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The Body Love Binge - Eating Disorder Recovery Podcast

Victoria Kleinsman

The Body Love Binge is the podcast for you if you’re SO DONE with living in the hell hole of an eating disorder.

If you’re ready to dig deep & truly meet yourself (most likely for the first time in your life) in order to reach REAL recovery from anorexia, bulimia or binge eating, then you’re in the right place.

I'm your host, Victoria Kleinsman, a food freedom & body love coach, eating disorder & abuse survivor who's on a mission to love & support millions of women to come back home to self-love & intuition eating.

If it's possible for me, it's possible for you too! ❤️

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  • Monday · 53 min

    Hypnotherapy was the answer to my anorexia (even though I thought it was BS!) with Bonnie Killip

    Why Knowing What to Do Isn't Enough: Hypnotherapy, Recovery & the Subconscious Mind with Bonnie Killip Bonnie Killip is a dietitian, clinical hypnotherapist and eating disorder recovery specialist based in Australia. She also lived with anorexia for fifteen years, went through hospital treatment repeatedly, knew more about nutrition than almost anyone, and still could not recover until she found something that worked at a completely different level. That something was hypnotherapy. What she shares here is genuinely game-changing. This episode is for you if: You know what you need to do to recover but cannot seem to actually do it You have spent years in therapy and still feel stuck You feel like there must be something uniquely wrong with you because others seem to be able to recover You have been told recovery is just something you manage forever, not something you fully achieve You are curious about hypnotherapy and what it actually involves in practice You want to hear from someone who found the system lacking and discovered a different way In this episode, we cover: ✨ Bonnie's fifteen years living with anorexia, in and out of hospital, and why having all the nutritional knowledge made no difference at all ✨ The moment she sat in her car after a support group and cried, and why it changed everything ✨ How she found hypnotherapy through a newspaper clipping her grandmother had saved ✨ Why she went to her first session completely sceptical and what happened anyway ✨ What hypnosis actually is, and why the subconscious responds to it differently than conscious talking therapies ✨ The ninety-five percent principle: why almost everything we do runs on autopilot and why that matters so much for recovery ✨ Why feelings, beliefs and identity, not lack of information, are what keep people stuck ✨ How pre-verbal beliefs get formed and why talk therapy often cannot reach them ✨ What hospital treatment looked like for Bonnie and why disempowerment keeps people cycling back ✨ Why no one asked Bonnie what she wanted for fifteen years of treatment, and what happened the first time someone did ✨ Why trying something different when what you are doing is not working is wisdom, not failure Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "Fifteen years of treatment and no one asked me what I wanted. The very first question my hypnotherapist asked was: what do you want? I was shocked." 💬 "I knew more about nutrition than almost anyone. That was not the problem. The feelings and emotions just took over every single time." 💬 "Our subconscious runs about ninety-five percent of what we do in a day. An eating disorder is mostly repetition of the same patterns. Working at that level is a shortcut to actually changing things." 💬 "I cannot connect now to how I could possibly have believed I did not deserve to eat. But I believed it. Hypnotherapy helped me change that." 💬 "Shame can only live in the darkness. When it is brought into the light and met with love and understanding, that heals something at a foundational level." Full recovery is absolutely possible. Bonnie is living proof of that, and so am I. If what you have tried so far has not worked, that does not mean you cannot recover. It means you have not yet found the thing that works for you. Keep looking. How to find Bonnie: https://fuellingsuccess.com/ and on Instagram @fuelling_success Much love. 💛 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group 💙 Free trial in The Freedom Collective: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach

  • July 24 · 1 hr 3 min

    How to stop giving a fuck what people think about your body

    Let's call it exactly what it is. I could have titled this one "how to build body confidence" or "cultivating self-acceptance," but that is not really my style. This episode is about genuinely, truly, deeply stopping giving a fuck about what people think of your appearance. Not saying you don't care while still dressing in the dark and cancelling plans because of a bad body image day. The real thing. The freedom thing. This episode is for you if: You are keeping yourself small, hiding or not fully living because of fear of being judged for how your body looks You know intellectually that you shouldn't care what people think but have no idea how to actually get there You have been waiting to feel worthy before you start living your life Someone has made a comment about your body and you cannot stop thinking about it You brush off compliments and find it genuinely painful when people accept or love you You are in recovery and the fear of judgment feels like one of the biggest things keeping you stuck In this episode, we cover: ✨ Why caring about other people's judgment is not vanity, it is a literal survival mechanism rooted in evolution ✨ The separation of tasks: the Adlerian concept that is quietly revolutionary for body image ✨ The what if questions and why asking them opens something that forcing confidence never can ✨ Why actions come before feelings, not the other way around, and what that looks like in practice ✨ What actually happens when someone comments on your body, and why it lands so hard ✨ The golf ball and glass of water: what chronic body shame does to your sense of self over time ✨ The scar study and what it reveals about expectation bias and the invisible lenses we see ourselves through ✨ Why the judgment you fear from others is almost always a projection of your own inner critic ✨ Why you cannot collect enough external validation to fill an internal void, ever ✨ Comparison as the thing that requires hierarchy, and why you are losing a competition that was never real ✨ The grief of letting go of a body, an identity and a coping mechanism that were familiar, even when they were destroying you ✨ Why receiving love and compliments can feel genuinely dangerous, and what to do with that ✨ Six practical ways to move from understanding all of this to actually living it Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "You are the only one who is worried about how you look. Everyone else is too busy worrying about themselves." 💬 "I am not who and what you think I am. You are who and what you think I am." 💬 "You will never collect enough external validation to fill an internal void. Never." 💬 "The strategy of keeping yourself small to avoid judgment is not only not working. It is costing you your life, your freedom and your happiness." 💬 "It is not your job to like me. It is mine." 💬 "Recovery means trusting your body more than you trust the fear." The key to stopping giving a fuck about what people think of your body is not getting your body to look a certain way. It has never been that. It is healing your relationship with yourself, meeting the parts of you that believed they were unworthy, and showing the little version of you who learned her body was wrong that she was never the problem. That is the work. And it is the most worthwhile work you will ever do. Much love. 💛 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group 💙 Free trial in The Freedom Collective: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach

  • July 11 · 50 min

    How to practically use part work with Mike

    Parts Work, Self Energy & Healing in Difficult Environments: Q&A with Mike, Part Two Me and Mike are back, and this one goes deep. We received so many beautiful, brave questions from listeners after our first conversation about parts work and Internal Family Systems. So we sat down together and worked through four of them in real time, the way we always do, naturally, honestly and without a script. This is one of those conversations that kept surprising me as it unfolded. This episode is for you if: You understand parts work intellectually but struggle to actually access self energy when you need it You find it easy to feel compassion for others but the moment you turn it inward, a critical or shaming part takes over You are trying to heal while still living in the environment where the wounds happened You experience compulsive movement and feel stuck between knowing what you need and being unable to act on it You want to understand how to use your own anger, determination and drive as fuel for healing, not just obstacles to overcome In this episode, we cover: ✨ How to access the compassionate parent part when a critical protector keeps taking over ✨ Why the part that reminds you of your dad showing up in self-work makes complete and understandable sense ✨ The difference between being caught up in a part and being in self, and why it is often far more subtle than we expect ✨ Why the one asking the questions and noticing what is happening is already self ✨ Healing while living with emotionally unavailable parents: is it possible, and what does it actually look like ✨ Grief and acceptance as the real foundation of healing in a triggering environment ✨ How to use triggers as invitations to turn towards the parts that need you, rather than evidence that you are failing ✨ The question to ask every single part that wants to do something harmful: what are you afraid would happen if you didn't? ✨ Compulsive movement, the biological migration response and the parts work layer underneath ✨ Why self never tells a part what it should or should not do, and why the voice saying "stop this behaviour" is probably another part ✨ Using anger, resentment and the overachiever energy to fuel recovery, and why that is not anti-parts work at all ✨ Why parts never really want to do the harmful things they do, they just do not yet know there is another way ✨ What it looks like when a part finally trusts self enough to stop the behaviour it has been using to stay safe Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "The part that wants to compulsively move is not bad. It is exhausted. It just does not know there is another way yet." 💬 "The thing you are seeking, the love, connection and belonging, is where you are looking from. It is already you." 💬 "Self has no agenda. It is not trying to fix or stop anything. It is just there to listen. And paradoxically, that is when the healing happens." 💬 "I used the anger. I was a grown woman afraid of food and I was furious about it. That fury helped me face the terror and do it anyway." 💬 "You are the parent your parts have been waiting for. You can go back to where they are stuck and be the person they needed then." We have so much more to come from me and Mike, including episodes on people pleasing, the personal development trap, seeking perfection versus acceptance, and Mike's word for this year: embody. Stay tuned. Much love. 💛 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group 💙 Free trial in The Freedom Collective: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach

  • June 26 · 44 min

    Q&A: Stop chasing outcomes: The real work of recovery is what you're avoiding

    Q&A: Stop Chasing Outcomes: The Real Work of Recovery is What You're Avoiding You sent in your questions, and I am answering them, honestly and without holding back. This episode is a solo Q&A where I go deep on five listener questions that cover some of the most common, most stuck places in recovery. From comparison and fatphobia to leaving home, reintroducing exercise, gut health complications and the terrifying thought that maybe you actually don't want to get better. If any of these have been living rent-free in your head, this one is for you. This episode is for you if: You consider yourself recovered but a friend's weight loss has sent you into a spiral and you don't understand why You suspect you might be fatphobic and feel ashamed to admit it You are living at home and wondering if you can recover in the same environment where you became ill You have gut infections or food intolerances that complicate eating unrestrictedly You want to reintroduce exercise but are scared of what will come up when you do In this episode, we cover: ✨ Why seeing someone close to you lose weight can trigger even a recovered person, and what that is actually pointing to ✨ The difference between what we think we are chasing and the feeling we are really after ✨ Micro restrictions and why they will always backfire, even when they seem sensible ✨ Yes, you are probably fatphobic, and no, that does not say anything bad about you as a person ✨ Why you cannot simply drop a fear of fatness until your nervous system has evidence it is safe to do so ✨ The difference between wanting to recover and being willing to do what recovery requires ✨ Why identifying with your eating disorder makes the prospect of recovery feel like a death ✨ Can you recover in the same environment where you became ill? The honest answer ✨ Autonomy, rebellion and why your own recovery has to belong to you, not your parents ✨ Gut infections, food intolerances and SIBO: how to approach freedom when certain foods cause real physical consequences ✨ Reintroducing exercise after a long break: why the thoughts you are afraid of coming up are exactly the ones you need to face ✨ The difference between "I have to exercise" and "I choose to exercise" and why that distinction matters enormously ✨ What it actually means to bridge the gap between no exercise and a genuinely free relationship with movement Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "Trauma is also what didn't happen to you. The absence of the big stuff does not mean your emotional needs were met." 💬 "Of course you are fatphobic. We all are. We have been conditioned to be. That is not a character flaw. That is what recovery is here to dismantle." 💬 "Want and willing are two very different things. You can want recovery with everything you have and still not be willing to do what it takes. That is where the real work begins." 💬 "You cannot heal what you are not willing to face. The thoughts you are scared of coming up when you exercise are exactly the ones that need to come up so you can move through them." 💬 "True freedom is feeling at home with yourself wherever you are in the world, whatever is going on in your life. That is the goal. Not a location. Not a body size. Just you, at home in yourself." If any of these questions sound like your own inner monologue, you are not alone and you are not broken. You are just someone doing the brave, messy, necessary work of recovery. Keep going. Much love. 💛 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group 💙 Free trial in The Freedom Collective: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach

  • June 12 · 1 hr 16 min

    Why Breath Work Made My Anxiety Worse: Finding the Right Somatic Practice with Beverly Atkins

    Beverly Atkins is the founder of pauseture, a mobile app that brings the Feldenkrais method, one of the most powerful and least known somatic practices in the world, to people who need it. She stumbled into it after putting her back out and not being able to walk upright for three weeks. What she found changed not just her back, but her relationship with her body, her food, her emotions, and her entire nervous system. I have been using the app myself and I cannot recommend it enough. So we sat down to talk about all of it. This episode is for you if: You feel disconnected from your body and live mostly in your head You have tried meditation or breath work and it made your anxiety worse, not better You are in recovery and need something gentle to replace compulsive exercise You carry tension, chronic pain or bracing in your body that nothing seems to shift You want to understand how stored trauma shows up physically and how movement can release it You are curious about somatic healing but don't know where to start In this episode, we cover: ✨ Beverly's personal story of body hatred, extreme exercise, back injury and how she accidentally found the Feldenkrais method ✨ What the Feldenkrais method actually is, and why it is so different from yoga, pilates or conventional exercise ✨ Why the lessons ask you to close your eyes, go slowly and stop comparing yourself to anyone else ✨ How 24 days of gentle movement lessons changed Beverly's relationship with food at her calorie-abundant workplace ✨ Why Beverly stopped working out entirely for 18 months and what happened when she returned to movement ✨ Why traditional meditation and breath work made Beverly's anxiety worse, and why movement meditation worked instead ✨ How the method builds neuroplasticity and rewires habitual patterns in the brain ✨ Why the nervous system must feel safe before it can learn anything new ✨ The pelvis, trauma and bracing: what Beverly witnessed in her private practice with clients who had experienced sexual abuse ✨ Interoception and proprioception: noticing how you feel inside your body and how you fit in the world around you ✨ How this work can support body image and body dysmorphia by helping you sense your body accurately rather than just see it ✨ Why going smaller and slower in the lessons is where the most profound change happens ✨ How finding choice in movement quietly creates choice in every other area of life ✨ How to access the app, the free trial and how to find a Feldenkrais practitioner near you Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "The only thing permanent about our behaviour is our belief that it is." 💬 "Instead of judging yourself for falling back into an old pattern, just say: that's interesting. That's my old pattern. And now I have a choice." 💬 "I chose this food because of how it made me feel, not how it was going to make me look. That shift changed everything." 💬 "When we let go of judgment of ourselves, something profound happens. We start to meet other people, and life itself, with that same curiosity." 💬 "Your nervous system is not in a learning mode if it does not feel safe. Safety comes first. Always." If you have been searching for something gentle, something that meets your nervous system exactly where it is without forcing or fixing, this might be it. I found it genuinely life-changing and I think you might too. You can find the app by searching pauseture in your app store. There is a seven day free trial so you can experience it for yourself before committing to anything. Pelvic mobility and its connection to back, shoulder, neck, and jaw pain: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4yYMqCwZrrc Much love. 💛 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group 💙 Free trial in The Freedom Collective: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach

