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Calvin Wayman

If Anthony Bourdain escaped a cult to explore people and the world - that’s me. I’m Calvin, the Cultured Boy—taking you to some of the rarest places and having some rarest conversations in the world, while still maintaining what matters most—keeping it human. Happy to be your 'white rabbit.' Ready to see how far the rabbit hole goes? Let’s explore :)

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  • January 15 · 45 min

    ashamed.

    Cozy late-night bed episode where I realize something big: what I thought was “depression” was actually something much different—and it runs deep.After your supportive comments on my last video, I traced where the pressure comes from… all the way back to my fundamentalist Mormon upbringing, perfectionism, and generational trauma around being “good enough.” This is me pulling the curtain back, naming the pattern, and committing to something brand new.If you relate to heavy self-judgment or perfection pressure, I’d love to hear what hit for you.I’m Calvin (Cultured Boy)—ex-fundamentalist Mormon with 44 siblings, rebuilding life through curiosity, creativity, and honesty.🙏 Like + subscribe for more real-time conversations like this.Follow me on instagram: instagram.com/calvinwayman0:00 🛏️ Cozy late-night “Ashamed” ep + bedtime upload • 0:45 🙏 Like/subscribe + quick “Cultured Boy” origin (44 siblings) • 1:41 🧩 Recap of last “depressed” ep + money/work context • 3:35 💡 Real root: not depression—shame • 4:09 🫂 Big lesson: honesty + community support = “maybe I’m okay” • 5:27 🕳️ “Where did the shame come from?” + deeper backstory setup • 6:00 🗽 NYC + Mormon vs fundamentalist Mormon context • 8:18 🧠 Joseph Smith / narrative reframing + polygamy thread • 12:55 🧨 Doctrine shift: LDS ends polygamy + kicks out polygamists • 16:10 🌟 “Not all bad”: beauty of community/family feeling • 18:06 🧬 Fundamentalism = trauma/rejection + persecution pattern repeats • 22:47 🔒 Insecurity → tighter control (rules, dress, hypervigilance) • 27:02 ♻️ Shame cycle + “can’t mess up” perfection wiring • 29:18 🏁 “Kingdom of God or nothing” = all-or-nothing pressure • 31:10 🎯 Dreams trigger the same “celestial kingdom” pressure wiring • 36:32 ❤️ Hidden good: a part of me deeply cares about living true • 38:32 🧊 Pattern interrupt: you’re still good—even when it’s not perfect • 39:43 🌍 Reframe: the pursuit is beautiful (Middle East doc leap) • 42:49 🔥 Commitment: break the shame pattern in me • 44:26 ✅ Wrap: accept process/outcomes → freedom to keep going • 44:53 🌙 Gratitude + “stay hungry, stay curious” sign-off

  • January 15 · 43 min

    i think i'm depressed

    I think I’m depressed… and I’m recording anyway.This episode is unpolished on purpose — dishwasher running, no clean resolution, just me telling the truth in real time. I talk about leaving a fundamentalist Mormon cult, starting my life over, moving to New York City, making Hearts Unknown, going a year with almost no income, and the fear that taking a sales job again could bury the creative rhythm I’ve fought to find.If you’ve ever felt stuck between survival and your dream… I get it. And if this helps you feel even 1% less alone, that matters.Where are you at in your process right now? If anything resonated, tell me in the comments.Please like the video, subscribe to the channel, and follow me on Instagram: www.instagram.com/calvinwaymanTime Stamps0:00 — I think I’m depressed & hitting record anyway 🎙️1:03 — Why I need to speak even when I feel low 💭2:26 — Wanting to be real in a polished world 🪞3:23 — My story: leaving a cult & starting over 🌱4:46 — Moving to NYC, kids, rebuilding life 🗽6:10 — Quitting sales to chase something real 🎯7:46 — Going to Israel & making Hearts Unknown 🎥9:18 — Putting my art out… and it not popping 📉11:20 — Still believing in chasing what feels true ❤️12:53 — Feeling trapped, not knowing what’s next 😔14:07 — Debt, grinding, and questioning my path 🔄16:10 — Wanting people to feel less alone 🤝17:43 — The shame of making almost no money 😶‍🌫️18:21 — The “maybe” story & trusting the process 🌾22:43 — Choosing time with my kids over money 🎄25:06 — Fear of losing my creative rhythm 🎨27:37 — Optimism even when things feel dark ✨29:44 — Facing accountability with myself 🧭31:07 — What really matters: making meaningful things 💡33:16 — Pride in surviving a year with no income 🛠️34:05 — Dreaming of being the next Bourdain 🌍36:14 — Hoping money can fuel creativity, not kill it 🔥38:10 — Why structure hits differently after control 🧠40:24 — Protecting the creative part of me 🌿41:54 — If others can make it work, maybe I can too 🚀42:45 — Closing: stay real, stay curious 🤍

