his control. Nomz answers questions about the documentary, shares details about her time in prison, and explains the emotional and mental process of breaking free from the beliefs she was raised with under both Warren Jeffs and Samuel Bateman. We discuss the fear, manipulation, and conditioning that kept people loyal for so long — and what it actually took for her to begin questioning everything she had been taught since childhood. She also shares what starting over has looked like, the challenges of rebuilding her identity, and how she’s learning to create a new life outside of the FLDS mindset. This conversation is raw, honest, heartbreaking, and hopeful all at the same time. #SamuelBateman #WarrenJeffs #FLDS #TrustMeTheFalseProphet #ExFLDS #Polygamy #CultSurvivor #MormonFundamentalism #TrueStory Support Nomz! Tiktok @nomzia_b Insta @nomzia_b Facebook Nomzia Bistline Venmo @nomzia_b CashApp $NomziBistline If you are struggling with hopelessness, fear, suicidal thoughts, or feeling trapped, please know you are not alone. In the U.S. and Canada, you can call or text 988 to reach the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline for free, confidential support 24/7.If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
May 20 · 1 hr 4 min
Raised Under Warren Jeffs… Then Chosen by Samuel Bateman | Nomz Interview Pt. 1
In Part 1 of our interview with Nomz from the documentary Trust Me: The False Prophet, she shares what life was really like growing up inside the FLDS under the control of Warren Jeffs, long before Samuel Bateman entered her life. Nomz opens up about losing her father after he was sent away by the church, becoming part of the United Order, and living in an environment where individuality and creativity were punished instead of encouraged. She explains how fear, obedience, and control shaped every part of daily life in the FLDS, and how those experiences made her vulnerable to manipulation later on. She also shares the disturbing way Samuel Bateman began secretly targeting and harassing her, convincing her that terrible things happening around her were somehow her fault because she refused to “give herself” to him. Eventually, she felt trapped into believing that going with him was the only way to protect the people she loved. This is the beginning of a powerful and heartbreaking story about religious control, fear, grooming, and survival. #FLDS #SamuelBateman #WarrenJeffs #TrustMeTheFalseProphet #ExFLDS #Polygamy #CultSurvivor #MormonFundamentalism Support Nomz! Tiktok ⁨@nomzia_b⁩ Insta ⁨@nomzia_b⁩ Facebook Nomzia Bistline Venmo ⁨@nomzia_b⁩ CashApp $NomziBistline If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
May 16 · 30 min
Netflix’s Unchosen Gets Disturbingly Close to the FLDS Reality | Ep 2&3 Reaction
In Episodes 2 & 3 of Netflix’s Unchosen, we were shocked by how many similarities we recognized from our own experiences growing up in Mormon culture and the FLDS world. We break down the control tactics, fear-based teachings, isolation, obedience, gender roles, and “us vs. them” mindset shown in the series — and compare them to what we personally witnessed in both the FLDS and mainstream LDS environments. While Unchosen is fictional, some of the dynamics felt disturbingly real to us. In this reaction and discussion, we share our honest thoughts on what the show gets right, what stood out to us most, and why these kinds of belief systems can become so dangerous when power goes unchecked. If you’ve watched Episodes 2 & 3 of Unchosen, let us know what stood out to you most in the comments. If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
May 9 · 33 min
Netflix’s Unchosen vs Trust Me: The False Prophet | REAL Life comparison
What does Netflix get right about closed religious groups… and what does it miss? In this video, we react to Unchosen and break it down through our real-life experiences growing up in and around fundamentalist Mormon communities. As someone raised in the Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (FLDS), Sam shares what felt eerily accurate and what didn’t quite line up with reality. From control and isolation to religious authority and family structure, we compare what you see on screen to what life is actually like inside tightly controlled, high-demand religious environments like the FLDS and other branches of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints fundamentalism. While the show isn’t directly about figures like Samuel Bateman, we also touch on how modern cases like his reflect similar patterns of control, influence, and belief systems that continue to exist today. If you’ve ever wondered how accurate these portrayals are or how they compare to real experiences, this is a conversation you won’t want to miss. Subscribe for more real conversations about religion, control, and life after leaving. If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa
April 29 · 52 min
He Wanted His Own Daughter as a Wife… | Insider Interview on Sam Bateman
In this exclusive interview, Kathryn shares her firsthand experience with Bateman’s family, including her relationship with his ex-wife and the role she played in helping care for their children. She opens up about unsettling interactions she witnessed between Sam Bateman and his first wife, long before he declared himself a prophet. One of the most shocking revelations? The moment that pushed his wife to finally leave—and the disturbing request that changed everything. We also discuss Kathryn’s thoughts on the documentary Trust Me: The False Prophet, and the current state of the FLDS community today—especially as members of her own family are still inside. This is an insider perspective you won’t hear anywhere else. If you’ve been following this story or want a deeper understanding of what really happens behind closed doors in these communities, this conversation is one you don’t want to miss. 👉 Don’t forget to like, subscribe, and share your thoughts in the comments. If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org At Growing Up In Polygamy our mission is to "Create compassion for communities that have been misunderstood, marginalized and/or abused by their leaders, and to empower those who have left by giving them a platform to share their stories with the world." If you would like to DONATE to this cause you can do so here: https://donorbox.org/growing-up-in-polygamy Insta: @growingupinpolygamy www.growingupinpolygamy.com Theme Song created by @artcowles Please feel free to reach out to us! growingupinpolygamy@gmail.com Create Shorts Easily like us with Opus Clips: https://www.opus.pro/?via=SamandMelissa

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