  • May 30 · 49 min

    “But I had a happy childhood…”

    "But I Had a Happy Childhood": Why Your Eating Disorder Still Makes Complete Sense This one comes up with almost every single person I work with. But Victoria, I had a happy childhood. My parents loved me. I don't have any trauma. So why do I have an eating disorder? This episode is my answer. Because trauma is not only what happened to you. Trauma is also what didn't happen to you. The absence of the big stuff does not mean your emotional needs were met. And unmet emotional needs in childhood are trauma, just not the kind that gets talked about enough. This episode is for you if: You have always said "but I had a happy childhood" and wondered why that hasn't explained or healed things You feel like you have no right to struggle because nothing that bad happened to you You have done the therapy, the journaling, the work, and still feel it in your body You want to understand why your eating disorder was created in the first place You are ready to grieve what you didn't get, without blame, but with truth In this episode, we cover: ✨ Why trauma is not only what happened to you, it is also what didn't happen to you ✨ How unmet emotional needs in childhood create the same nervous system wounds as more obvious trauma ✨ What a "happy childhood" can actually look like beneath the surface, and what it communicates to a developing nervous system ✨ Being sent to your room when upset, and what that taught you about big emotions ✨ How early body shame can begin long before magazines or social media ✨ Early sleep separation and why your nervous system may have been in low-level survival mode from the very beginning ✨ Enmeshment and codependency: what it looks like to grow up not knowing where you end and your parent begins ✨ Erika Commissar's research on the first three years of life and why it matters so much for eating disorder recovery ✨ Why the myth of quality over quantity time does not hold up for babies and toddlers ✨ Why talk therapy alone often cannot reach wounds that formed before you had words ✨ Four practical things you can begin with: permission to grieve, somatic work, writing to your younger self, and understanding the eating disorder as a messenger rather than an enemy ✨ Victoria answers a listener question from someone who is pregnant and exhausted by the fight Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "Trauma is not the event itself. It is the wound that the absence of what should have been there leaves inside of you." 💬 "Your eating disorder was not a malfunction. It was an incredibly intelligent adaptation." 💬 "A child doesn't think my parents are struggling. A child thinks there must be something wrong with me." 💬 "You can spend years understanding it intellectually and still feel it in your body like it is the most real thing in the world. Because the body keeps the score." 💬 "If you keep telling yourself you had a happy childhood and there is nothing to heal, you are leaving your inner child out in the cold. She is in there. She has always been in there." If any of this is landing in your body rather than just your head, that is the work beginning. She has been waiting. And you can go back for her now. Much love. 💛 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group 💙 Free trial in The Freedom Collective: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach

  • May 13 · 57 min

    The Body Never Lies With Allison Pagano

    Healing Through Movement: Embodied Dance, Trauma & Reclaiming Your Body with Allison Pagano This conversation goes somewhere unexpected and beautiful. Allison Pagano is the creator of Embodied Dance, a body of work she accidentally built over 25 years that uses dance and movement as a healing art. She leads teacher trainings, works with clients one-to-one, and has spent decades helping people reconnect to their body's truth and reclaim their power from the inside out. She also has her own deeply personal story of recovery, which is where all of this began. We talk about how the body stores what the mind cannot name, why being witnessed in raw vulnerability is one of the most profound forms of healing, and what it looks like to turn your emotions over to the body and let it lead. This episode is for you if: You feel disconnected from your body and live mostly in your head You have emotions that feel too big, too scary or completely inaccessible You've done mindset work but sense there is something deeper that hasn't shifted yet You struggle with rage, grief or fear and have no idea how to express them safely You want to understand how trauma is stored in the body and how movement can release it You have never danced in your life and wonder if any of this could possibly be for you In this episode, we cover: ✨ How Allison accidentally created Embodied Dance while in the middle of her own eating disorder recovery ✨ The moment of being witnessed in raw vulnerability that changed everything for her ✨ How lineage pain, trauma passed down through generations, shows up in our own bodies ✨ The process of following emotion as a thread through the body, from activation to full expression ✨ Why you do not need to know where something came from to begin healing it ✨ Pre-verbal trauma and how the body holds memories the mind cannot access ✨ How to begin if you are completely disconnected and cannot feel anything at all ✨ Rage as a power reclamation: why owning your anger gives you access to more of everything ✨ What to do when you cannot physically express an emotion in the moment ✨ Why the cup that holds your grief also holds your joy: feeling more of one opens you to more of everything ✨ Victoria's mirror work story: what started as rage led to a memory that had nothing to do with her body at all ✨ How creating new movement qualities rewires the brain through neuroplasticity ✨ Why you need absolutely no dance experience to benefit from this work Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "The body never lies. No matter what a person is saying, their body is always telling the truth." 💬 "On the other side of doing this work is everything you ever wanted: safety, peace, and feeling at home in yourself." 💬 "When you deepen into the rage or the grief, you get back ten times your aliveness, ten times your joy, ten times your pleasure." 💬 "Your body holds all your tender secrets. It is your greatest guide. We just have to learn how to access it." 💬 "There is a way out. It is not a life sentence. On the other side is a really wonderful way of being in the world, being in your body." If you have ever felt at war with your body, cut off from your emotions, or like there is something stuck that words and thinking cannot reach, this episode is for you. The body has been holding it all, waiting for you to come back to it. And it is never too late to start. Much love. 💛 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial Freedom Collective: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

