12: When love is not enough: grief, healing & letting go
In this deeply personal episode, I share the fresh grief of saying goodbye to my horse friend, Veyron, as he begins a new chapter with a new owner. This is a conversation about love, loss, trauma, attachment patterns, and the courage it can take to let go of something—or someone—you deeply love when it is no longer the right path for either of you. I reflect on the relationship with Veyron, the accidents that changed me on a bone-level, and the healing that can come from honoring reality with an open heart. I also share the gentle practices helping me move through and being with grief: allowing emotions to be felt, creating a soft place to land, journaling, reaching out for support, and taking things one moment at a time. If you are navigating loss, the end of a relationship, a major life transition, or a season of deep healing, I hope this episode helps you feel a little less alone. In this episode: Saying goodbye to a beloved horse and soul companion Why doing the right thing can still break your heart Love, trust, fear, and trauma in relationships Recognizing familiar patterns of struggle and overwhelm What it means when love is not enough to sustain a healthy connection Grieving with compassion instead of forcing yourself to “move on” How journaling, rest, support, and conscious distraction can help during intense emotions Trusting that healing is possible, even after heartbreak Thank you for listening to the show and for witnessing my process! My hope is that my words encourage and inspire you on your way of becoming stronger than before – always, at any time, and on every step in the process. I would love to hear from you and get to know you better. Please reach out via mail@verenaborell.com! It would mean the world to me if you share the episode with a friend, leave a comment, and subscribe to the show! Let’s connect: Website: https://www.verenaborell.com/en Email: mail@verenaborell.com Newsletter: https://www.verenaborell.com/en/newsletter Timestamps 00:02 — A raw, real-time reflection on grief and the end of a relationship 01:47 — Preparing to say goodbye to Veyron 05:29 — Why this loss feels so profound 07:32 — The story of Veyron and me, the accidents, and our deep bond 09:12 — When love is not enough 13:05 — Veyron as a teacher, friend, and anchor 15:50 — Accepting what Veyron needs—and what I cannot give 17:30 — Love and fear existing in the same relationship 20:26 — Trust after trauma 22:03 — Relationship patterns, struggle, and what feels familiar 27:16 — Reflecting on cycles, attachment, and conscious relationships 30:03 — Allowing grief instead of rushing past it 31:15 — How I process big emotions and heartbreak 33:35 — When grief feels too overwhelming: support and conscious distraction 34:53 — Journaling, titration, and giving yourself space to feel 36:10 — The healing power of connection and being held by others 37:21 — Making room for grief in a world that expects us to keep functioning 38:23 — Fractures heal: growing stronger through pain and love 40:17 — Closing thoughts