  • January 12 · 1 hr 5 min

    Cultured Boy Reacts: the Renee Good Situation

    In this episode of Cultured Boy, I share my raw, unfiltered take on the Renee Nicole Good situation and what it reveals about how we process truth in a polarized culture. Drawing from my background growing up in a fundamentalist Mormon cult, I explain why I’m obsessed with questioning narratives instead of blindly choosing sides. As new footage and perspectives emerge, I walk you through my own changing reactions and the uncomfortable accountability that often gets ignored. This isn’t about defending a camp—it’s about confronting how fast tragedy happens and how certainty can become dangerous. My real aim here is simple: less tribalism, more truth, and a deeper commitment to seeing people as the full human beings that they are.Please like, comment, and most importantly--SUBSCRIBE! I'm new to YouTube and I'm trying to let the algo know that this ought to get pushed to more people. Your engagement with the content means a lot to me. You can also follow me on Instagram! I post there every week, and engage with people there. www.instagram.com/calvinwaymanTime Stamps: 0:00 Cultured Boy intro: ex-cult lens 👓0:13 Renee Nicole Good situation—my take 🚨0:27 Raw + unpolished on purpose 🎙️2:13 What happened: shot by ICE 💥2:49 My reaction roller coaster 🎢3:28 My background (how I scan angles) 🧠5:05 44 siblings + cult context 😳8:02 Polygamy history (why I exist) 🏛️16:18 “Narrative-locked” explained 🔒19:08 Politics predicts interpretations 🧩20:48 1st video: sick to my stomach 🤢24:37 New angle: did he get hit? 📹28:27 Body cam changes the read 😬29:44 “Drive, baby, drive.” Then shot 🗣️32:04 Hard take: accountability exists ⚠️39:02 Exit the binary: everyone’s a sibling 🤝44:17 I’m not here to tell you what to think 🧠49:45 Unearned certainty is dangerous 🧪51:30 Closing question: what’s your aim? 🎯56:38 NYC dispute story: empathy flips it 🌃1:04:33 My aims: truth + good for people 🌱1:04:46 Outro: stay curious ✌️

  • Dec 31, 2025 · 1 hr 31 min

    Is Homeschool a Cult?!

    What happens when a homeschooled comedy YouTuber and a former fundamentalist Mormon boy (also homeschooled) compare childhoods?Chaos. Laughter. Trauma bonding--and a surprising amount of sneaking out through windows.In this episode, Rae (@RaesWAYOverdoingIt) opens up about her intensely controlled upbringing—no pants, no dancing, no locked doors, no autonomy—and how she secretly built a creative empire anyway. From tracking her money in a ledger at 13 to filming 250 Amazon videos just to fund her escape, her story is WILD.We also talk about:• Calvin’s life in a literal polygamist cult (44 siblings, 4 moms)• How both of us had to sneak to be ourselves• The weird things parents punish when they’re threatened by your freedom• Why people hate when you succeed• Turning your most painful memories into art• Processing childhood control, religious fear, and the hunger for autonomy• And why dancing on a VidSummit stage somehow brought us togetherThis conversation goes deeper than either of us expected. It’s raw, hilarious, heartbreaking, and empowering.If you grew up homeschooled, religious, controlled, sheltered, or just “different”—you’re gonna feel this one.Welcome back to Cultured Boy. Let’s dive in.00:00 The “Cult of Homeschooled” Cold Open 🎒00:54 Calvin’s 44 Siblings Intro 🤯01:46 Rae vs Taylor Swift: The Numbers 📈02:40 We Met Dancing on Stage at VidSummit 🕺04:04 Homeschool Myths & Secret Nerd Superpowers 🧠07:28 Polygamist Schoolhouse vs Southern Homeschool 🏡11:29 Teenage Money Ledgers & Hustling for Freedom 💸18:02 Sneaking Jobs, Cash & Forbidden Wendy’s 🍔23:41 Why You Can’t Tell Everyone Your Good News 😶‍🌫️30:30 No Proms, No Dancing, No Pants: Control 101 💃🚫43:35 “I Started YouTube So People Would Finally Like Me” 📹49:12 Screwed Windows, No Locked Doors & Punishing Autonomy 🔒1:09:35 250 Amazon Videos & The Great Escape Car 🚗1:21:00 Turning Homeschool Trauma Into Comedy & Cash 🎭1:28:39 You’re Not Late—All the Rules Are Made Up ⏰

