Coming Clean With Me

Andy Manston – ADHD, DJ Culture, Ibiza, And C*c*in*

Undiagnosed ADHD. DJ culture. Ibiza. And decades of cocaine use hidden behind success. In this episode of Coming Clean With Me, addiction specialist Elliott Wald sits down with Andy Manston, co-founder of Clockwork Orange, to unpack how a childhood shaped by undiagnosed ADHD and a lifelong relationship with music quietly evolved into decades of alcohol, speed, and cocaine use. Andy grew up in Walthamstow, East London, an only child who struggled at school with concentration, impulsivity, and constant disruption — issues that were never recognised as ADHD at the time. Music became the one place his mind settled. From his father’s vinyl collection to learning guitar, mixing tapes on an Amstrad stereo, pirate radio, and early raves, music gave Andy structure long before it became a career. That path eventually led to Clockwork Orange, which exploded in Ibiza during the 1990s. After appearing on Ibiza Uncovered, crowds doubled, money flowed, and the lifestyle intensified. Andy explains how alcohol and stimulant use — which began socially in rave culture — became embedded in DJ life, escalating as success and access increased. After Clockwork Orange began to decline in the early 2000s, Andy explains how the loss of structure, income, and identity pushed his drug use into a more isolated phase — using at home, often alone, to escape financial stress and emotional collapse. By the time Clockwork relaunched in 2010, his business partner Danny Gould was clean and sober — but Andy was not. The darkest period came during lockdown. Living alone, drinking wine, using cocaine, and sleeping irregularly, Andy describes severe cocaine-induced paranoia: checking cupboards, scanning rooms, pacing stairs all night, listening for noises, driving around the block for hours convinced people were in the house. Elliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting) — a form of stimulant addiction that is frequently misunderstood and poorly treated by generic recovery models. Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or surface-level explanations. Elliott’s work focuses on the psychological, behavioural, and neurobiological mechanisms that drive cocaine addiction, including dopamine dysregulation, compulsive habit loops, impulsivity, identity reinforcement, and relapse conditioning. His approach is highly individualised, evidence-informed, and fundamentally different from generic coaching, peer-led advice, or one-size-fits-all recovery programmes based on someone else’s story. He has appeared as an addiction expert across major UK broadcasters including ITV, BBC, Sky News, and Sky Living, and is a published author in the field of addiction. Over 90% of Elliott’s patients work with him online, meaning private, one-to-one treatment is accessible to clients across the United States and worldwide, without the need for travel. If you’d like to watch a video explaining how Elliott’s one-to-one programme works, or to enquire about private treatment, send a WhatsApp: UK: 07875 751960 International: +44 7875 751960 Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Danny Gould - Gollum Had His Ring... I Had Mine: Ibiza & My White Powder Obsession

From Essex tower blocks to Ibiza superstardom — and into full-blown cocaine psychosis. In this episode of Coming Clean With Me, addiction specialist Elliott Wald sits down with Danny Gould, co-founder of Clockwork Orange and one of the defining figures of British club culture in the 1990s. Danny describes growing up in Essex with an alcoholic mother, no father present, long periods of neglect, poverty, and emotional absence. He explains being left alone from a young age, struggling at school, and learning to survive rather than being cared for — experiences he later connects to emotional dysregulation, impulsivity, and substance use. As Clockwork Orange grew, so did the excess. Danny recounts taking the brand to Ibiza in 1994, the explosion in popularity after Ibiza Uncovered, record-breaking crowds at Space, and an environment of constant money, access, and seven-night-a-week partying. He speaks in detail about cocaine-induced psychosis: hallucinations, extreme fear, carrying weapons, believing people were coming for him, and shared delusions with others during heavy use. Danny uses a metaphor that later stayed with him: comparing cocaine addiction to Gollum’s ring — describing the obsession, possession, and fear of life without it. Despite losing money, status, and stability, Danny explains he believed he would always drink and take drugs. The turning point came in 2003 after a period of intense emotional pain, alcohol use, and relapse attempts. He describes waking up one morning and knowing it was over. Danny has now been 22 years clean and sober. He speaks about stopping alcohol first, later testing cocaine once and immediately recognising it no longer had a hold over him. He explains attending Alcoholics Anonymous, finding identification in the room, and using meetings as support rather than prescription. Elliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting) — a form of stimulant addiction that is frequently misunderstood and poorly treated by generic recovery models. Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or surface-level explanations. Elliott’s work focuses on the psychological, behavioural, and neurobiological mechanisms that drive cocaine addiction, including dopamine dysregulation, compulsive habit loops, impulsivity, identity reinforcement, and relapse conditioning. His approach is highly individualised, evidence-informed, and fundamentally different from generic coaching, peer-led advice, or one-size-fits-all recovery programmes based on someone else’s story. He has appeared as an addiction expert across major UK broadcasters including ITV, BBC, Sky News, and Sky Living, and is a published author in the field of addiction. Over 90% of Elliott’s patients work with him online, meaning private, one-to-one treatment is accessible to clients across the United States and worldwide, without the need for travel. If you’d like to watch a video explaining how Elliott’s one-to-one programme works, or to enquire about private treatment, send a WhatsApp: UK: 07875 751960 International: +44 7875 751960 Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Matthew Thomas - C*ke, Slots & Council Estate Chaos