  • April 30 · 1 hr 3 min

    The control paradox - Why letting go is your only path to freedom

    This one is a big one, my love. Stay with me. I start this episode by answering a question from the wonderful Heather, who asks what to do when thinness feels like the only thing that makes her feel powerful, and why she still isn't surrendering yet. It's such an honest, courageous question, and I wanted to give it the real answer it deserves before diving into today's main topic: the control paradox. Because here's the thing your eating disorder brain is not going to want to hear. The goal of recovery is not to be in control around food. The goal is to let go of control entirely. Control and freedom are not the same thing. They are opposites. And you cannot control your way to the freedom you are desperately seeking. This episode is for you if: You feel like control is the only thing keeping you safe You know the eating disorder is making you miserable but cannot imagine letting go You believe that if you let go, you will never stop eating or will gain weight forever You have tried to find a middle ground, a way to control just a little bit less You feel powerful when you're thin and terrified of what you'll lose if you recover You are stuck in quasi recovery and deep down you know it You want to understand what true food freedom actually looks and feels like from the inside In this episode, we cover: ✨ Heather's question: what to do when thinness feels like your only source of power, and why the answer is always the deeper work ✨ The difference between real power and external validation dressed up as power ✨ Why you developed the eating disorder in the first place, and why it was never your fault ✨ The crucial difference between control and choice, and why you cannot have genuine choice while you are still controlling ✨ Why every form of disordered eating is an attempt at control, and why no amount of it will ever be enough ✨ What actually happens in your nervous system when you are controlling food versus when you let go ✨ Foods on a pedestal: why forbidden foods have power over you, and how unconditional permission removes that power ✨ The four phases of letting go: the fear and extreme hunger, habituation, body trust, and freedom ✨ Why your body has a natural set point and what happens when you finally get out of its way ✨ Soul self versus suppressed self: which one is running the show around food right now ✨ Practical steps to start letting go of control, even when it feels absolutely terrifying ✨ What life genuinely looks like when you are living in food freedom Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "The control that felt empowering became exhausting. The rules that felt safe became suffocating. You were trying to control your way to freedom, but control and freedom are literally opposites." 💬 "You cannot control your way backwards. You can only heal your way forwards." 💬 "When you are controlling, the question is: am I allowed to have this? When you are free, the question is: do I want this? One comes from fear. The other comes from trust." 💬 "The opposite of control is not out of control. The opposite of control is freedom." 💬 "You have spent long enough trying to control your way to freedom. It is time to take the actual path. Surrender. Trust. Let go." Freedom is waiting for you on the other side of control. Much love. 💛 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

  • April 18 · 55 min

    All things menopause, HRT, anxiety & ED with Robyn Kievit

    This conversation is one I've been wanting to have for a long time. I invited Robyn Kievit onto the podcast because she is doing something genuinely rare. She is the first dietician to become a nurse practitioner, she specialises in eating disorders, disordered eating and body image, and over the past several years she has become deeply educated in hormone therapy and perimenopause. She is one of very few clinicians in the world looking at all of this together, as one whole picture. And that matters enormously for the women I work with. We talk about what perimenopause actually feels like, why the hormonal shifts of this life phase can cause eating disorder symptoms to surge, what hormone therapy is and who it might help, and why so many women are being dismissed by their doctors when they deserve so much better. We also talk about body image, aging, grief, and what it means to enter this next season of life with compassion rather than resistance. This episode is for you if: You're in perimenopause or approaching it and want to understand what's actually happening in your body Your anxiety, depression or eating disorder symptoms have surged and you don't know why You've been dismissed by a doctor and told it's too early to seek support You have a history of an eating disorder and want to understand how that intersects with hormonal changes You're struggling with body image as your body changes with age You want to know your options, natural, hormonal, and otherwise, for supporting yourself through this transition You believe, like I do, that you don't have to just white-knuckle your way through this In this episode, we cover: ✨ The signs of perimenopause that often get missed or dismissed, and why they matter ✨ How hormonal changes affect mood, sleep, cognition and anxiety in ways that are genuinely physiological, not just in your head ✨ Why anxiety and depression can surge during perimenopause, especially if you have a history of either ✨ The HPA and HPO axes explained in plain English, and why they're so central to how you feel during this transition ✨ What hormone therapy actually is, who it can help, and what the current guidance really says ✨ Why birth control pills and IUDs are considered hormone therapy, and what that means for you ✨ The enormous gap in clinical education around eating disorders and menopause, and why Robyn created her course to address it ✨ How to advocate for yourself if you're being dismissed by a doctor ✨ Why bone health and cardiovascular health make hormonal support even more important for women with eating disorder histories ✨ The body image and grief piece of aging, and why our bodies changing is not something to be corrected ✨ What it means to enter the archetype of the crone, the wise woman, with self-compassion rather than fear ✨ Why you are allowed to ask not to be weighed at a medical appointment ✨ Robyn's course for clinicians and why it exists Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "I just wasn't feeling like myself. That is the number one thing women say when perimenopause begins, and it deserves to be taken seriously, not dismissed." 💬 "We are at the mercy of our hormones in some ways, and that is not a weakness. It's physiology. The question is what tools do we have to support ourselves through it." 💬 "Growing old is a gift. Every line on your face is a line of a life lived, smiled in, cried in. A body well lived in." 💬 "Our bodies change purposefully. The goal isn't to fight that. It's to find solutions that help us feel well within it." 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

  • April 2 · 1 hr 3 min

    The Missing Piece in ED Recovery - Why Pleasure Is Non-Negotiable

    This episode is for you if: You're doing all the recovery things but still feel flat, joyless or like you're just surviving You feel guilty resting, playing or doing anything that isn't productive You've never really thought about pleasure beyond food — or you're scared of it Your inner critic tells you pleasure is indulgent, earned or something you don't deserve You're a high achiever who has tied your worth to productivity for as long as you can remember You feel disconnected from your body and can't imagine actually enjoying being in it You want to understand why recovery without pleasure keeps you stuck in quasi-recovery In this episode, we cover: ✨ Why pleasure is not a luxury in eating disorder recovery — it's the recovery ✨ The nervous system piece: why your body literally cannot heal without experiencing pleasure ✨ How trauma damages your relationship with pleasure — and teaches you that enjoying yourself isn't safe ✨ The soul self versus the suppressed self and how they each relate to pleasure completely differently ✨ Why reclaiming food pleasure is essential — and what savouring food actually looks like after restriction ✨ Why food obsession comes from deprivation of pleasure, not just deprivation of food ✨ What to do when food is your only source of pleasure and why that's completely valid for a season ✨ Pleasure beyond food — sensory, creative, relational, rest and movement pleasure explained ✨ Why high achieving women struggle most with pleasure — and how the eating disorder is an achievement disorder in disguise ✨ The body image piece: why you cannot wait until you love your body before letting it feel good ✨ How to know what genuine pleasure actually feels like — especially if you've been in survival mode for years ✨ The pain and discomfort inventory: what you're tolerating that's blocking pleasure from landing ✨ Fun, playfulness and your inner children — why this is legitimate trauma healing work, not just a nice idea ✨ What actually happens in your nervous system when you play, laugh and do things just because they're fun ✨ Practical steps to start microdosing pleasure into your life right now ✨ Why a life without pleasure keeps the eating disorder relevant — and what to build instead Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "You cannot heal from trauma and from an eating disorder through discipline and willpower alone. Your nervous system actually requires pleasure in order to heal." 💬 "The eating disorder convinces you that denying yourself pleasure is virtuous — that suffering is noble and deprivation is discipline. That is a lie." 💬 "Pleasure is not something you earn. It's not a reward for recovering enough. Pleasure is the recovery." 💬 "You can't wait until you love your body before you let it feel good. You have to let pleasure in first. That's how the body image shifts — through embodied experience, not willpower." 💬 "The eating disorder is deadly serious. It doesn't play, it doesn't laugh, it doesn't do things just for fun. Playfulness is one of the most powerful ways to choose your soul self over it." 💬 "You didn't survive your eating disorder just to live a beige, pleasureless, serious existence. You survived so you could live fully — with joy, aliveness, silliness and pleasure." 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

