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The Reality Between Us

Aja Rutledge

The Reality Between Us explores what happens underneath relationships.

Through the lens of trauma, nervous systems, self-awareness, and relational patterns, Aja Rutledge examines the forces quietly shaping how we connect, conflict, communicate, avoid, trust, and make meaning of our experiences. Most relationship advice focuses on behavior. This podcast explores what's driving the behavior.

Rather than offering formulas or quick fixes, The Reality Between Us looks beneath the surface of our relationships, with partners, family, friends, coworkers, and most importantly, ourselves, to understand the hidden dynamics influencing how we show up and why we keep repeating the patterns we do. Because what happens between people rarely starts between people. Most relationship advice is looking in one place. We're going to look somewhere else.

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#18
Yesterday · 26 min
When Harmful Relationships Feel Like Home | #18
Sometimes we find ourselves in relationships that we know aren't good for us, but we can't seem to leave. We might finally decide we've had enough, walk away, and somehow end up right back where we started. It's easy to question ourselves when this happens. "Why do I keep going back? Why can't I just leave?" But there can be a lot more happening beneath the surface than we realize. What if part of the reason it's so hard to leave is that the relationship feels familiar? Even when we recognize that we're being harmed, our attachment to someone, the ways we've learned to find safety, and the relationship dynamics we grew up with can all influence what we do next. And sometimes we're so focused on understanding why someone keeps hurting us that we lose sight of what being in that relationship is actually doing to us. In this episode, we explore: Why recognizing harm doesn't necessarily make it easier to leave a relationship. How childhood experiences shape what feels familiar, normal, and safe in adult relationships. The ways attraction, attachment, and emotional regulation can keep us connected to harmful relationships. Why understanding someone's harmful behavior can distract us from recognizing and responding to its impact on us. Episode Thoughts to Sit With “Why did they do that? As if it changes what is actually being done to you. It changes the impact of how they're affecting you. And it doesn't.” “Intensity will bond you quickly before you have the awareness and the time to actually see how somebody maneuvers in life situations.” “But it's not your fault. And despite it not being your fault, it is your responsibility.” If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. Join me over on Substack at The Better Question for more of what I'm thinking about and exploring. To get in touch about the show: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#17
October 21 · 21 min
Do You Believe Your Own Story? | #17
We all have blind spots, and sometimes the person we believe ourselves to be isn't the person we're actually demonstrating ourselves to be. We may genuinely believe we're showing up in certain ways without recognizing that our behavior tells a different story. That difference matters in relationships. When our understanding of ourselves doesn't align with how we actually behave, it can affect how others experience us and whether they can trust and depend on us. Becoming more aware of those inconsistencies gives us an opportunity to develop greater coherence between who we believe we are and how we show up. In this episode, we explore: How we can engage in unhealthy or manipulative behaviors without recognizing what we're doing. The difference between who we believe ourselves to be and how we actually show up in relationships. Why inconsistencies between our words and actions can affect how others experience and trust us. The aspirational self and how we can identify with qualities we haven't yet developed through our behavior. What it takes to become more internally coherent and consistent across our relationships. Episode Thoughts to Sit With “Do you really know the idea you have of how you show up in a relationship and the reality of how you show up in a relationship?” “Many times we want to see ourselves in a certain way but we have not formed the skills and the practice to actually maneuver in that way yet.” “The behavior and the gap is revealing something and it is giving a person a story about us even if we have a different story about us.” “There is great satisfaction in knowing that who you are is who you are no matter where you are, no matter who you're with, no matter what situation comes up.” If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. Join me over on Substack at The Better Question and read The Fallacy of the Aspirational Self for a deeper dive of this concept. https://ajarutledge.substack.com/ To get in touch about the show: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#16
October 14 · 15 min
You Stopped Asking Questions | #16
Curiosity impacts the way we experience ourselves and the people we're in relationship with. But when we believe we already know someone, we can stop asking questions and start relating to the version of them we've created in our minds, rather than who they actually are today. The same can happen with ourselves. We accept our thoughts, beliefs, and behaviors as simply who we are, without questioning where they came from or whether they still fit. Curiosity gives us an opportunity to question those assumptions and better understand ourselves and others. In this episode, we explore: Why curiosity matters in continuing to get to know people as they grow and change. The ways our assumptions about someone can prevent us from seeing who they actually are. What curiosity about our own thoughts, beliefs, and behaviors can reveal about ourselves. The gap between how we believe we show up in relationships and how others actually experience us. How asking questions during disagreements can create shared understanding, even when we don't agree. Episode Thoughts to Sit With “... if that's how you've always done it, how do you give yourself an opportunity to do it differently?” “Just because we believe we show up certain ways in relationships does not mean that's how we actually show up. And that does not mean that that is how somebody experiences us showing up.” “Do you like the idea of the person? Do you like what this person does for you? Do you like what they bring into your life? Do you like how they make you feel or do you like them?” “Safety doesn't come because we agree about everything. It comes because we're feeling understood. I don't have to agree with where you landed but I can understand how you got there.” If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. Join me over on Substack at The Better Question for more of what I'm thinking about and exploring. https://ajarutledge.substack.com/ To get in touch about the show: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com.