From council estate chaos to cocaine, gambling, paranoia — and finally, clarity. In this episode of Coming Clean With Me, addiction specialist Elliott Wald sits down with Matthew Thomas, a gas engineer who spent over 20 years caught in cycles of cocaine addiction, alcohol misuse, and online slot gambling — before finally breaking free. Matthew grew up on council estates in Southend-on-Sea, surrounded by drinking, cannabis, instability, and generational addiction. By 13 he was smoking cannabis, by 14 using ecstasy, and by 15 — while working the streets of London with his father he was introduced to cocaine. What began as fitting in quickly became a binge-use pattern that dominated his adult life: Weekly (and sometimes multi-day) cocaine binges Alcohol as both gateway and accelerant Spending hundreds of pounds per week Gambling on online slots while using Mounting debt, relationship breakdown, and isolation Matthew describes how his use progressed from social settings to using alone, often locked indoors, gambling online, drinking heavily, and experiencing severe paranoia. He recounts cocaine-induced psychosis — barricading doors, sitting at the top of the stairs armed with a hammer, convinced people were coming for him, despite no real threat. The episode explores the neuropsychology of addiction, including: Dopamine overload from cocaine Gambling as a secondary dopamine loop Why paranoia intensifies as tolerance increases How addiction quietly dismantles relationships long before they officially end Despite repeated attempts to stop over a 10-year period, Matthew explains why he couldn’t stay stopped — until one moment, 16 months ago, when something finally snapped. After a short binge involving cocaine, alcohol, and gambling away the last of his money, he reached a point of emotional exhaustion and clarity. Elliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting). Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or surface-level explanations. Elliott’s work focuses on the psychological, behavioural, and neurobiological mechanisms that drive cocaine addiction, including dopamine dysregulation, compulsive habit loops, impulsivity, identity reinforcement, and relapse conditioning. His approach is highly individualised, evidence-informed, and fundamentally different from generic coaching, peer-led advice, or one-size-fits-all recovery programmes based on someone else’s story. He has appeared as an addiction expert across major UK broadcasters including ITV, BBC, Sky News, and Sky Living, and is a published author in the field of addiction. Over 90% of Elliott’s patients work with him online, meaning private, one-to-one treatment is accessible to clients across the United States and worldwide, without the need for travel. If you’d like to watch a video explaining how Elliott’s one-to-one programme works, or to enquire about private treatment, send a WhatsApp: UK: 07875 751960 International: +44 7875 751960 Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Mathew Hopkins - Paranoid to f*ck. C*ked up. Tooled Up. And Now 2 Years Clean

For 20 years, Matthew Hopkins lived in a constant state of paranoia, violence, and chaos — coked up, tooled up, knives under the pillow, convinced people were coming through the door. Alcohol and cocaine weren’t just part of his weekends, they defined his identity, his relationships, and his sense of safety. In this follow-up episode of Coming Clean With Me, addiction specialist Elliott Wald sits down with Matthew two years clean, revisiting where he was eight months sober and where he is now. The contrast is stark: new house, new mindset, repaired family relationships, and a calm he says he’d never experienced before. He speaks openly about curtain switching, hallucinations, carrying knives, sleeping with his foot against the door, and how his paranoia became so severe that even alcohol alone would trigger it. Relationships were toxic, consequences disappeared, and fear became normal. This episode goes deep into: What early sobriety actually feels like Anxiety, grief, and fear of a life without drink or drugs Why recovery isn’t just stopping — it’s rebuilding How hypnosis, environment change, and self-understanding played a role The reality of loneliness, growth, and emotional regulation after long-term use Matthew also talks candidly about: Buying his first home The shock of mental quiet after chaos Turning down cocaine for the first time Navigating pubs, weddings, and social environments sober Why some people secretly want you to fail This is a no-gloss, no-influencer recovery story — just lived experience, accountability, and what sustained change actually looks like. Elliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting) — a form of stimulant addiction that is frequently misunderstood and poorly treated by generic recovery models. Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or surface-level explanations. Elliott’s work focuses on the psychological, behavioural, and neurobiological mechanisms that drive cocaine addiction, including dopamine dysregulation, compulsive habit loops, impulsivity, identity reinforcement, and relapse conditioning. His approach is highly individualised, evidence-informed, and fundamentally different from generic coaching, peer-led advice, or one-size-fits-all recovery programmes based on someone else’s story. He has appeared as an addiction expert across major UK broadcasters including ITV, BBC, Sky News, and Sky Living, and is a published author in the field of addiction. Over 90% of Elliott’s patients work with him online, meaning private, one-to-one treatment is accessible to clients across the United States and worldwide, without the need for travel. If you’d like to watch a video explaining how Elliott’s one-to-one programme works, or to enquire about private treatment, send a WhatsApp: UK: 07875 751960 International: +44 7875 751960 Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Brandon Block - I Sniffed So Much C*****e, I Renamed It "The Wallop"