  • S1 · E36
    Dec 15, 2025 · 58 min

    The TRUTH About Being a Female Comedian in New York City

    Ep 36: New York comedy isn’t just punchlines — it’s logistics, ego, nerves, and a whole lot of behind-the-scenes problem-solving.In this on-site Cultured Boy episode, I spend the night with my friend Zoe — a stand-up comedian and weekly show producer in Manhattan — as she’s juggling a fresh breakup, the politics of building a lineup, getting ready, barking for the show, and then actually getting on stage. What starts as a simple question (“what’s it really like trying to make it as a female comic in NYC?”) turns into something deeper: a late-night conversation about philosophy, “othering,” and the surprising moral mission that’s quietly driving everything she’s doing.It’s chaotic, funny, intimate, and real — a basement show, a full day in motion, and a reminder that you can’t judge someone’s life (or their act) by the cover.0:00 😵‍💫 Episode begins3:00 🏙️ Welcome to Zoe’s Manhattan producer lair6:10 🎭 The science (and politics) of a comedy lineup9:45 💄 “Putting on my face” — makeup as a job requirement12:50 📵 Post-breakup relapse fears + “lock it in publicly”15:40 🚩 The control/freedom clash that ended it18:50 🗣️ Barking the show + needing a co-producer22:05 🧠 Frankfurt School + “what makes a Nazi?” (casual)24:55 👖 Outfit spiral: leggings vs jeans vs being “heard”31:40 🍱 Microwave survival meal + pre-show jitters34:55 🚗 Car ride chaos + barking in the wild37:45 🎤 Zoe’s set: breakup jokes & “spermicide” opener41:00 💍 “Elope for Google benefits” + exclusivity fight44:40 🤔 Post-show: “so much effort… for what?”47:20 🐄 Philosophy → animal rights: the real engine50:05 ❤️ “I care so much” + the long game strategy52:45 😂 Comedy as a shield-dropper: why it’s effective55:35 🌊 Closing reflection: there’s always more to the storyFollow Zoe: Instagram - @zoecomedy

  • S1 · E35
    Nov 26, 2025 · 1 hr 6 min

    Cultured Boy is Changing (FOREVER!)

    Ep 35: Cultured Boy is evolving.This episode is a late-night honesty drop about leaving a cult, rebuilding my life, and now reshaping this show into something more real, more cinematic, and way closer to the action.No more forcing episodes.Just the most honest, human, story-driven work I can make.If you’re into curiosity, culture, and people becoming themselves — you’re in the right place.Stay curious.Timestamps0:00 Cultured Boy is changing forever 🎭0:29 Leaving a cult & waking up like a fish in water 🐟1:11 Is the show ending? 🔄3:12 Cultured Boy becomes an organism, not a podcast 🧬3:35 Making it harder on purpose (artist mode) 🎥5:56 Anthony Bourdain energy enters the chat 🌍7:43 New confidence after leaving a worldview 🔥11:50 Only one person believed in me: me ✋12:17 Realizing: my gut was right ✔️16:24 Career plan: make a living being Calvin 🤯20:28 Acting like the AI apocalypse already happened 🤖23:00 I love going first on scary things 🥇26:11 Ending the weekly episode schedule ❌31:04 Society treats people like herd animals 🐄34:01 Choosing to be Calvin, not a copy 🦋36:59 Only creating what truly matters ✨39:11 Aversion to coercion (post-cult clarity) 🛑44:20 Goal: The realest content on the internet ⚡48:44 Deep gratitude for the whole journey 🙏54:47 Surprise twist: I love parkour 🐈‍⬛58:45 Rollerblading fear → breakthrough moment 🛼1:02:03 Next episodes: story-driven, up close 🎬1:06:33 Final invite: stay curious 🐾

  • S1 · E34
    Nov 24, 2025 · 1 hr 1 min

    I'm Breaking All the Rules of YouTube (On Purpose)

    Ep 34: In this Sleep Drunk episode I talk about quitting my day job, escaping a fundamentalist Mormon cult, making a documentary in Israel–Palestine, writing kids’ books for my daughter, and why I’m done chasing the “right way” to do YouTube—and only making art that actually matters to me. 🎥🪞💥TIME STAMPS:0:00 – Breaking all the rules 🎬0:25 – Who I am & the cult backstory 🥸2:02 – What this episode is really about 🧭3:09 – Confession: I hate following rules 🙅‍♂️4:12 – Realizing all rules are made up 💥6:18 – Quitting my day job to make films ✂️💼7:15 – Going to Israel & Palestine from pure curiosity 🌍✈️8:21 – Hearts Unknown: making a doc no one asked for ❤️‍🔥9:20 – Writing a children’s book for my daughter 📚11:12 – Art that matters to me first 🎨12:00 – Rebelling against thumbnails, titles & algorithms 📉📸13:24 – Real vs scripted in the age of AI 🤖✨16:19 – Redefining Cultured Boy as a show 🎭22:35 – Wanting to capture real NYC life 🌆24:35 – Making episodes 10x harder on purpose 🏋️‍♂️27:49 – Remembering little-kid Calvin the artist 👦🖍️32:14 – New children’s book with Belle: The Last Mirror 🪞37:18 – Betting on the long, uncertain road of creating 🎲38:06 – I can’t do anything that isn’t my thing 🔗✂️40:00 – Authority vs elders (and why it matters) 👑🧓41:50 – Appreciating Robert Greene 📖43:44 – Rethinking Jordan Peterson 🧠47:20 – Discovering Jung & Nietzsche and the shadow 🕳️52:00 – Mormonism, repression & extreme shadow eruptions 🧨55:43 – Shifting from “being good” to being whole 🧩❤️56:12 – Role models of realness: Rogan, Peterson, etc. 🎙️57:59 – I don’t want to care what you think (kind of) 😅59:59 – Why realness is the only long game ♾️1:00:54 – Sleepy outro & what’s next 🌙