#15
October 7 · 23 min
Everywhere You Go, There You Are | #15
How well we know ourselves affects how we show up in every relationship we’re in. Our moods, patterns, needs, expectations, capacity, and the things we haven’t worked through all come into our relationships with us. When we don’t understand those things about ourselves, we may not recognize what we’re bringing into our relationships or how it’s affecting the people around us. In this episode, we explore: Why the relationship we have with ourselves matters in the relationships we have with other people. How little we may consider ourselves when making major relational decisions. What happens when we don’t recognize our own moods, reactions, and patterns. Why changing the person or environment doesn’t necessarily change a pattern we’re carrying with us. What it means to ask other people for things we may not know how to offer them or ourselves. Episode Thoughts to Sit With “How are we being in relationship with others when we’re ignoring the relationship with self?” “How can you sit with somebody else’s thoughts if you’re terrified to sit with your own thoughts?” “Getting to know ourselves, observing ourselves, being honest about what we do or what the patterns in our lives are or how we maneuver is critical for, one, us to have the life we say we want, and then, two, to be a person in relationship that is healthy with others.” “There’s so many people out here who say they want things from their parents, they want things from a partner, they want things from other people that they themselves have no ability to offer. The audacity. Why should you expect somebody to offer something to you that you can’t offer to them? Or even, how about, can you offer it to yourself?” t If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. Join me over on Substack at The Better Question for more of what I’m thinking about and exploring. https://ajarutledge.substack.com/ To get in touch about the show: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#14
September 30 · 21 min
The Less Obvious Side of Self Trust | #14
Self-trust isn’t something we develop once and never have to think about again. It’s an ongoing practice, and sometimes the places where we aren’t trusting ourselves aren’t immediately obvious. We can see what is happening clearly, know how something is affecting us, and still override what we know by searching for more information, more understanding, or another explanation. We can also practice self-trust in the smallest everyday moments by responding to what we know we need instead of continually ignoring or questioning ourselves. The more we practice responding to what we know, the more self-trust becomes something we actually move from rather than something we simply believe we have. In this episode, we explore: Why self-trust is something we continue to practice, even after we’ve worked to develop it. How a lack of self-trust can show up in ways we may not immediately recognize. Why seeking more understanding can sometimes become a way of overriding what we already know. How responding to small signals from ourselves can help us practice self-trust. Why trusting ourselves includes being willing to act on what we know, even when other people see things differently. Episode Thoughts to Sit With “Why do you need more information? Does it change how you’re being treated right now? Does it change how you feel about how you’re being treated right now? Does it alter the impact that it’s having on you?” “I trust myself to understand my experience in the world, and I trust myself to know that my experience is just as relevant and deserving as the next person’s experience.” “Self-trust is not a mind thing. It’s a body and mind thing. You have to get to a place of being embodied because a lot of the time self-trust is going to show up in your body.” “There are opportunities presented to us daily to practice that self-trust muscle, and whether it’s the tiniest opportunity like I need to go to the bathroom so let me get up right now and go, or a big opportunity like this relationship is not for my highest good and I need to walk, it’s all still a practice.” If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. Join me over on Substack at The Better Question for more of what I’m thinking about and exploring: The Better Question To get in touch about the show: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#13
September 23 · 25 min
Under the Influence of Shame | #13