Brandon Block was one of the most recognisable names in UK dance music — Space Terrace in Ibiza, global gigs, and mainstream success but behind the sets, he says he was sniffing so much cocaine he renamed it “THE WALLOP” — and by the end, he describes going through an eighth (3.5g) within an hour, buying repeatedly throughout the day, and living in a cycle where he wouldn’t go to bed without a bag ready for the morning. In this raw, unfiltered episode of Coming Clean With Me, addiction specialist Elliott Wald sits down with Brandon to trace the real timeline: growing up in Wembley, struggling at school with focus and concentration, being bullied, discovering music through a mentor figure at school — and then how the club scene, availability, and constant partying pulled him into heavy substance use. Brandon describes being introduced to drugs early, later taking ecstasy in the acid house era, and then being introduced to cocaine at a rave — where the escalation, he says, became pretty quick. Then comes the turning point: Brandon describes an epiphany moment in hospital where he realised the core driver wasn’t pleasure — it was the fear of living without drugs. If you’re battling cocaine addiction, daily sniffing, binge cycles, insomnia, anxiety, or the “club scene” trap — this conversation is a rare, first-hand account from someone who lived it at the extreme and built a life beyond it. Covered in this episode Cocaine addiction (sniffing) and extreme tolerance “The Wallop” — renaming cocaine during heavy use Daily use, no sleep patterns, and living bag-to-bag Club culture, Ibiza, and drug availability in the industry Illness, hospitalisation, and the wake-up moment Anxiety, fear, and what keeps people stuck Stopping without relapse (Brandon’s account) Staying in nightlife while staying clean Elliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting) — a form of stimulant addiction that is frequently misunderstood and poorly treated by generic recovery models. Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or surface-level explanations. Elliott’s work focuses on the psychological, behavioural, and neurobiological mechanisms that drive cocaine addiction, including dopamine dysregulation, compulsive habit loops, impulsivity, identity reinforcement, and relapse conditioning. His approach is highly individualised, evidence-informed, and fundamentally different from generic coaching, peer-led advice, or one-size-fits-all recovery programmes based on someone else’s story. He has appeared as an addiction expert across major UK broadcasters including ITV, BBC, Sky News, and Sky Living, and is a published author in the field of addiction. Over 90% of Elliott’s patients work with him online, meaning private, one-to-one treatment is accessible to clients across the United States and worldwide, without the need for travel. If you’d like to watch a video explaining how Elliott’s one-to-one programme works, or to enquire about private treatment, send a WhatsApp: UK: 07875 751960 International: +44 7875 751960 Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Jeff Charles - Kilos, Crime & Keeping A Half Ounce Back For Myself

Kilos. Crime. Cocaine. And a life lived in constant hyper-vigilance. In this episode of Coming Clean With Me, addiction specialist Elliott Wald sits down with Jeff Charles, a man who spent over a decade immersed in criminality, large-scale drug supply, violence, and addiction — while quietly battling fear, shame, and a collapsing sense of self. Jeff opens up about growing up in East London and Essex, being diagnosed with ADHD at a young age, feeling segregated at school, and being permanently excluded by 12. Thrust into adult environments early, he gravitated towards criminal role models, building a reputation rooted in fear, money, and control — while internally living with constant anxiety and moral conflict. He describes: Moving from low-level crime to large-scale theft and drug distribution Normalising cocaine use by keeping “half an ounce back” for himself Living in daily fear of prison, violence, or death The psychological toll of hyper-vigilance and identity fragmentation Losing friends to suicide and accidents linked to the lifestyle Alongside cocaine addiction, Jeff also details severe weight gain, reaching 222kg (nearly 35 stone), alcohol misuse, depression, and suicidal ideation. One of the most harrowing moments comes when he describes filming goodbye videos for his children — moments before attempting to take his own life. Jeff speaks candidly about how faith, therapy, journaling, routine, and purpose now keep him grounded — and how founding The Actualization Project became part of his recovery, not the goal of it. This is not a glamorised crime story. It’s a raw account of what addiction takes — and what it takes back. If you’re struggling with cocaine addiction, contact Elliott Wald team – Whatsapp UK 07875 751960 Worldwide +44 7875 751960 Elliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting) — a form of stimulant addiction that is frequently misunderstood and poorly treated by generic recovery models. Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or surface-level explanations. Elliott’s work focuses on the psychological, behavioural, and neurobiological mechanisms that drive cocaine addiction, including dopamine dysregulation, compulsive habit loops, impulsivity, identity reinforcement, and relapse conditioning. His approach is highly individualised, evidence-informed, and fundamentally different from generic coaching, peer-led advice, or one-size-fits-all recovery programmes based on someone else’s story. He has appeared as an addiction expert across major UK broadcasters including ITV, BBC, Sky News, and Sky Living, and is a published author in the field of addiction. Over 90% of Elliott’s patients work with him online, meaning private, one-to-one treatment is accessible to clients across the United States and worldwide, without the need for travel. If you’d like to watch a video explaining how Elliott’s one-to-one programme works, or to enquire about private treatment, send a WhatsApp: UK: 07875 751960 International: +44 7875 751960 Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Josh Wyard - 4 Days, No Sleep & £60K Debt