  • S1 · E33
    Nov 12, 2025 · 1 hr 6 min

    Why 11:11 matters to me. (Revealing The Brutal Truth About My Dad)

    Episode 33: 11/11. I used to roll my eyes at “meaningful numbers.”Then when my dad was passing, everything changed.In this time-capsule episode I share why 11:11 won’t let me go: leaving a fundamentalist Mormon cult, standing up to my dad, two years of distance, two years of honest reconnection after his stage-4 diagnosis, and the moment that changed everything. It’s about anger, boundaries, forgiveness—and betting on honest art over the algorithm.Time Stamps:0:00 — 11/11 upload + why 11:11 keeps finding me ✨0:45 — Quick intro: I’m Calvin, aka Cultured Boy 👋2:35 — Deconstructing the cult = waking from The Matrix 🟩4:49 — My dad: complicated, loved by all 45 of us ❤️‍🩹6:07 — Violence growing up: the 17-year-old curfew beating 🥊7:43 — Therapy, anger, and a vow to stop abuse 🚫10:18 — Barbecue showdown: “Cute arms,” sarcasm escalates 🧨16:17 — Drink thrown; I block a punch: “Don’t ever [__] touch me” 🛑23:20 — Front-yard face-off: naming the violence out loud ⚡️26:20 — “Never come back.” I take space—and hold my line 🧭33:00 — The pattern: sweeping things under the rug 🧹34:31 — One text that mattered: “Thank you” from my mom 💌40:27 — Two years of distance; seeing the man, not the tyrant 👀44:00 — Returning for dinner: short sleeves, full-circle moment 🌀47:01 — Stage-4 cancer: reaching out right before I knew 🩺48:56 — Two honest years: talks, apologies, humanizing him 🗣️52:55 — “Which one would you give back?”—a practical gut-check 🧩54:39 — The last visit; he wakes: “Calvin, you made it.” at 11:11 ⏱️1:01:21 — Locked out at the very end; choosing peace anyway 🕊️1:03:03 — Why 11:11 now sticks; dreams of my dad 🌙1:05:22 — Your turn: What did this evoke in you? 💭1:06:06 — Sign-off: stay hungry, stay curious—follow the white rabbit 🐇

  • S1 · E32
    Nov 8, 2025 · 1 hr 12 min

    How to Make Impossible Decisions (Like Leaving a Cult)

    Episode 32: Welcome to another Sleep-Drunk episode of Cultured Boy — the late-night, unfiltered version where I hit record when I should be going to bed. 💤In this one, I talk about what it really takes to make the kinds of decisions that look impossible from the outside — leaving a job, a marriage, a religion, or an old version of myself. I share the fears I faced walking away from a fundamentalist Mormon cult (yep, the one I was born into with 44 siblings), how I built a new life from scratch in New York City, and why the scariest choices are often the most honest.If you’ve ever felt stuck between what’s safe and what’s true — this episode’s for you.💬 Topics: fear, courage, reinvention, leaving religion, creativity, self-trust, New York City, authenticity.✨ Subscribe if you’re into deep, honest storytelling that explores how curiosity can change a life.#CulturedBoy #CalvinWayman #SelfDiscovery #Authenticity #LeavingReligion #Cults #Courage #LifeDesign #NYC #PodcastTIMESTAMPS: 0:00 Sleep-Drunk Truths ☕️0:11 Making Impossible Decisions 💭1:21 From Cult Kid to New Yorker 🗽3:10 A Time Capsule for Future Me ⏳5:32 Why Fear Isn’t the Enemy 😨8:04 The Leap: Quitting My Job ✂️10:08 Fear vs. Bigger Fear ⚖️12:37 The 10-Year Test ⌛️15:01 Make the Decision, Then Make It Right ✅17:54 Expansive or Contracting? 🌌20:44 Growing Your Zone of Control 🌱25:19 10% to 11% Progress ➕28:58 The Hardest Decision: Leaving the Religion 🔥33:00 Breaking the Spell 🧠37:02 Questioning Everything 🤔41:14 One Life That’s Truly Yours 💫47:36 Gratitude for the Journey 🙏52:59 The Radar of Awareness 🛰️55:01 Moving to New York ✈️1:00:35 Normalizing the Impossible 🌆1:05:09 Full-Time Creator Life 🎬1:07:15 Returning Home, Feeling the Contrast 🪞1:09:03 Cults, Culture & Curiosity 🌀1:10:50 You’re Capable of More Than You Realize 💪1:11:49 Closing Thoughts & Goodnight 🌙

  • S1 · E31
    Nov 7, 2025 · 1 hr 9 min

    Ex-Cult Member with 44 Siblings UNLEASHES! (Nothing held back!)