Shame can be shaping our lives without us even realizing it’s there. Unlike feelings we can easily recognize, shame can sit underneath our reactions, our beliefs about ourselves, and the way we interpret what is happening around us. It can turn a mistake into evidence that something is wrong with us. It can change what we hear when someone brings a problem to us. And it can influence our relationships, the things we allow ourselves to receive, and even the things we say we want. In this episode, we explore: Why shame can be difficult to recognize even when it is having a significant impact on our lives. How shame can become connected to other emotions and experiences. How shame can influence self-sabotage and the things we believe we deserve. Why shame can change how we hear and respond to other people in our relationships. How self-compassion and questioning our own perceptions can begin to interrupt shame. Episode Thoughts to Sit With “Shame is like one of those emotions that you really don’t know it’s coming into play. You really don’t understand the impact that it’s having on you.” “Shame is what creates this perception of all-encompassing versus this one little issue that somebody addressed.” “When you can question what you perceive reality to be, to quote-unquote fact check your reality, you can see if what you’re perceiving is adding up to.” “Shame can direct your whole life.” Resources / Further Reading Healing the Shame That Binds You by John Bradshaw Embracing Shame: How to Stop Resisting Shame and Turn It into a Powerful Ally by Bret Lyon & Sheila Rubin Center for Healing Shame founded by Bret Lyon & Sheila Rubin If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. Join me over on Substack at The Better Question for more of what I’m thinking about and exploring: The Better Question To get in touch about the show: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#12
September 16 · 25 min
What You Don't Feel, Someone Else Will | #12
We can avoid our feelings, refuse to talk about them, or convince ourselves they aren't affecting us. But that doesn't mean they've disappeared. Our feelings are still showing up in how we behave, how we respond to other people, and what happens between us in our relationships. Feelings also give us information. And when we don't take the time to understand what they're telling us, we can end up responding to the person in front of us for something that isn't entirely about them. In this episode, we explore: Why avoiding or denying our feelings doesn't stop them from affecting our relationships. How feelings can give us information about what's happening within us. Why being unable to sit with our own feelings can make it difficult to hold space for someone else's. How trying to fix, minimize, or move someone through a feeling can sometimes be about our own discomfort with what they're feeling. Why the person who triggers a feeling isn't always the person the feeling is actually about. Episode Thoughts to Sit With “A person who cannot hold their own feelings cannot hold your feelings. And that is not a dig. That is not shaming anybody. That is the truth.” “Instead of him sitting with his own discomfort around that, he kept trying to fix my quote unquote problem. But I didn't have a problem. I had a feeling and I was willing to feel the feeling.” “Feelings are always giving us data. And when we refuse to look at the data, we can use what is coming at us and put it onto people around us when it really doesn't have anything to do with them.” “Just because somebody did something that initiates a feeling within us, doesn't mean they're the problem all the time. So we have to be able to process the data so that we can be more accurate with ourselves and we can engage relationally with those around us in a more accurate, caring and kind way.” If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. Join me over on Substack at The Better Question for more of what I’m thinking about and exploring. https://ajarutledge.substack.com/ To get in touch about the show: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#11
September 9 · 24 min
What We’re Missing About Attachment | #11
Attachment styles have become part of how we talk about relationships. We hear about anxious attachment, avoidant attachment, secure attachment, and often use those labels to explain why someone behaves the way they do. But attachment is more complicated than a label or what happened between us and one primary caregiver. Our nervous systems learn how to find safety within much larger environments, and those adaptations can continue operating beneath our awareness, shaping not only how we move through relationships but what happens between us and the people we're in them with. In this episode, we explore: What attachment styles are and how they operate at a nervous-system level. How our environments, experiences, social conditioning, and other influences can shape the way we learn to attach. How different attachment styles develop around what our nervous systems have learned about safety and connection. Why behaviors that look similar on the surface can come from very different places underneath. How different attachment patterns can interact with one another and create relational cycles that