Four days into a cocaine bender with no sleep, Josh Wyard says he started seeing things — and realised how far his life had slipped. In this episode of Coming Clean With Me, Josh describes how cocaine use escalated from a social line at a Skepta gig into an offshore-fuelled binge cycle, payday loans taken out in minutes, and a debt spiral that left him in a plan for £66,000. Josh explains he grew up in Great Yarmouth, raised by his grandparents after his parents split. He describes being exposed to drug culture on weekends with his dad, being bullied at school, and later entering offshore work — where long shifts, boredom on time off, and “reward” thinking helped normalise using “the packet”. He talks openly about peak use (“an eighth a day”), hiding it at home, paranoia, sleep deprivation, and how relationship breakdown intensified his downward spiral — including a period where he says he spent £5,000–£6,000 on cocaine in a week. He also describes the practical reality of addiction: waking up to cravings, using in secret, and structuring life around access and recovery time before returning offshore. Finally, Josh explains the moment he decided his last ever line would be the last — and how that choice tied into a complete behaviour shift: joining a gym, setting targets, losing 50kg, rebuilding his lifestyle, and finding community through the “7am Club” (runs, sauna, and ice baths). He closes with a message he repeats clearly: there is a way out. Topics covered Cocaine addiction (nasal use) and binge patterns Offshore work culture and “reward” cycles Sleep deprivation, paranoia, hallucinations Payday loans, debt, and financial collapse Relationship breakdown and mental health The last line decision and behaviour change Weight loss, gym discipline, and community support Elliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting) — a form of stimulant addiction that is frequently misunderstood and poorly treated by generic recovery models. Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or surface-level explanations. Elliott’s work focuses on the psychological, behavioural, and neurobiological mechanisms that drive cocaine addiction, including dopamine dysregulation, compulsive habit loops, impulsivity, identity reinforcement, and relapse conditioning. His approach is highly individualised, evidence-informed, and fundamentally different from generic coaching, peer-led advice, or one-size-fits-all recovery programmes based on someone else’s story. He has appeared as an addiction expert across major UK broadcasters including ITV, BBC, Sky News, and Sky Living, and is a published author in the field of addiction. Over 90% of Elliott’s patients work with him online, meaning private, one-to-one treatment is accessible to clients across the United States and worldwide, without the need for travel. If you’d like to watch a video explaining how Elliott’s one-to-one programme works, or to enquire about private treatment, send a WhatsApp: UK: 07875 751960 International: +44 7875 751960 Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Harry Beattie - ADHD, Addiction & Ice Baths

