I Thought I Healed This ... So Why Does It Still Hurt ?

What happens when you’ve done the healing work… and you still find yourself hurting? You’ve gone to therapy. You’ve journaled. You’ve done the breathwork, the coaching, the ceremonies, the retreats. You’ve learned how to regulate your nervous system and become more self-aware. And then life happens. An old wound gets touched. Grief resurfaces. Your nervous system feels dysregulated. You’re exhausted, emotional, overwhelmed, and suddenly wondering: Wait… I thought I healed this? In this deeply vulnerable episode of Relentlessly Authentic, Rachael and Gabs are having a very real check-in from the messy middle. After an eclipse, a retreat, a move, and a season of massive change, life hasn’t exactly felt polished—and instead of waiting until everything makes sense to talk about it, we’re talking about it from inside of it. Because healing isn’t linear. And having a hard season doesn’t mean you’re going backwards. Sometimes growth means meeting an old part of yourself from a completely different version of you. We talk about shadow work, grief, nervous system dysregulation, burnout, surrender, seasonal shifts, and the uncomfortable emotions we’re so quick to label as “negative.” And we explore a deceptively simple shift: Instead of immediately asking “Why is this happening to me?” What if you asked: “What am I feeling right now?” No fixing it. No spiritually bypassing it. No trying to turn your pain into a lesson before you’ve even let yourself feel it. Just… I get to meet myself here. We also get real about the pressure to look healed, professional, successful, and put together—especially when your work involves helping other people. Because no retreat, morning routine, meditation, breathwork practice, or amount of personal development makes you permanently immune to being human. Maybe that’s not the goal. Maybe the goal is building enough self-trust to know that when another hard season comes, you won’t abandon yourself inside of it. If you’re grieving, burnt out, dysregulated, navigating a transition, or wondering why something you thought you’d healed is suddenly hurting again, this conversation is for you. Stay until the end for a grounding breathwork practice centered around acceptance, safety, and coming home to yourself. You’re not going backwards. You’re meeting yourself here. And this too shall pass. Find Rachael on Instagram @highvibeyogii Find Gaby on Instagram @rising.monarca and @gabrielafverdusco on Tik Tok