are difficult to recognize when we don't know what's happening. Episode Thoughts to Sit With “It's also about how the child receives it and what your nervous system learns is the easiest, fastest way to get to what feels safe for you. That doesn't mean that's what is safe. That is not the same thing as what, in a securely attached person, would deem as safe. It's saying what is safe for you.” “There’s this really false binary narrative out there that says if your primary caregiver was horrible and critical and this and that, then you have this attachment style. And it’s not that simple. It’s not that black and white.” “Many times what is happening is it's a cycle that something in their attachment style triggers something in your attachment style, which makes you escalate, which then makes them escalate to pulling back, and now it's this whole big thing where we just keep escalating. So it's playing off of each other.” Resources / Further Reading I don't usually include resources with episodes, but these are a few of the books that have informed some of the connections I'm making here. They explore different pieces of how our early experiences, environments, nervous systems, culture, shame, and other influences can shape us. They aren't necessarily talking about attachment in the same way I'm connecting these ideas here, but they offer more context for some of what I'm drawing from in this conversation. Decolonizing Therapy by Jennifer Mullan, PsyD The Orchid and the Dandelion by W. Thomas Boyce, MD Healing the Shame That Binds You by John Bradshaw If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. To connect, ask a question, or share your thoughts, email: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com. Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#10
September 2 · 25 min
The Complexity of Feeling Safe | #10
Safety is one of those things we think we understand. We know what it means to be physically safe, and we may even know what emotional or psychological safety is supposed to look like. But knowing what safety is and actually feeling safe aren't always the same thing. Our experiences teach our nervous systems what to recognize as familiar, and sometimes what feels familiar isn't actually safe. Those experiences can shape the environments we're drawn to, how we respond to the people around us, and even which versions of ourselves are available in different relationships. In this episode, we explore: The difference between external safety and the safety we create within ourselves. How our early environments shape what our nervous systems learn to recognize as safety. Why calm and steadiness can feel unsafe when we're accustomed to chaos or intensity. How our own nervous system state can shape the environment we create for our children and other people around us. Why the same person can show up very differently depending on how safe they feel in a relationship. How we can mistake someone's protective behavior for simply being who they are. Episode Thoughts to Sit With “Your brain is always going to find what it knows. That doesn’t mean it’s what’s best. It’s just what it knows. And your nervous system is going to attune to what it knows until you do the work to teach it something new.” “It’s wild how we perceive safety on a level that we are not even fully aware of. And how much that if we are in an environment that is quote-unquote not safe to us, we will go recreate our safety, or we will leave that environment to go find what is comfortable.” “Safety dictates how you show up. And so sometimes, you know, we want to be quick to be like, ‘Oh, this person has the attitude’ or ‘Every time they come over here, they’re super closed off.’ And we think that’s them. And sometimes it is, but also there’s times where it’s you. It’s you who has created an environment where they don’t feel safe. And so they show up in a way that’s protective. That’s not who they are all the time. That’s not how they move through the world. That’s not how they are when they feel safe.” If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. To connect, ask a question, or share your thoughts, email: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com. Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#9
August 26 · 22 min
What Hope Won't Let You See | #9