Harry Beattie spent over a decade in Narcotics Anonymous while repeatedly relapsing. In this episode of Coming Clean With Me, he shares what finally changed when his sobriety began to stabilise — not through a new programme, but through major life shifts including fatherhood, daily structure, public accountability, and cold-water exposure. He reflects on why previous recovery attempts failed and what made the difference this time. In conversation with cocaine addiction expert Elliott Wald, Harry opens up about his history of cocaine use, repeated relapse, and the emotional roots of addiction. He discusses growing up in an emotionally distant home, living with undiagnosed ADHD, and using cocaine to quiet his mind rather than energise it — until it led to paranoia, disrupted sleep, and deteriorating mental health. Harry explains how responsibility, habit, and routine became key to lasting sobriety. He maintains a focus on discipline, structure, and daily consistency rather than thinking in terms of being “cured.” 00:00 – Cocaine addiction recovery: From chaos to Ice Bath Harry 00:34 – Childhood abandonment and emotional neglect 00:42 – Privilege without nurture: hidden trauma 01:11 – 409 days clean: why sobriety finally stuck 01:30 – Full introduction: Ice Bath Harry’s story 03:14 – Growing up wealthy but emotionally deprived 04:13 – ADHD, school expulsions, and being labelled “naughty” 06:40 – Seeking validation, rebellion, and risk-taking 09:20 – Impulsivity, danger, and early addiction traits 10:19 – Undiagnosed ADHD and addiction vulnerability 12:35 – “I’m not cured”: understanding long-term recovery 12:49 – Video game addiction and escapism 13:49 – Alcohol, early substance use, and rebellion 15:36 – First cocaine use and immediate emotional relief 16:45 – Why cocaine felt calming, not stimulating 18:10 – ADHD, dopamine deficiency, and cocaine 21:43 – How cocaine addiction escalates 23:04 – Sales culture, money, and daily cocaine use 24:07 – When cocaine stops working 26:26 – Addiction, anxiety, and loss of control 28:30 – Isolation, paranoia, and binge use 30:00 – Dry sniffing and hiding cocaine addiction 31:09 – Why traditional recovery failed 33:56 – Losing family, home, and identity 36:00 – Staying awake for days on cocaine 38:30 – Cocaine-induced paranoia and psychosis 42:10 – “This isn’t what cocaine promised” 44:20 – Rock bottom and emotional collapse 46:55 – Rehab, relapse, and reality 49:05 – Visualising recovery and future identity 51:22 – Is addiction a disease? 55:00 – Why one-size-fits-all recovery doesn’t work 59:57 – Alcohol vs cocaine: brain differences 01:08:11 – Why stimulant addiction needs a different approach 01:24:26 – Ice baths, dopamine, and recovery 01:26:00 – Public accountability and staying clean 01:28:30 – Building Ice Bath Harry online 01:31:40 – Identity, shame, and self-belief 01:32:30 – What addiction really is 01:34:00 – Fatherhood, meaning, and closing message Elliott Wald is a British psychologist, hypnosis expert, and behavioural analyst with over 30 years of clinical experience. He specialises exclusively in the treatment of cocaine addiction via nasal use (snorting) — a form of stimulant addiction that is frequently misunderstood and poorly treated by generic recovery models. Alongside his formal clinical training, Elliott also brings direct lived experience. He maintained a daily cocaine addiction for 15 years, when he was publicly visible and appearing as an expert on national television. This combination of clinical expertise and first-hand experience allows Elliott to understand stimulant addiction from both a neuropsychological and human perspective — without ideology, moral judgement, or surface-level explanations. Elliott’s work focuses on the psychological, behavioural, and neurobiological mechanisms that drive cocaine Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Lorri Haines - Caught In A Trap

In this compelling episode of "Coming Clean With Me," Caught in a Trap, “host Elliott Wald engages in a deeply personal conversation with Lorri Haines, a multimillionaire entrepreneur and reality TV star known for his role in the ITV show ‘My Family and Me’. Despite his current success, Lorri's journey is one marked by significant challenges and personal growth. Episode Highlights A Troubled Past: Lorri opens up about his tumultuous upbringing on a council estate in Portsmouth, where he was raised by an alcoholic mother. He shares vivid memories of growing up amid abuse and neglect, which set the stage for his own struggles with addiction. Early Exposure to Substance Abuse: From a young age, Lorri was surrounded by substance use, starting with alcohol at around 13 or 14. He describes how alcohol served as a gateway to other substances like cannabis and eventually cocaine, particularly during his teenage years. The Cycle of Addiction: Despite achieving financial success and public recognition, Lorri candidly discusses how wealth and fame exacerbated his substance use. He reflects on the party lifestyle that came with his success, which only deepened his struggles with addiction. Breaking Free: Lorri recounts the pivotal moments that led him to recognize the need for change. A friend's father played a crucial role in helping him break free from the cycle of addiction by offering him work and guidance, ultimately steering him toward a more stable path. A New Perspective on Success: Today, Lorri measures success not by material wealth but by emotional well-being and the ability to maintain healthy relationships. He emphasizes the importance of self-awareness and emotional stability as key components of his recovery journey. This episode offers listeners an intimate look into Lorri Haines' life, highlighting the complexities of addiction and the resilience required to overcome it. Through his story, Lorri provides hope and inspiration to others facing similar battles, demonstrating that it is possible to break free from the traps of addiction and build a fulfilling life. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Savannah Simms: Music, Madness, and Sobriety

In this riveting episode of "Coming Clean with Me," addiction specialist Elliott Wald sits down with the multifaceted Savannah Simms, a rising star in the music industry known for her roles as an events manager, artist developer, and DJ. But beneath the vibrant beats and pulsating rhythms lies a story of struggle and redemption. Savannah candidly shares her tumultuous journey through addiction, recounting how alcohol and drugs once gripped her life, threatening to derail her burgeoning career. Listeners are taken on a rollercoaster ride as Savannah opens up about her early years in Southeast London, where experimentation with substances began at a young age. She describes the allure of the nightlife and the deceptive comfort found in substances that masked deeper issues. From the chaotic highs of running massive raves to the solitary lows in her room, Savannah's story is one of both caution and hope. Now 96 days sober, Savannah reflects on the turning points that led her to seek sobriety and the challenges she faces in an industry where temptation is ever-present. Her narrative is not just about overcoming addiction but also about reclaiming her identity and passion for music without the crutch of substances. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Mathew Hopkins - Finding Strenth, My Battle With Addiction