    Episode 31: What happens when you grow up with 44 siblings in a Fundamentalist Mormon cult—and realize the whole world might just be...a cult?In another raw, late-night (after 2am) “sleep-drunk” episode in New York City, I talk about what it’s like to wake up from a belief system, how cult documentaries miss the real story, and the one simple practice that can keep any of us free from cults.Ready to dive in? Always follow the white rabbit.Follow me on Instagram, TikTok, and X — @calvinwayman⏱️ YouTube Chapters0:00 – Sleep-drunk honesty returns 🌙1:04 – Building a little “culty” community 🌀2:03 – Wait…44-siblings? 😳7:17 – Turning the Wayman name cool again 😎7:47 – Realizing I was born into a cult 🧠9:46 – The mind-fuck of doubt, while in a cult 🪞10:18 – Why cult documentaries miss it 🎥12:50 – The fish story: “what is water?” 🐠13:52 – You are the fish? (Hint: we all are) 🌊17:04 – The good news: you’re not alone 💛19:20 – Cultiness is everywhere 🌍24:50 – Doing “the right thing” = cult rule #1 ⚖️27:44 – Beyond religion: politics, media, academia 🧩29:35 – The gift of seeing through illusions 👁️31:42 – The danger of missing the good 🌤️35:22 – Why I still love America 🇺🇸36:39 – Higher education as a modern cult 🎓47:55 – The hardest, bravest thing: curiosity 💫49:33 – We’re all believing some BS right now 💩53:04 – Why America’s core values still matter 🗽56:36 – Leaving despite eternal punishment 🔥58:00 – The human story of leaving ❤️1:00:46 – How to avoid being trapped in a cult: state the obvious 🪩1:03:05 – Replace righteousness with honesty 💬1:05:17 – Mormonism is a cult—and full of good people 🤝1:06:16 – We’re all participating in the system 🔄1:07:02 – Honesty is freedom 🕊️1:07:30 – The next chapter of Cultured Boy 🎬

  • S1 · E30
    Oct 23, 2025 · 1 hr 22 min

    Getting BRUTALLY Honest About Sex, Dating, and Life After a Cult

    this raw, sleep-drunk episode, I get real about everything — from growing up with 44 siblings in a fundamentalist Mormon cult to leaving it all behind, betting on myself in New York City, and re-learning love, sex, and self-trust. I talk about following what feels real, the evolution of Cultured Boy, the future of Hearts Unknown, and why honesty — even when it wrecks your life — is the only way to truly live.💭 Real talk. No script. Just truth.Stay curious. Stay real.#CulturedBoy #CalvinWayman #ExMormon #Honesty #NYCFollow me on IG and TikTok: @calvinwaymanCollab or hire me to speak: calvin@calvinwayman.comYouTube Chapters: 00:00 — Sleep-Drunk & Honest 😴00:14 — “Wait… You Have 44 Siblings?!” 🤯03:16 — The Story of Starting Over ✨06:57 — “My Gut Was Right.” 🧭09:04 — The Moment I Left the Religion 🎧12:05 — The Courage to Question Your Own Beliefs ❓18:04 — Living on Credit & Faith 💳24:41 — What My Dad’s Death Taught Me 💔26:16 — The Bet I’m Making on Myself 🎰29:14 — How New York Healed this Fundamentalist Boy 💫32:11 — What’s Next for Cultured Boy 🎙️33:07 — My Dream for Hearts Unknown 🌍37:01 — Every Human I’ve Met Is Interesting 👁️38:33 — Every Human I’ve Met Is Interesting, Growing Up with 44 Different Personalities 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦40:15 — Finding the Universal in the Personal 🌐41:48 — The Need for Real Human Connection 🤝42:56 — Upcoming Episodes I’m Excited About 🔥44:12 — Let’s Talk About Sex & Dating 💋45:24 — From Arranged Marriage to Real Love ❤️48:55 — Learning That Sex Is Normal 😅50:59 — “It’s Never About the Dishes” 🍽️53:11 — Working Through Shame & Sexual Healing 🌙56:54 — The Two Relationships I’m In 💍59:04 — What I Actually Want in Love 💌1:02:59 — The Kind of Love I’m After 💞1:05:09 — The Magic of Not Forcing Life ✨1:08:10 — Love as Synergy: 1 + 1 = ∞ ♾️1:09:42 — Curiosity About Conflict (and Global Ones) 🌍1:10:02 — The Trump Peace Treaty Surprise 🕊️1:16:20 — Rethinking Trump as a Negotiator 🤔1:18:10 — Peace Isn’t the Goal—Agreement Is 🤝1:20:31 — Final Thoughts & Gratitude ❤️

  • S1 · E29
    Oct 21, 2025 · 1 hr 3 min

    From escaping a cult to reuniting with my inner child (not woo-woo!)