Hope is usually seen as a good thing. It keeps us going. It gives us something to believe in. But sometimes hope can also keep us in situations when everything happening right now is telling us something different. Sometimes we see people's behavior clearly and still hold onto who we know they could be. We explain things away, focus on the good moments, and keep hoping that eventually those moments will become the norm. But at some point, we have to be willing to look at the actual data. In this episode, we explore: Why some of us struggle to believe people's behavior over their potential. What happens when hope starts overriding the actual data in a relationship. The difference between someone's potential and their willingness to actually live up to it. How familiar relationship dynamics can keep us from seeing what's actually happening. Why radical acceptance can help us make decisions based on what is happening now, not what we hope will happen. How ignoring or filtering out information keeps us from making truly informed decisions about our relationships. Episode Thoughts to Sit With "Hope can become dangerous because hope will keep you there when there's no evidence telling you that you should be staying there." "Some people might have potential, but that doesn't mean they want to exercise the ability to get there." "Your toxic hope overrides the data that's telling you whether they want to do that work or not." "Sometimes the behaviors or the data tells us a story we really don't want to see. Sometimes it tells us a story that's really hard to sit with but that doesn't mean that it's not happening anyway." If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. To connect, ask a question, or share your thoughts, email: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com. Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#8
August 19 · 25 min
Wanting the Relationship Is the Easy Part | #8
Wanting a relationship doesn't mean you're equipped to have one. We spend a lot of time thinking about the relationships we want, the kind of people we want in our lives, and what we want those relationships to give us. But how often do we stop and consider what we're bringing into them? Wanting the thing is the easy part. Being able to create and sustain it is something else. In this episode, we explore: Why wanting a relationship doesn't automatically mean you're ready for one. The difference between deserving healthy relationships and being equipped to participate in them. Why relationships require us to consider the impact we're having on other people. What it means to consider the experience of being in relationship with you. Whether you're the person the person you want would actually want. Why it's worth questioning what we're asking relationships to fulfill for us. How entering relationships without considering our readiness can leave real damage behind. The skills and maturity it takes to create and sustain healthy relationships. Episode Thoughts to Sit With "Just because you want a thing doesn't mean you are equipped to have the thing." "Do you consider what the experience of you is to others? Like do you ever sit and ask, hey, what's it like to be my friend? What's it like to be in a relationship with me? What's it like to be my child?" "I think everybody deserves healthy relationships. I think everybody wants them and that's fair and everybody deserves them and that's fair but everybody is not ready." "Relationships are major decisions and we don't treat them as if they are. We treat them as if they're experiences we get to jump into and jump out of when it's convenient for us." "The thing is you can leave some relationships but what trail are you leaving behind you?" If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. To connect, ask a question, or share your thoughts, email: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com. Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#7
August 12 · 23 min
Validation Isn't the Problem. You Are. | #7
Validation and agreement are not the same thing. Somewhere along the way, many of us learned that if we acknowledge another person's experience, we're saying they're right. But what if validation simply means making room for their reality without abandoning your own? In this episode, we explore: Why validation and agreement are not the same thing. Why validation is often the first step toward repair. What gets in the way of validating another person's experience. Why conflict continues when both people are only fighting to be understood. How making room for another person's reality doesn't require abandoning your own. Why repair requires both people to feel heard and received. The role validation plays both inside and outside of conflict. Why some people seem to experience validation as something threatening. The questions to ask yourself when validation feels difficult. How slowing down creates space for different responses in moments of conflict. Episode Thoughts to Sit With "Validation absolutely does not mean I agree with what you're saying. But it does mean I hear you. I get that's where you are." "I do think people are protecting something...and it's getting in the way of mutual relationship and being able to repair and move forward." "The way forward is through repair." "Challenge yourself to see the situation from the other person's experience, not through your lens, because those are not the same things."