  • March 21 · 50 min

    The Void After Recovery: Why Most People Slip Back And How I Didn't With Georgia

    Georgia's back — and this time, things are even deeper. When Georgia first came on the podcast, she was in what she thought was full recovery. And in many ways she was. But what followed taught her something nobody really talks about: recovering from an eating disorder doesn't automatically fill the void it leaves behind. In this episode, we get into what happens after recovery, why so many women find themselves slipping back into old patterns not out of relapse but out of boredom and emptiness, and what it actually looks like to build a life so full there's simply no room for the eating disorder anymore. In this episode, we cover: ✨ Why Georgia doesn't call what happened a relapse — and the crucial distinction that matters ✨ What "complacency in recovery" actually looks like and how quickly it can creep in ✨ Why the identity of being "in recovery" can keep you stuck — and what to shift to instead ✨ The void that recovery leaves behind and why filling it is non-negotiable ✨ How boredom, not desire, can pull you back into eating disorder behaviours ✨ Why recovering from an eating disorder doesn't fix life — and why that's actually good news ✨ The honeymoon phase of recovery and what comes after it ✨ Fear of taking up space in the world as the next evolution of the fear of physical growth ✨ How diet culture and self-suppression are the same oppression — just in different forms ✨ Why your recovered mind is one of the most powerful tools you'll ever have ✨ Feeling and moving through emotions — what actually works and what doesn't ✨ Why emotions, when suppressed, will always find a way to come out ✨ Hypothalamic amenorrhea — what it is, why it matters even if you don't want children, and Georgia's personal journey with it ✨ Why you can be mentally free and still dealing with the physical long-term effects of restriction ✨ Georgia's coaching practice — who she works with and how to reach her Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "Recovery from an eating disorder doesn't fix life. Life is still a bit shit sometimes — and unless you put energy into filling it up, the eating disorder will fill the space instead." 💬 "I was so bored. All I knew was eating disorder behaviours. I didn't know what else to do — and that was the honest truth." 💬 "The fear of taking up space in the world is the same oppression as diet culture keeping women physically small. I refused to stay small in either way." 💬 "Recovery is the hardest thing I've ever done. So now I look at life and think — bring it on. I've already overcome my biggest fears." 💬 "I am no longer willing to contribute to my own oppression. That quote on my mirror changed everything." 💬 "Any feeling that wants to arise within you, you have the capacity to feel it. Otherwise it wouldn't be rising. Trust that." Much love. 💛 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/ Connect with Georgia - Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/georgiagracerecovers?igsh=MWZ5NHZudmJ6Znk0dA%3D%3D&utm_source=qr- HealingwthG podcast on Apple: https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/healingwithg/id1880094360- HealingwithG podcast on Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/00WnCL5bcbX3wX7hMQNyrC And my coaching email address is: Healingwithg.coach@gmail.com

  • March 6 · 47 min

    Juicy AF Q&A

    Your Questions Answered: Meal Plans, Bloating, Hunger, OCD, Movement & More Right then, let's get into it. I put a question box on Instagram and you all delivered. This episode is a juicy Q&A where I'm answering some of the most common — and some of the most vulnerable — questions that came in. From meal plans and bloating to OCD with binge eating, compulsive exercise trauma, self-care as avoidance, and ARFID being misdiagnosed in hospitals. We cover a lot of ground and I am not holding back. This episode is for you if: You're unsure whether to stick with your meal plan or eat intuitively You're bloated, uncomfortable, and wondering when it will ever end Your hunger signals have disappeared and you don't know how to eat without them You have OCD rituals around food and wonder if full recovery is even possible for you The thought of exercise sends you into panic and freeze mode You're doing all the self-care things but still feel like you're avoiding something You or someone you love has ARFID and is being treated like they have anorexia In this episode, we cover: ✨ Meal plans versus intuitive eating — the real questions you need to ask yourself first ✨ How long bloating actually lasts in recovery and why it's a sign your body is healing ✨ Why your digestive system needs time and what's really happening inside your body ✨ How to eat when you have zero hunger — and why waiting for hunger is still restriction ✨ Mechanical eating explained — what it is, why it works, and why it's worth it ✨ OCD with binge eating disorder — yes, full recovery is absolutely possible ✨ Why your OCD latches onto food specifically and what your nervous system is really asking for ✨ Practical steps for OCD rituals around food — including tiny acts of rebellion ✨ The freeze response around movement — why it's not a problem to fix, it's a body screaming for safety ✨ Why you do not have a movement problem — you have a nervous system problem ✨ Why forcing yourself back to exercise right now would be re-traumatising ✨ What somatic healing practices actually look like when you're not ready for the gym ✨ The difference between self-care as support versus self-care as avoidance ✨ What true surrender actually looks like — and why it's uncomfortable on purpose ✨ ARFID versus anorexia — why treating them the same way is harmful and what ARFID actually needs Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "You don't convince yourself to eat. You just decide to. There is no negotiating with an eating disorder — there is only a decision." 💬 "The bloating is temporary. The eating disorder is not temporary unless you heal. It will steal your entire life if you let it." 💬 "Your hunger signals have been suppressed for so long your body stopped sending them. You cannot restore hunger without eating consistently first." 💬 "You don't have a movement problem. You have a nervous system problem. Your body spent years being punished — and now it's finally safe enough to feel it." 💬 "Self-care can support surrender, but it can also become a subtle way of avoiding it. The real work is learning to just be with yourself, without doing anything about it." 💬 "You are not stuck and you are not failing. Your body is doing exactly what it's supposed to do after years of trauma." If you've been sitting with any of these questions — or recognising yourself in someone else's — this episode will give you clarity, compassion, and some very practical places to start. You've got this, my love. I really mean that. 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