Matthew Hopkins, recovery warrior. Matthew's raw and unfiltered story takes listeners on a rollercoaster ride through his tumultuous past, from his rebellious childhood in Felixstowe to his shattered dreams of an army career. With unflinching honesty, Matthew opens up about his descent into a world of steroids, brawls, and drug addiction. He recounts harrowing tales of paranoia, prison stints, and the toll his choices took on his loved ones. But this isn't just another cautionary tale - it's a powerful testament to the human spirit's resilience. Matthew doesn't hold back as he describes his rock bottom moments, including a failed drug test that cost him a job in America. He shares the wake-up calls that finally pushed him to seek help and the challenges of early recovery. Now eight months clean, Matthew offers a candid look at his ongoing journey to rebuild his life and relationships. This episode is a must-listen for anyone struggling with addiction or those seeking to understand its grip. Elliott and Matthew's conversation is both heartbreaking and inspiring, proving that it's never too late to change your path and find strength in vulnerability. Buckle up for an intense, no-holds-barred discussion about the dark reality of addiction and the bright possibility of redemption. Matthew Hopkins' story will stay with you long after the episode ends. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

DJ MAK 10: Grime & Redemption

In this raw and gritty episode of "Coming Clean with Me," addiction specialist Elliott Wald sits down with DJ Mak 10, a.k.a. Nathaniel Ramsey, one of the founding fathers of the UK grime scene. Like the hard-hitting beats and unfiltered lyrics that define grime music, Mak 10 lays bare his 23-year battle with addiction, pulling no punches as he recounts his journey from the grimy streets of East London to the dizzying heights of fame. As a key player in the influential Nasty Crew, Mak 10 helped shape the sound that would become the voice of a generation. But behind the decks and the bravado, a darker story was unfolding. With the same intensity that drove his music, Mak 10 found himself caught in a spiral of cocaine, alcohol, and destructive behaviour that threatened to silence his career and his life. From the adrenaline-fueled highs of all-night benders to the crushing lows of paranoia and self-loathing, Mak 10 spits his truth with the same rapid-fire delivery that made him a legend. He doesn't shy away from the dirt, detailing the funky chicken episodes, the dishonest hustles, and the relationships shattered in the wake of his addiction. But like the best grime tracks, this story has a powerful drop. Mak 10 reveals the moment that finally cut through the noise, leading him to seek help and begin the gruelling process of getting clean. Now ten months sober, he offers a glimpse of life on the other side - a redemption as powerful as any beat he's ever dropped. This episode is a must-listen for anyone who's ever felt trapped by their demons or struggled to find their way back from the brink. It's a testament to the resilience of the human spirit and a reminder that even in the grittiest of circumstances, there's always hope for a comeback. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Beneath the Veneer - The Real Story of Lauren Amy White & Sobriety

In this gripping episode of *Coming Clean with Me*, host Elliott Wald sits down with the inspiring Lauren Amy White to delve into her tumultuous journey from the depths of addiction to a life of sobriety and empowerment. Known for his expertise in addiction therapy, Wald guides listeners through an unfiltered conversation that reveals the raw and often hidden struggles behind White's public persona. Lauren Amy White, a personal trainer and motivational speaker, opens up about her battle with alcohol and drug addiction that began in her teenage years. Despite growing up in what appeared to be an idyllic environment in Hertfordshire, Lauren faced significant challenges, including ADHD, dyslexia, and family traumas that fuelled her descent into substance abuse. By 18, she had reached rock bottom but found the courage to seek help and enter rehab, a decision that would change her life forever. The episode explores the complexities of addiction, highlighting how Lauren's early experiences with alcohol at family events spiralled into a dependency that masked deeper issues of self-worth and identity. She candidly discusses how societal pressures and personal insecurities led her to live a double life, one where she was the life of the party on the outside but deeply troubled within. Listeners will hear about Lauren's transformative journey through recovery, where she not only battled her addictions but also rebuilt fractured relationships with family members who were also struggling with similar issues. Her story is one of resilience and hope, demonstrating the power of recovery to mend broken bonds and foster new beginnings. Elliott Wald's insightful questions bring out the nuances of Lauren's story, making this episode a must-listen for anyone interested in understanding the human side of addiction and recovery. Whether you're seeking inspiration or insight into the complex world of addiction, Lauren's story is a testament to the strength required to overcome life's darkest moments. Join us for an episode filled with honesty, hope, and healing as we uncover the real story of Lauren Amy White—a journey beneath the veneer to discover true sobriety and self-acceptance. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Kicking Addiction: Joe's Path from Football to Freedom