#6
August 5 · 25 min
The Reality You're Responding To | #6
How many times have you been absolutely certain you knew what someone meant...only to find out later that's not what was happening at all? In this episode, we're exploring how the state we're in changes what we think we're seeing. Because sometimes we're responding to what's actually happening. And sometimes we're responding to the lens we're looking through. Learning the difference can change our relationships...and ourselves. In this episode Why two people can experience the same interaction and walk away with completely different realities. How the state you're in changes what you think is happening. Why slowing down before reacting matters. What it looks like to recognize when someone else's state is driving the interaction. Simple ways to start noticing the state you're bringing into your day. Episode Thoughts To Sit With "You and the person are literally in two different realities thinking you're in the same reality." "The state is the way you perceive the world." "Don't observe yourself and then chastise yourself or criticize yourself. We're literally just observing." "Sometimes they are too activated in their own stuff...that doesn't mean you have to be." If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. To connect, ask a question, or share your thoughts, email: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com. Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#5
July 29 · 19 min
Seeing What’s There | #5
People often ask whether someone is the right person for them. But we don't spend nearly enough time asking whether that person has the capacity to meet us where we are. In this episode, we explore why understanding another person's relationship with themselves tells us more about the relationship that's possible than what they say they want. We look at how to recognize emotional capacity, why people can't meet us in places they can't meet themselves, and why accepting where someone actually is can be one of the kindest things we do, for them and for ourselves. We explore: Why the depth of a relationship is shaped by each person's relationship with themselves. What it means to assess someone's capacity instead of judging them. How to recognize when someone can, or can't, meet you where you are. Why emotional intimacy begins with intimacy with yourself. The difference between accepting where someone is and trying to change them. Why forcing people beyond their capacity creates suffering for both people. How self-awareness helps us communicate honestly about what we can and cannot give. Why understanding another person's capacity helps us build healthier relationships. How compassion and discernment can exist at the same time. Episode Thoughts to Sit With "We need to understand where other people are so we can understand what type of dynamic we can have with them, so that we're not beating our own heads up against the wall. So we're not trying to create something that's not creatable." "It's important to know where you are with that because it is also unkind for somebody else to be looking for depth from you. And if you can't give it, it's unkind for you to act like you can... We have to have the self-awareness to assess where we are, assess what our capabilities are, and be honest." "It is unkind of us to expect someone to be able to meet us in a place where they can't meet themselves." "Sometimes in relationships, no one is to blame. People are just where they are." "It's kinder to say, 'I see where you are. This is where I am. These places just don't align at this time in our lives.' I respect that, and I hope you can respect that too." If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. To connect, ask a question, or share your thoughts, email: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com. Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#4
July 22 · 22 min
You Say You Care. But Do You? | #4
We use the word care all the time. We say we care about people. We tell people we care. But what does care actually mean? In this episode, we explore why care is more than a feeling; it's a way of moving and being in relationships. We look at why someone can genuinely feel something for us without actually caring for us, how care is demonstrated through behavior rather than words, and why learning to care for ourselves changes what we're willing to accept from others. In this episode, we explore: Why care is more than a feeling and has to translate into behavior. The difference between saying you care and actually creating the experience of being cared for. How care often requires us to move beyond our own comfort and convenience. Why staying present with another person's discomfort can be an act of care. How self-protection can get in the way of caring well for others. How our own experiences of care shape what we recognize and accept in relationships. Why learning to care for yourself changes what you'll accept from others. Episode Thoughts to Sit With "Many of us don't actually know what caring is. Many of us don't actually have the experience of being cared for." "Your words alone do not create a sense in my body of being cared for, especially if your words are saying one thing and your behavior is saying another." "Care translates to behavior. Care translates to holding one in esteem as much as you hold yourself in esteem." "People need to be able to feel what we say we feel about them. They need to know it, not because we say it, but because they can feel it." If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. To connect, ask a question, or share your thoughts, email: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com. Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#3
July 15 · 22 min
Good Intentions Aren't Enough | #3