  • February 21 · 59 min

    How to connect to your TRUE self - with Mike

    Parts Work, Inner Children & The Self: A Conversation with Mike This one is a little different — and I think you're going to love it. I invited my friend Mike onto the podcast because we've been having the most beautiful, deep conversations over voice messages for years now. It started when he reached out to me to help his friend Finja recover from anorexia, and somehow, three years later, we're still talking — about spirituality, parts work, fear, grief, and what it really means to heal. So we decided to have one of our conversations in real time, and this is it. This episode is for you if: You've ever wondered who the "you" is when you talk about loving yourself You feel like you're at war with different parts of yourself and can't figure out why You keep doing things you don't want to do and can't seem to stop You've done the therapy, read the books, had the insights — and still feel stuck You want to understand what parts work and Internal Family Systems (IFS) actually look like in practice You're curious about the difference between fear and discomfort — and whether they're even different at all You're on a healing journey and want to go deeper than behaviour change In this episode, we cover: ✨ Mike's Word of the Year — why he chose "discomfort" and what it actually taught him ✨ The difference between your panic zone and your stretch zone — and how to know which one you're in ✨ Why checking in with your parts before, during and after facing fear changes everything ✨ What Internal Family Systems (IFS) actually is — explained in the most beautiful, accessible way ✨ The "self" versus your parts — and why the self is not a part at all ✨ The eight C's of self-energy: clarity, compassion, curiosity, courage and more ✨ Why all parts — even the ones that scare you — are rooted in love ✨ The difference between exiles and protectors, and how protectors keep you from your pain ✨ Why your protectors think you're still the age you were when the wound happened ✨ What happens to a part once it's healed — and where it goes ✨ The reframe that stopped me in my tracks: it's not self-love, it's part love ✨ My story of sitting at a traffic light, looking in the mirror, and saying "I see you" ✨ Why connection — not fixing — is what parts actually need ✨ The fear of loss at the root of every fear (try this experiment for yourself this week) ✨ Why grief might be the hardest emotion to sit with — and why it's also the most necessary ✨ The paradox of loss: you've lost something AND you've always had everything you need ✨ Why healing is seeing through illusions — and what that actually means in practice Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "Discomfort and fear are the same thing. There's always a part that's afraid, and that fear is always connected to somewhere it once wasn't safe." 💬 "The self is love. That's literally what it is. So you can't love yourself — you can only love your parts. That's the real work." 💬 "I looked in the mirror at a red traffic light, looked into my own eyes, and just said: I see you. That was all she had ever needed." 💬 "Every single part of you — even the most destructive one — loves you so much it's trying to protect you from pain. There are no bad parts." 💬 "Healing is seeing through the illusions and coming to the ultimate truth that you are nothing and everything, all at the same time." 💬 "When a part finally feels seen and understood, that is the healing. Not fixing. Not reasoning. Just truly being with it." 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

  • February 8 · 33 min

    Are Eating Disorders Physiological or Psychological?

    Are Eating Disorders Physiological or Psychological? The Answer Changes Everything This is a solo episode that shifts how you understand your eating disorder entirely. I'm diving deep into Tabitha Farrar's work on the migration response and exploring the question that everyone asks: is it biological or is it psychological? The honest answer is it's both. And understanding why changes how you recover. This episode is for you if: • You've wondered if your eating disorder is "real" because you don't have anorexia • You thought restriction should be easier and it wasn't (or it was, and then suddenly it wasn't) • You've struggled with the binge eating that came after restriction • You're stuck in restriction but your body won't cooperate anymore • You've done all the therapy and still can't stop the behaviours • You want to know why willpower doesn't work and what actually does • You're trying to understand if you just need to eat more or if you need psychological work too In this episode, we cover: ✨ The migration response — why some people's bodies make restriction feel easy ✨ The hibernation response — a different genetic physiological response to restriction ✨ Why your metabolism might speed up or slow down when you restrict (it's genetic) ✨ How the same person can find restriction easy, then nearly impossible (my personal story) ✨ Why some people achieve extreme weight loss easily and others don't, even with severe restriction ✨ The vicious feedback loop between biology and psychology in eating disorders ✨ What eating disorders are really about beneath the desire to be thin ✨ Why you restrict: acceptance, safety, validation, control, identity (it's always deeper) ✨ Why therapy alone won't fix an eating disorder (and why weight restriction alone won't either) ✨ Weight restoration isn't recovery — it's just the beginning ✨ How your nervous system learns to treat weight gain as danger ✨ Why you can't think your way out of what your body is experiencing ✨ The neuro pathways that need to be rewired ✨ Meeting the actual psychological needs your eating disorder was serving ✨ Why somatic work (body work) is absolutely essential for recovery ✨ The whole-picture approach: biology + psychology + nervous system + history Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "Restriction wasn't hard, it felt right. It was nothing to do with willpower. It was genetics." 💬 "You can have all the insights in the world about why you developed your eating disorder and still be stuck in the behaviours." 💬 "Your nervous system has learned that weight gain equates to danger. Your brain has built neuro pathways that treat food as a threat." 💬 "Eating disorders are both physiological and psychological. They're usually not one or the other." 💬 "You deserve recovery that honours the full truth of your experience, not the simplified version that fits into a diagnosis box." If you're confused about why eating more isn't enough, why willpower fails, why you can't just think your way out — this episode will make sense of all of it. Recovery works when you address the whole picture. 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

  • January 28 · 54 min

    I Was Conceived in R*pe: How I Healed Generational Trauma With Sanne Van Rossen

    From Adoption Trauma to Root Healing - Sanne's Extraordinary Journey This episode is absolutely raw and it's one you need to listen to if you're exploring what's really underneath your pain. I sit down with Sanne, a physiotherapist turned Root Coaching founder, who was adopted from Sri Lanka as a baby and spent decades not knowing her story. Her journey took her from numbing with drugs and unsafe relationships, to meeting her biological mother, to using plant medicine (ayahuasca) to access the deepest layers of her trauma, to now helping others heal their inner child and access their roots. This is not a light conversation. It's deep, it's real, and it's about understanding that everything that happened before you were even born is living in your nervous system. This episode is for you if: • You've experienced adoption trauma or identity confusion • You're using substances or behaviours to numb overwhelming feelings • You want to understand what plant medicine actually does for healing • You believe trauma needs to be FELT to be healed (not bypassed) • You're interested in inner child work that goes beyond talking therapy • You're ready to go to the root instead of managing symptoms • You want to know what authentic healing actually looks like In this episode, we cover: ✨ What it means to be adopted and the nervous system imprint that creates ✨ How Sanne numbed decades of pain with drugs and escaping ✨ The moment she decided to search for her biological mother in Sri Lanka ✨ What ayahuasca is and why she felt called to use it for healing ✨ The difference between plant medicine in ceremony vs. random use ✨ How the ego protects us from truth and why plant medicine bypasses that ✨ The apology exercise that broke her open (writing apologies from people in her life) ✨ Why having someone physically present while you feel is the healing ✨ Trauma is created in relationship, so it can only be healed in relationship ✨ The difference between feeling it to heal it vs. rapid resolution (bypassing pain) ✨ Inner child work and why it needs to be a whole-body experience ✨ Authentic movement (not dance) as a way to release emotion through the body ✨ What happens when you combine inner child work + plant medicine ✨ How she now helps clients through Root Coaching ✨ The power of five minutes of silence when your nervous system is restless ✨ You can't force healing. You create space and it unfolds ✨ The lady who didn't cry for 10 years and what shifted it ✨ Why you need a safe person to heal. You can't do this alone Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "The start is there. It really is everything. It starts from the very beginning." 💬 "You have to feel it to heal it. You can't just bypass all that pain." 💬 "Trauma is created via relationship, so it can only be healed in relationship." 💬 "The ego is lying continuously and very sharp lying to you. So you believe it most of the time." 💬 "I'm so proud of her. Even though it's so painful, she's going through everything. Badass." If you're stuck in numbing patterns, if you think you need to understand everything intellectually before you can heal, if you're afraid of feeling your pain — this episode will change how you see what's actually possible. This is about going to the root. Not managing symptoms. Actually healing. Connect with Saane: https://sannevanrossen.nl/ 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