    happens when you sit down with your 8-year-old self? 🎧In this deeply personal episode, I revisit an old cassette tape from 1996—a recording of me as a kid growing up in a fundamentalist Mormon family with one dad, four moms, and 44 siblings.I sing along with my 8-year-old self for the first time in nearly 30 years… and what unfolds is part time capsule, part therapy session, and part revelation about authenticity, curiosity, and becoming who we really are.I explore childhood innocence, trauma, creativity, religion, money, freedom, and even the Israel-Palestine conflict—because all of it connects back to one question:👉 How do we return home to who we really are?If you’ve ever felt like life made you lose yourself somewhere along the way…this one’s for you.Follow me on IG: @calvinwaymanFollow me on TikTok: calvinwaymanHire me to speak! calvin@calvinwayman.comTime Stamps:00:00 Meeting my 8-year-old self 🎧02:20 The return to childhood 👦06:00 The life of a fundamentalist kid 🏡09:00 What my childhood song revealed 💭10:30 When I saw my dad hit my mom 💔12:00 The “A++” lesson that changed my life 🧠15:00 Finding of adventure 🌲17:00 Climbing trees & earwig horror 🪳19:00 My first crush… on my dad’s new wife’s sister 😳22:00 Pretending to be asleep 😴27:00 Would 8-year-old me approve of life now? 👀30:00 Returning to authenticity 🧩34:30 The ordinary can become extraordinary 🌟36:00 Why being yourself feels risky 😬38:00 Are humans really “born broken”? 🤔40:00 Aligning values = finding God 🔥44:00 Why I chose New York over safety 🗽48:00 The story that changed my view on money forever 😱52:00 The event that changed my life forever 🚀55:00 Don’t believe anything that disempowers you ⚡56:30 The win-win mindset 🔄58:00 Trusting the unknown 🌌59:30 Israel-Palestine reflections ✡️☪️1:01:00 Can humanity finally get along? 🌏1:02:00 Coming home to my real self 🕊️

  • S1 · E28
    Oct 7, 2025 · 1 hr 21 min

    "Can You (Really) Stop Hating Yourself?"

    What if everything holding you back isn’t the world…it’s how you treat YOU?In this raw and eye-opening conversation with Justin Nault, we dive deep into self-love, authenticity, shadow work, and childhood conditioning — and how they shape everything from your relationships and health to your biggest dreams.You’ll learn why forgiving yourself might be the most powerful thing you ever do, how to stop chasing “enoughness,” and why the fastest path to growth is not grinding harder… but removing the invisible blocks that keep you stuck.Whether you’ve struggled with self-judgment, people-pleasing, impostor syndrome, or the feeling you’re “not there yet,” this episode will give you a roadmap to love yourself fully — and watch the rest of your life change. 💫FOLLOW JUSTIN:YouTube: @JustinNault2 Instagram: JustinNaultOfficialFOLLOW CALVIN:Instagram: CalvinWaymanTikTok: CalvinWaymanX: CalWaymanTimestamps: 00:00 – What if everything we do is driven by love? ❤️03:40 – “44 Siblings?!” My Wild Origin Story 🤯07:10 – Can a rockstar really become a self-love coach? 🎸10:40 – What happens when your “dream life” makes you miserable? 🍺14:10 – Could food actually save a baby’s life? 🍼17:40 – How did a homemade formula turn into a business empire? 🧪21:10 – Can psychedelics make you quit the life that isn’t yours? 🌿24:40 – Is authenticity just another word for self-love? 🪞28:10 – Are we all chasing legitimacy without realizing it? 🏆31:40 – Why is unconditional love so damn hard? 💗35:10 – What’s really keeping you from your “future self”? 🛤️38:40 – Spotting ‘Blockages:’ The Water You Swim In 💧42:10 – Could talking to your mirror change your life? 🪩45:40 – Is forgiving yourself the most radical thing you can do? 🕊️49:10 – What if withholding the truth is just another form of lying? 🚧52:40 – How do you ask for the love you actually need? 💬56:10 – What if reality is just a mirror reflecting you? 🔄59:40 – Why explain yourself when self-love needs no explanation? 🥗1:03:10 – Are you performing for love that never touches you? 🎭1:06:40 – What if love was a daily practice, not a mystery? ☀️1:10:10 – Can two tiny bedtime rituals rewire your mindset? 🛏️1:13:40 – What do your 100 wants reveal about your limits? ✍️1:17:10 – When should unconditional love not mean unconditional access? 🚪1:20:00 – Wrap: Choose Love as the Default—Everywhere 💫