In this riveting episode of "Coming Clean with Me," host Elliott Wald, a renowned addiction specialist with 28 years of experience, sits down with Joe Sealey, son of Manchester United legend Les Sealey, for a raw and unfiltered conversation about addiction, loss, and redemption. Joe's story reads like a Hollywood script - a promising football career shattered by injury, the sudden death of his father, and a descent into a cocaine addiction that threatened to destroy everything. With unflinching honesty, Joe recounts his journey from the heights of professional football to the depths of addiction, where he found himself doing up to 14 bags of cocaine a day and manipulating those around him to feed his habit. But this isn't just a tale of despair. It's a testament to the human spirit's resilience. Joe shares the moments that led to his transformation, including the unwavering support of his wife Nicole, who stood by him through years of turmoil. Elliott Wald, drawing from his vast experience and innovative approach to addiction therapy, guides Joe through a conversation that is both heartbreaking and inspiring. Together, they explore the complex interplay of grief, identity, and addiction, offering listeners a glimpse into the mind of an addict and the challenging road to recovery. This episode is a must-listen for anyone who has struggled with addiction or knows someone who has. It's a story of second chances, the power of love, and the daily battle to stay clean. Joe's journey from football pitches to the brink of self-destruction and back to a life of purpose will leave you moved, inspired, and with a new understanding of what it truly means to come clean. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

SEAN WILLERS: Fought the Taliban, Lost to Cocaine

Prepare for an intense and revealing conversation as Sean Willers, a former British soldier who fought bravely in Afghanistan, opens up about his harrowing journey from the battlefield to the depths of addiction. In this episode of "Coming Clean with Me," host Elliott Wald engages Sean in a candid discussion about the challenges he faced growing up in a turbulent household marked by alcoholism and instability. Sean shares how his early experiences shaped him, leading to a military career that provided structure and purpose. However, upon returning home, he found himself grappling with the demons of addiction, ultimately succumbing to the allure of cocaine. He reflects on how his life spiralled out of control amidst the excitement of a burgeoning DJ career, revealing the stark contrast between his public persona and private struggles. This episode dives deep into Sean's battle with addiction, exploring the moments that nearly cost him his life and the wake-up call that forced him to confront his reality. With raw honesty, Sean discusses the impact of substance abuse on his relationships and career, providing listeners with a poignant reminder of the fragility of life. Join us for an unforgettable episode that highlights resilience, redemption, and the ongoing fight against addiction. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Sarah Drage - Alcoholism Stole My Father

In this gripping episode of "Coming Clean with Me," host Elliott Wald, an addiction specialist, sits down with Sarah Drage to explore the profound impact of alcoholism on her family. Sarah, a child of an alcoholic parent, shares the deeply personal and emotional journey of her father, Steve, whose life was overtaken by alcohol. Steve, a charismatic Yorkshireman with a quirky sense of humour and a forward-thinking mindset, was a successful property developer before a traumatic event led him down the path of addiction. Despite his jovial exterior and progressive beliefs, Steve's heavy drinking gradually escalated into alcoholism, profoundly affecting his family. Sarah recounts her father's struggle with alcohol, from his early days as a social drinker to the devastating impact of his addiction on their family life. The episode delves into the stigma surrounding alcoholism and the challenges Sarah faced growing up in a household overshadowed by her father's addiction. She candidly discusses the emotional toll it took on her mental health and life choices, including her decision to pursue criminology in hopes of understanding and helping her father. Listeners will be moved by Sarah's account of staging an intervention with her siblings after a particularly distressing family holiday incident. Her father's eventual acknowledgment of his addiction and the subsequent detox process highlight the complexities of battling alcoholism. Through tears and heartfelt conversations, Sarah reveals the profound love she had for her father despite the chaos his addiction brought into their lives. Join Elliott Ward and Sarah Drage for an eye-opening conversation about love, loss, and resilience in the face of addiction. This episode is a testament to the enduring bond between a father and daughter and the hope that healing can bring. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Paul Sculfor: From Supermodel to Sobriety - From Catwalk to Cocaine

Join addiction specialist Elliott Wald in this compelling episode of *Coming Clean With Me*, as he sits down with Paul Sculfor, the original male supermodel whose chiselled features once graced the covers of countless magazines and adorned billboards worldwide. Known for his work with fashion giants such as Armani, Versace, Burberry, and Louis Vuitton, Paul shares his journey from the glamorous yet turbulent world of high fashion to his battles with addiction. In "Paul Sculfor: From Supermodel to Sobriety - From Catwalk to Cocaine," listeners will hear an intimate account of Paul's rise to fame and the personal struggles that accompanied his success. Despite being a fixture on the catwalks and a judge on Britain's Next Top Model, Paul faced a hidden battle with substance abuse that cost him millions and nearly derailed his career. Paul opens up about the pressures of maintaining his status in the fashion industry, where appearances at high-profile parties were as crucial as the runway shows themselves. He candidly discusses how the allure of alcohol and drugs became intertwined with his professional life, leading to a loss of personal spark that even his agent noticed. This episode not only explores Paul's descent into addiction but also his inspiring journey towards recovery. Through heartfelt conversations, Paul reveals how he reclaimed his life by seeking help and embracing sobriety. His story is one of resilience and transformation, offering hope and insight to anyone struggling with similar challenges. Tune in for an episode filled with raw honesty and inspiration, as Paul Sculfor shares how he went from being adored by thousands in the fashion world to finding true strength and clarity beyond the catwalk. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