  • January 15 · 59 min

    I recovered from my eating disorder so why am I not happy?

    You Recovered From Your Eating Disorder, So Why Are You Still Anxious? This is a solo episode that hits different. I'm addressing something I'm hearing from clients constantly: "I've stopped restricting. I'm eating freely. I haven't binged or purged in months. I'm doing all the work, Victoria, but I'm still having panic attacks. I'm still depressed. Sometimes I'm more anxious now than when I had the eating disorder. Have I done something wrong?" The answer is no. You've actually uncovered what was there all along. This episode is for you if: • You're recovered (or nearly recovered) but still struggling with anxiety, depression, panic, or shutdown • You feel like recovery was supposed to fix everything, but you're still a mess • You're wondering if you failed at recovery or if something's wrong with you • The eating disorder was actually numbing what's underneath • You're grieving the loss of your coping mechanism • You want to know what the fuck to do about it In this episode, we cover: ✨ Why recovery can actually make anxiety and depression feel worse ✨ The eating disorder as a coping mechanism — what it was really managing ✨ The window of tolerance and nervous system dysregulation explained ✨ Why your nervous system is swinging between panic and shutdown ✨ Hyper arousal vs hypo arousal — and which bank you're hitting ✨ How trauma and childhood overwhelm shaped your window of tolerance ✨ Why the eating disorder communicated what you couldn't say ✨ You are NOT a victim to your nervous system — you can manage it ✨ Up-regulation tools for when you're flat, numb, and depressed ✨ Down-regulation tools for when you're panicking, anxious, and overwhelmed ✨ The STOP skill from DBT — interrupt the automatic response ✨ Natural reframes to stop the shame spiral ✨ How to widen your window of tolerance intentionally and slowly ✨ It's not about avoiding the banks — it's about your relationship to them ✨ Practicing at your edge consistently until it expands ✨ Using fear foods as nervous system expansion work ✨ Why this is the real recovery work nobody talks about Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 "You didn't do anything wrong. You've just uncovered what was there all along." 💬 "Your eating disorder was never the problem. It was your solution to a problem. Now the solution is gone." 💬 "Recovery makes this worse because now you're feeling the full force of your nervous system dysregulation without the coping mechanism." 💬 "You are not a victim to your nervous system. You can actually manage it." 💬 "It's not about making the river wider so you never touch the banks. It's about your relationship to the banks when you do hit them." If you're recovered but still struggling, if you're wondering what's wrong with you, if you're grieving the loss of your eating disorder because at least it managed something — this episode will reframe everything. You're not broken. You're not failing at recovery. You're just finally feeling what was always there, and now you get to learn how to actually manage it. The song I recommended: QUIET (Acoustic) Hillside Recording & Diana Trout 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

  • January 2 · 1 hr

    Physically Recovered, Mentally Trapped – Until I Did This

    This episode is raw, honest, and deeply hopeful. I sit down with Brooke, one of my coaching clients, who recovered from a severe eating disorder that began in her teens — fuelled by praise for being “small,” TikTok diet culture, gym culture, religious conditioning, and a deep fear of weight gain. Brooke shares her journey from hospitalisation and years of being “technically recovered but mentally trapped,” to full food freedom, weight restoration, and a life no longer ruled by her eating disorder. This conversation is especially powerful if you: • Are afraid you’ll never recover mentally • Fear weight gain won’t stop • Have food allergies that complicate recovery • Struggle with body image, curves, or modesty conditioning • Feel “different” or like recovery won’t work for you In this episode, we cover: ✨ How praise for being “small” planted the seeds of Brooke’s eating disorder ✨ TikTok, calorie counting, gym culture & “healthy” restriction ✨ Why traditional treatment kept her stuck ✨ The turning point that made her choose recovery for herself ✨ Doing recovery “for the we” when doing it for yourself feels impossible ✨ Navigating recovery with food allergies (without using them as an ED excuse) ✨ Full surrender to mental hunger — and why it’s non-negotiable ✨ Gaining multiple clothing sizes and surviving the body image grief ✨ Religious shame, modesty, curves & reclaiming bodily autonomy ✨ Why weight gain did stop — and how set point brought mental peace ✨ The messy middle of recovery no one talks about ✨ Life after recovery: travel, work, relationships & real freedom Powerful quotes from the episode: 💬 “I thought I’d be the biggest person who ever recovered. I wasn’t.” 💬 “The long-term hard is living with an eating disorder forever.” 💬 “Full allowance is what traditional recovery misses.” 💬 “You can recover physically and mentally — I’m proof.” 💬 “The eating disorder thrives in shame. I’m taking my power back.” If you’re scared, exhausted, or stuck in the middle — this episode will remind you what’s possible. 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

  • Dec 24, 2025 · 1 hr 4 min

    Remember who the f*ck you are - Christmas bonus episode

    Fear, Power & Recovery with Karla In this conversation with Karla, I sit down and get brutally honest about fear - the real barrier to your eating disorder recovery. We talk about why every single one of my clients, and everyone I've ever worked with, is fighting fear in different ways. And more importantly, we talk about how to actually face it. This episode is essential for anyone stuck in restriction, anyone waiting to feel ready, and anyone who needs reminding that you have far more power than you think. Key Quotes from the Episode: 💬 "Fear doesn't control your legs or your arms or your mouth. It feels like it does, but it doesn't. Fear only works when you run from it." 💬 "When people say they can't, they're lying. They won't. And that sounds harsh, but I say it with so much love." 💬 "You can't recover from an eating disorder while acting like you have an eating disorder." 💬 "Only you can recover. You can have the best coach in the world, but only you can take the action and do the recovery for you." 💬 "You're not your brain. You're not your nervous system. Show them it's safe to gain weight, even if it doesn't feel like it. Actions speak louder than words, even for yourself." ✨ What I Cover in This Episode ✨ Why fear is the biggest barrier to recovery - and why recognising this is actually empowering, not defeating ✨ The difference between "can't" and "won't" - and why this distinction puts you back in your power ✨ How to face fear without waiting to feel ready (spoiler: you never will, so you might as well start now) ✨ The real reason actions speak louder than words - and how to show your nervous system it's actually safe to eat, gain weight, and rest ✨ Why recovery requires both unrestricted eating AND trauma healing work - doing one without the other won't create lasting change ✨ How your personality traits that fuelled your eating disorder can absolutely fuel your recovery instead ✨ The power of someone believing in you when you can't believe in yourself - and why this matters more than you think ✨ What true self-love actually means and why you're seeking what you already are ✨ The difference between acceptance and surrender, and why the latter changes everything ✨ How to use responsibility as empowerment, not shame - owning your choices is where your freedom lives ✨ The role of support in facing fear - why you can do it alone, but why having someone reflect your power back to you changes the game ✨ A guided visualisation to connect with your highest, most powerful self - the version of you who's already grounded, free, and completely at home in her body 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