  • S1 · E27
    Sep 29, 2025 · 1 hr 55 min

    Surviving 'America's Most Wanted' Cult Leader..."He's My Dad!" | ft @JadenJeffs

    This story is FASCINATING!!! If you think you know Fundamentalist Mormonism (FLDS) or Warren Jeffs, think again. This gets to the deeply personal insight the world of America's Most Wanted Cult Leader. Follow me on TikTok and Instagram: @calvinwayman00:00 — “What to expect, getting into the episode--meet Jaden Jeffs” 🔥08:00 — FLDS vs LDS: Who Warren Jeffs really is (and how big this got) 🧨16:00 — When “play” was a sin: childhood without games + the Cave moment 🕳️24:00 — “Work hard, obey, maybe you’ll be saved” — the psychology of worthiness ⛓️32:00 — Three-day fasts & 24/7 prayers to free the prophet — inside the ritual 🙏40:00 — “Only 10M left in the US” — meetings, fear, and a crack in Denver traffic 🚗48:00 — Warren Jeff's public shaming from the pulpit: names, accusations, and terror of being next 🧱56:00 — The day his mom was “named” — grief, loyalty tests, and soul math 💔1:04:00 — Exile orders: houses of hiding, Short Creek demotions, and control 🧭1:12:00 — Touching the “devil’s ground”: first internet search… and nothing exploded 💻1:20:00 — YouTube at 3am, deleting phone plans, and the curiosity spiral 📺1:28:00 — The bike loophole: “better to ride than to sin online,” first taste of play 🚲1:36:00 — Human nature on display: revenge, cutoffs, and getting labeled apostate 🧪1:44:00 — Wi-Fi on, floodgates open: binging every FLDS doc and connecting dots 🌊1:50:00 — How to break a spell: “state the obvious,” spot cultiness everywhere 🧠

  • S1 · E26
    Sep 26, 2025 · 1 hr 11 min

    Fundamentalist Mormon REACTS to Johnny Harris's 'How the Mormon Church Made $293 Billion'

    I grew up with 44 siblings in a fundamentalist Mormon cult. In this episode of [Cult]ured Boy, I react to Johnny Harris’s viral investigation into how the Mormon Church built a $293 billion empire. I share what it stirs up for me—stories, manipulation, rejection, polygamy, money, and why narratives shape human lives. This is about Mormonism, fundamentalism, cult dynamics, family, and ultimately freedom.Follow me on TikTok and IG:@calvinwaymanTimestamps00:00 – Come on in + incense 🚪00:18 – Why Johnny’s new Mormon $$$ doc hit me 🎬00:54 – “This should win an Emmy” 🏆01:42 – Leaving makes the “not true” feel obvious 🧠03:00 – The golden book assumption → everything else 📖04:41 – Stories serve purposes, not reality 🎭06:11 – The First Vision (revision & timing) 🌲07:54 – 1886 revelation and fundamentalist echoes 📜09:59 – Women in my community are finding their voice 👩‍🦰11:07 – Motivated narratives (assess who benefits) 🧰12:21 – Why I went to the war zone for Hearts Unknown 🌍13:13 – Who I am: [Cult]ured Boy, 44 siblings 👋14:02 – Stories target the believers you need 🎯16:30 – Messiness over certainty; kick the pedestals 🌀17:36 – Love the people, critique the machine 💛19:47 – LDS as franchise + constant rebrands 🏢22:03 – Family values… and men taking credit 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦23:16 – Why I keep “[Cult]ured Boy” (reclaiming “cult”) 🧢24:59 – NYC gave me breath + agency 🗽29:28 – Anger, arranged marriage, community flip 😤33:09 – Betrayal & rejectionism across sects 🔪35:33 – “Nicest people, eats its young?” sect splits 🐣49:01 – “Give it to priesthood” → power hijack 🥖50:58 – The polygamy math problem ➗53:16 – When prophecies fail: blame the faithful 🔁56:37 – “Not enough girls because men lack faith” 🔒58:51 – People are the magic; credit gets hijacked ✨1:01:31 – “Bought and paid for” rhetoric 🧾1:02:08 – Validation + the pain of deconstruction ✅1:04:36 – Principles vs tribes (truth-seeking) 🧭1:05:51 – Skin in the game; care about the why 🏃1:07:42 – Go watch Johnny’s video (seriously) 📺1:08:00 – Owning [Cult]ured Boy; ditch the script 📝1:09:23 – Nobody has it figured out → charlatans thrive 🌪️1:10:33 – Outro: subscribe; Jaden Jeffs soon—“Trust your discontent. Stay hungry. Stay curious.” 🙏

  • S1 · E25
    Sep 26, 2025 · 1 hr 7 min

    Time to Heal

    In this episode, I give tips for self care, especially with the wildness of the world.

  • S1 · E24
    Sep 26, 2025 · 1 hr 14 min

    The HARD TRUTH About Charlie Kirk's Assassination No One Is Talking About

    Charlie Kirk was assassinated in Utah during a Turning Point USA event. In this emergency episode, we break down what happened, why it matters more than you might think, and what it reveals about America’s growing political divide. And...what we can do about it. From the shooting details to the cultural fallout, we ask: what does this mean for the future of the country?Timestamps:00:00:00 — Who this is for (left, right, everyone) 🎯00:00:25 — “Emergency” setup + meet Anthony 👋00:01:07 — What happened & where (UVU, Utah) 📍00:02:08 — Calvin’s background: fundamentalist roots, 44 siblings 🧬00:03:04 — Disagreeing with Charlie, still calling it a tragedy 🕯️00:05:02 — Rage-bait, campus clips, why people get heated 🔥00:06:10 — The line we can’t cross: is that ever “deserved”? ❌00:07:08 — Shooter basics at time of recording 🎯00:10:52 — Not teams—humans: the core lens 🧍00:15:12 — Tribalism & plausible deniability (quiet cheers) 😬00:21:06 — 9/11 memory: rallying as one 🇺🇸00:29:04 — Labels, Muslims, and forgetting we’re human first 🕌00:33:02 — Absolutism vs relativism: why labels stick ⚖️00:37:59 — Joseph Smith, shame cycles, and martyrdom 📜00:47:04 — “The Last Mirror”: intolerance of reflection 🪞01:03:12 — A plea to Charlie’s supporters: extend grace when tables turn 💗01:10:59 — Bottom line: Life, Liberty, Pursuit 📌Would love to hear from you! How are you holding up with this?