People tend to think that if their intentions were good then that should settle it. But relationships don't happen inside intentions. They happen in the impact we have on each other. In this episode, we explore why intent and impact aren't competing ideas; they're two sides of the same coin. We look at why good intentions don't always lead to good outcomes, how trauma and survival mode shape what we give and receive, and why repair starts with being willing to hear another person's experience, even when it isn't what we hoped to hear. We explore: Why intent and impact are two sides of the same coin. Why good intentions don't automatically create a healthy impact. How trauma and survival mode shape the way we interpret other people's actions. Why another person's experience deserves to be heard, even when it wasn't our intention. How defensiveness gets in the way of repair. Why repair is the foundation of healthy relationships, not the absence of conflict. The role emotional safety plays in difficult conversations. Why both people have work to do when intent and impact don't align. What it takes to move forward without dismissing either person's experience. Episode Thoughts to Sit With "Intent and impact are not two opposing things. They're two sides of the same coin." "You’ve got to be able to listen to the impact you had on others, even if it doesn't feel good." "Everybody wants their experience heard." "When we are in a place where we can't even hear each person's truth about the situation…about how something affected us…we never allow the door to open for repair. We shut the door for repair. And that is the beginning of the deterioration of relationships." "Even when you heal, it's not that it's not there, it's that it's quieter." "We gotta care about the other person's experience as much as we care about our own experience." If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. To connect, ask a question, or share your thoughts, email: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com. Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#2
July 8 · 23 min
Maybe It's Not a Communication Problem | #2
Communication is one of the first things we point to when a relationship is struggling. But what if communication isn't the place to start? In this episode, we explore why communication is only as healthy as the people participating in it. We look at how trauma, nervous system activation, internal safety, and our need to be understood shape what happens long before words are ever spoken. We also explore why explaining yourself over and over isn't always a sign that you need to communicate better—it may be a sign that something entirely different is happening. We explore: Why communication alone can't create healthy relationships. How trauma shapes what we hear, not just what is said. What happens to our ability to think, process, and communicate when we're activated. Why regulation and internal safety are prerequisites to healthy communication. The difference between someone misunderstanding you and someone being unwilling to understand you. Why over-explaining is often driven by our own unmet needs rather than the other person's confusion. How to recognize when a conversation is no longer productive. Why learning to "read the room" includes reading the other person's capacity, not just their words. The "gnomes" analogy for understanding the invisible conversations happening underneath every conversation. Why healing changes the conversations you're able to have, not because you've mastered communication, but because you've changed what you're bringing into it. Episode Thoughts to Sit With The following are direct excerpts from this episode. "We're talking about communication, but there's pre-work we gotta do to get to the thing." "You have distorted what is happening in the room into what is happening inside your body. And you don't even know it." "You must come into the space regulated. You must come into the space grounded. You must come into the space safe in your own body." "They caught what the fuck you was putting down. They just didn't give a damn about it." "You're creating safety to be safe for you." "We skip all the pre-work and then wonder why shit blows up within minutes every time." If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. To connect, ask a question, or share your thoughts, email: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com. Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
#1
July 1 · 24 min
Before We Talk About Relationships | #1
Before we talk about relationships with other people, we have to understand the relationship we're having with ourselves. In this opening episode, I share the experiences that shaped the perspective behind this podcast and why I believe healing isn't just about understanding trauma...it's about rebuilding the relationship with yourself. We explore self-compassion, self-trust, boundaries, over-functioning, and the role they play in every relationship we'll discuss moving forward. We explore: Why the relationship with yourself is the foundation of every other relationship. How trauma shapes the way we engage in relationships long after the original experiences. Why healing is a relationship of getting back to yourself. The role of self-compassion in changing how we see ourselves and our experiences. Why the voice in our head isn't always our own. How beliefs are created to help us survive. What over-functioning looks like in relationships. Why doing "more" isn't always the answer. The perspective that will guide every conversation on this podcast. Episode Thoughts to Sit With The following are direct excerpts from this episode. "The primary relationship is with yourself." "One thing that people really don't talk about around trauma is how it is a relationship of getting back to you..." "If you're only doing your part and nothing goes forward, that's information." "Even if the problem is them, it's still your work to determine why are you here? Why are you engaging with it?" If this episode resonated with you, share it with someone who might need to hear it. To connect, ask a question, or share your thoughts, email: ajarutledgecoaching@gmail.com. Thank you for listening to The Reality Between Us.
June 14 · 2 min
Introducing The Reality Between Us
New here? Start here. In this short introduction, I share what The Reality Between Us is about, why I created it and the conversations we'll be having about relationships, self-awareness, conflict, connection, and the hidden dynamics that shape them all. If you're ready to look a little deeper, start here.

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