  • Dec 18, 2025 · 1 hr 10 min

    Severe OCD + Anorexia to complete recovery with Amelia

    In this incredibly powerful interview, I sit down with Amelia, who recovered from anorexia, severe OCD, and suicidal ideation after spending 7 years in the UK mental health system. She shares the brutal reality of inpatient treatment, being misdiagnosed, having her autonomy stripped away, and ultimately recovering completely on her own terms. Now 20 years old, she's travelling the world - something that would have been impossible in her eating disorder. This episode is essential for anyone stuck in the system, anyone told they'll never recover, and anyone who needs proof that full recovery IS possible. Key Quotes from the Episode: 💬 "I was diagnosed with anorexia, but they blamed everything on the eating disorder. They were treating me with rigid rules and meal times that just fed straight into my OCD." 💬 "I couldn't see my family for years. My mum didn't see me. The system tore us apart. I felt so alone." 💬 "I had my treatment team deciding everything for me from age 12 to 19. What I ate, what I could do, whether I could work or go to school. I don't like being told what to do." 💬 "I looked at someone in their 60s with anorexia and went, 'That really can't be me.' My determination led me to be like, if I'm not getting help from the people meant to help me, I'll do it my own way." 💬 "One day I looked at my eating disorder breakfast and went, 'This is disgusting. I'm not doing this.' I made a video saying from today onwards, I'm eating exactly what I want. I've never gone back." What I Cover in This Episode: ✨ Misdiagnosis and system failures - How being labelled with only anorexia meant Amelia's severe OCD wasn't treated, and how rigid meal plans fed her compulsions ✨ Inpatient treatment reality - Restraints, being surrounded by competitive illness, weight-based rewards/punishments, and why it doesn't support actual recovery ✨ Separation from family - How the system tore Amelia from her mum for years, causing isolation that made everything worse ✨ Psychiatric units and being sectioned - The reality of being moved to adult psychiatric care, having phones confiscated, and being treated like a prisoner ✨ OCD rituals consuming her life - Hundreds of daily routines taking hours, controlling every movement, making it impossible to participate in life ✨ The turning point - Seeing an older woman with anorexia and deciding "that can't be me," then choosing to recover on her own terms ✨ Work as a lifeline - How having a job gave Amelia purpose beyond being a patient, helping her want to live ✨ Reconnecting with her mum - The emotional reunion after years apart, and how it showed her where she wanted to be ✨ Leaving treatment on her own terms - Threatening to section her again, going to hospital willingly to prove she didn't need to be there, then moving into her first flat ✨ Stopping OCD rituals - Literally sitting on the floor mid-routine, singing songs to interrupt compulsions, exhaustion being the catalyst for change ✨ The decision to go all in - Making a video saying "I'm doing this," throwing away old clothes, eating 10,000+ calories daily without counting ✨ Extreme hunger and body changes - The 34-week pregnant belly, sweating, swelling, and trusting the process whilst her body distributed weight ✨ Coming off medication independently - Reducing antidepressants and antipsychotics herself (with mum's guidance) after years on them ✨ Full recovery and freedom - Eating whatever she wants, forgetting to eat sometimes, having boobs and a bum for the first time, travelling the world This episode will give you hope that no matter how stuck you are, no matter how long you've been ill, no matter what the system says - full recovery IS possible when YOU decide. 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/

  • Dec 5, 2025 · 40 min

    But what about people in very large bodies?

    Body Love Binge Solo Episode - But What About People in Very Large Bodies? In this powerful solo episode, I tackle the question that stops so many people from embracing unrestricted eating: "But what about people in very large bodies?" I address the fear, the stigma, the medical bias, and the truth about health at every size. This episode is essential for anyone who's terrified of weight gain, anyone living in a larger body, and anyone who's been told they're "too fat" to eat freely. Key Quotes from the Episode: 💬 "Your body knows what it's doing. It's not fucking you over on purpose. It's not making you gain weight just to piss you off." 💬 "Health is not a number on the scale. Health is having energy to do things you love, managing stress, moving joyfully, and living without constant food obsession." 💬 "Your body is not the problem. The system that taught you to hate it is the problem." 💬 "You cannot heal from restriction whilst restricting. There's no gentle way to starve yourself back to health." 💬 "Recovery is available to you not despite your body size, but regardless of it. Your hunger deserves to be honoured now, not when you're smaller." What I Cover in This Episode: ✨ Why "morbidly obese" is fear-based language - How medical terminology pathologises fat bodies and why health exists at every size ✨ Set point weight explained - Why your body has a natural weight range where it functions optimally, and why that might be larger than you prefer ✨ What restriction actually does to any size body - The metabolic, hormonal, and psychological damage that happens when you restrict ✨ Why your body might overshoot in recovery - How metabolic damage, hormone balance, and trust-building can temporarily increase your weight ✨ Fat as emotional protection - How your nervous system can use weight as a protective layer against past trauma, and why restriction won't override that ✨ The extremely rare genetic exception - Congenital leptin deficiency and other genetic conditions that affect hunger regulation (and why you're almost certainly not the exception) ✨ Living in a larger body right now - Practical adaptations, tools, and self-care that isn't about "fixing" your body but honouring it ✨ The grief that needs to be witnessed - Mourning the body you wish you had whilst accepting and caring for the body you have ✨ What health actually means - Why behaviours predict health outcomes far better than weight, and how restriction destroys health at any size ✨ What recovery looks like in a larger body - Honouring hunger, stopping compensation, doing trauma work, practising neutrality, and giving it time ✨ Weight as armour - Understanding how your body might be protecting you, and why healing the wounds underneath allows safe release ✨ The truth about being "too far gone" - Why you're not the exception, why your metabolism isn't permanently damaged, and why recovery is available to you This episode will challenge everything you've been taught about weight, health, and what your body "should" look like. It's time to stop punishing yourself and start trusting your body. 💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/