  • S1 · E23
    Sep 25, 2025 · 1 hr 9 min

    Every Cult Leader Uses THESE Simple Tricks

    I grew up in a fundamentalist Mormon cult—1 dad, 4 moms, 44 siblings—and finally escaped after 30 years. In this episode, I break down the hidden playbook cult leaders like Joseph Smith and Warren Jeffs use to control people…and how those same tactics show up in politics and power today.This isn’t just about religion—it’s about spotting manipulation anywhere it hides. And at the end, I’ll give you the single safeguard that can keep anyone from getting swallowed by a cult.👉 Subscribe for more raw stories, breakdowns, and life after the cult.👉 Drop a 1, 2, or 3 in the comments so I know who’s watching.Stay hungry. Stay curious,– Calvin[Cult]ured BoyTimestamps00:00:00 — Listen Closely--I Escaped a Cult 🔥00:00:14 — 44 Siblings, 4 Moms. Yep. 👀00:02:00 — Going Beyond the BITE Model 📖00:02:32 — Who This Video Is For 🎯00:05:37 — Two “Prophets,” One Pattern 🌀00:06:16 — Warren Jeffs: How He Held Power ⛓️00:07:02 — The Joseph Smith Link (Brace Yourself) ⚡00:09:02 — LDS vs. Fundamentalists: The Split ✂️00:12:04 — Mormons Becoming More Likable by Becoming Less Mormon 😅00:15:24 — Step One of Cult-Building: The Narrative 📝00:16:10 — Reality Doesn’t Care About Your Story 🌍00:17:55 — The Master Trick: Change the Meaning 🔄00:20:55 — A Chilling Night in Colorado City 🌙00:24:31 — Blame as a Control System 🎯00:26:59 — Weaponized Shame 101 🪤00:31:01 — Tyrants All the Way Down 👑00:42:09 — Polygamy as “Holy”: The Switch 💍00:43:49 — Angel with a Sword (Convenient Revelation) ⚔️00:50:42 — Distrust Yourself; Trust the Leader 🧠00:59:56 — The Antidote to All Things Culty: State the Obvious 🛡️01:04:20 — Find One Safe Person and Say It Out Loud🤝01:09:30 — Final Charge: Stay Hungry, Stay Curious 🚀What part hit you hardest? Drop it in the comments 👇

  • S1 · E22
    Sep 25, 2025 · 1 hr 4 min

    I Was Never Allowed to Eat This...Until Now! | ft Matt

    In this episode, I travel to Harlem to try authentic African cuisine (fufu + jollof rice) for the very first time (something I definitely could not have done just a few years ago). It’s messy, it’s wild, and it pushes me way outside my comfort zone. But guess what, I’m all for it! What shocked me most wasn’t just the food—it was what the experience taught me about culture, curiosity, and what it really means to be free.👀 Watch to see how this food felt “naughty,” why it reminded me of my childhood in a cult, and how trying something new can completely change your perspective.👉 Drop a comment: What’s the most “forbidden” food you’ve ever tried?👍 Like if you want to see me explore more cultures through food.🔔 Subscribe so you don’t miss the next adventure.Follow me: Instagram: @calvinwaymanTikTok: @calvinwaymanX: @calwayman#ForbiddenFoods #CulturedBoy #fufu Timestamps00:00:00 I Could’ve Never Done This a Few Years Ago 🔥00:00:26 Headed to Harlem for… THIS 🤭00:01:04 No Forks. No Spoons. Just Hands. 🍽️00:01:25 “This Food Feels Like a Boob” 😂00:04:56 Can I Turn My Food Into a Spoon? 🥄00:05:40 My Raw Reaction Says It All 🤯00:06:15 “This Feels Naughty!” 😈00:07:54 The Messiest Bite Yet 🦴00:10:00 The First “Cultured” Food I Ever Tried 🍣00:11:17 Matt’s Childhood vs Mine… Worlds Apart ⚖️00:12:03 What It’s Like Growing Up With 44 Siblings 🏠00:13:02 Married for Eternity… ⛓️00:16:24 Sneaking Pizza Was a Sin 🍕00:27:04 The One Game That Saved My Sanity 🏀00:33:00 What MDMA Taught Me About Love ❤️00:45:14 Why I Fell in Love With New York 🗽00:57:11 Touching the Hot Stove for the First Time 🔥01:02:10 My First Taste of Award-Winning Jollof 🏆01:03:38 Five Stars for Accra Express ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

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