Peter Judd: From Cocaine to Club King

In this compelling episode of ‘Coming Clean with Me’, host Elliott Wald sits down with one of his closest friends, Peter Judd, to explore a remarkable journey from the depths of addiction to becoming a successful entrepreneur in the nightlife industry. Titled "Peter Judd: From Cocaine to Club King," this episode delves into the personal and professional transformation of a man who once battled severe cocaine addiction. Peter Judd shares his candid story, beginning with the collapse of his marriage and business, which led him into the dark world of cocaine dependency. Despite these challenges, Peter managed to turn his life around, now owning a portfolio of nightclubs and holding senior positions in large corporations. His journey is not just about overcoming addiction but also about rediscovering purpose and rebuilding a life from scratch. Elliott Wald, an addiction specialist with over 29 years of experience, brings his unique perspective as both a psychologist and former addict. He provides insights into the psychological aspects of addiction and recovery, making this episode not only inspiring but also educational for anyone struggling with similar issues. Join Elliott and Peter as they discuss the highs and lows of Peter's life, the role of friendship in recovery, and the strategies that helped him reclaim his life. This episode is a testament to resilience and the power of change, offering hope and practical advice for those seeking to break free from addiction's grip. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

High On Escape, A Story of Trauma & Chaos: Zachary Oliver

ZACHARY OLIVER The Descent into Darkness Zach Oliver's childhood was a nightmare of chaos and violence. Growing up in a working-class family, his life took a dark turn when he was just five years old. His mother, battling post-natal depression, spiralled into alcoholism. The loving mother he once knew transformed into a monster before his eyes. "She turned into just an insane woman around the house," Zach recalls, his voice heavy with pain. "Pissing in the kitchen bin, standing up, looking out of love and ahead of you know, I'm just, like, witnessing it, like I'm not there." A House of Horrors The family home became a battleground. Zach's father, returning from work, would find a trashed house and children with dirty nappies. The situation quickly escalated into a vile, abusive relationship marked by daily violence."There's just violence every day," Zach says, his words painting a vivid picture of the terror he endured. "And that was the same with all of us." The Brutal Reality of Abuse The abuse Zach suffered was horrific and relentless. He recounts one particularly harrowing incident: "He smashed my mom's head through the bathroom sink, through downstairs, through the patio window over here." This brutality continued for five long years, from when Zach was just 5 to 10 years old. The trauma of those years would shape his life in ways he couldn't have imagined. A Mother's Desperate Attempt In a twisted attempt to protect her son, Zach's mother made a devastating claim during one of the beatings. "At the end of the horrible beating they gave my mom, she told him that I wasn't his son," Zach reveals. This lie, meant to shield him, only intensified his father's focus on hurting him. The Loss of Innocence Zach's childhood innocence was shattered by the constant violence and fear. "I lost my sweetness," he admits, reflecting on the transformation from a loving, affectionate child to a hardened survivor. The cycle of abuse seemed endless. Nights were punctuated by hasty escapes to women's shelters, only to return home weeks later. Each time, Zach lost a piece of himself. The Birth of an Addict This traumatic childhood laid the foundation for Zach's future struggles with addiction. At just 15, he found solace in cocaine, marking the beginning of a 15-year battle that would nearly cost him everything. Zach's story is a stark reminder of the long-lasting impact of childhood trauma and the insidious nature of addiction. But it's also a testament to the human spirit's resilience and the possibility of redemption. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

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The Addicted Psychopath: Lewis Raymond Taylor

The Addicted Psychopath - Lewis Raymond Taylor. In this gripping episode of *Coming Clean with Me*, “The Addicted Psychopath” host Elliott Wald delves into the tumultuous life of Lewis Raymond Taylor, a man whose journey from a troubled youth to a successful entrepreneur is as harrowing as it is inspiring. Diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder, Lewis candidly shares his experiences of growing up in an abusive environment, battling addiction, and his time in prison. Despite these challenges, he has transformed his life, founding a coaching company now valued at $25 million. Lewis opens up about his childhood, marked by an alcoholic and abusive father, and how these early experiences led him to seek solace in alcohol and drugs. His story takes a dark turn as he recounts his time in prison and the violent altercations that landed him there. However, it is within these walls that Lewis experiences a profound realization: to change his life, he must change himself. This episode explores the complexities of Lewis's personality, his struggles with addiction, and his eventual path to recovery and success. It is a testament to the power of self-awareness and the possibility of redemption, even for those who have been labeled as irredeemable. Join Elliot Ward as he unravels the layers of Lewis Raymond Taylor's life, revealing a narrative of resilience and transformation that challenges preconceived notions about psychopathy and addiction. Find out more on Elliott's website: https://www.hypnosis-expert.com/ADDICTION/

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